My Secret Crush Became My Blind Date

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This book is very different from other online books. For me, it is the first online novel that I am willing to spend money to finish. It is the first book that expects a happy ending rather than a sad ending. It is a book that satisfies my ideal love. When I came across this book, I encountered a shortage of books. I thought it was a traditional rebirth novel. I am really grateful to all the readers for pushing her to the list, so that I had the opportunity to meet her. I am also very grateful to the author for writing such a touching book. I am also grateful to classmate Zhang Jiarui. It was his book stickers that gave me the urge to post, and then I calmed down to sort out my feelings and write them down. The Su Ye in the book is cowardly and brave. He had a crush on Bai Zhi in high school and never dared to tell it publicly. From high school to the thirties of his life, he bravely launched a charge to get a chance to meet Bai Zhi. He finished college and finished his postgraduate and doctoral studies alone in a foreign country, although the chance was slim to zero. The love between Su Ye and Bai Zhi is also full of reason and love. Su Ye is worried that it will be bad if it develops too fast. Su Ye is worried that Bai Zhi knows that she is working silently in a foreign country for her, so she chooses to hide it when she is alone. She does not want Bai Zhi to feel guilty and is only doing it for her own good. Bai Zhi knew Su Ye's worries, and clearly wanted to marry Su Ye, but she had been restraining herself, hoping that everything would go as it should, and that she would not put too much pressure on Su Ye. Such consideration for each other is so sincere and touching. I hope the author will not be polite when spreading sugar. Even if it is so sweet, I will eat it! Their love is not driven by desire, nor is it simply based on lust. Unfortunately, this precious point is very scarce today. Many of today's loves are fast food. "Love comes too fast, like a tornado." The same is true in the past, it is the love that has been surging, it is people talking, not the product of animal nature (I am not advocating Platonic spiritual love, I just think love should be pure, and I do not reject the desire for the beauty of the other person in love. I don't know if you can understand what I mean.) To be honest, I am almost thirty now, and have been in several relationships. After entering the society for a few years, I feel more and more important about the economic foundation, and even forget that in addition to the economic foundation, love And love, this book reawakened my desire for love. I will work hard to learn from Su Ye, make myself better (currently good and bad), learn to control my emotions, know how to think from others' perspective, like a hedgehog, approach the other person cautiously, but be careful not to hurt her, and quietly wait for her in the future I am also grateful to my first love, who gave me all the courage and love, and allowed me, an emotionally deficient person, to experience sweet love. She made me know how to be brave in love, and I felt the feeling of being the only one in the world. Unfortunately, I lost it in the end.

First of all, I want to apologize. I'm really sorry. Originally, I thought I would write this book review after the college entrance examination, that is, on the night of the 11th. But unfortunately, there were too many things moved from school, and I couldn't find the original manuscript of this review ( I restored the photos at the end, but the writing was very messy), and recently, my parents asked me to learn to drive, and what happened has caused me to delay writing this book review until now. I am really sorry (╥ω╥`)  First of all, let me state that this book review is my reflection after reading the latest chapter that day (May 29). There may be some immature parts or misunderstandings. I ask the author and all book friends to bear with me 🙏 The following is the text. There are eight days left before the college entrance examination, and I have found the major I want to study. I have been reading a novel in the past few days. The title of the book is very bad, just like the title of the book produced by the studio to make money. I don't remember how I found this book. I only remember that I was not very interested in it at the time. I clicked it and backed out, but I hesitated for a moment and put it on the bookshelf. About two or three days after it was put on the bookshelf, I started reading this novel and was immediately attracted to it. Because although this novel is about love, it is not like the current mainstream romance novels. The protagonist is a high school student or college student, nor is it the kind of passionate and unrestrained love that is cooked by fire and blooming with flowers. The protagonist is set at 30 years old and is a professor in the Department of Philosophy of Peking University. His character image can be described in two words: he is as gentle as jade and a humble gentleman. His life and attitude towards life are what I dream of. The classroom atmosphere is harmonious during class, and he enjoys solitude and life. But when the person he likes reappears, he will be careful to test and pursue boldly. Everything is in line with common sense but completely different from him who lives indifferently. It is this contrast that makes him more real. His name is Su Ye, the person I want to be. The heroine Jiang Baizhi, Su Ye's Bai Yueguang, amazed Su Ye in high school, and then amazed him throughout his youth. But to be honest, I don't know how to evaluate her. She is independent, has the same sentiment of life, and is equally romantic and beautiful. She is at a loss when it comes to relationships, but Mingwu is so loud in her heart that she dares to love. She is beautiful and can resonate with Su Ye at the same frequency. She is real and beautiful. However, because of my shallow life experience and knowledge, I really don't know how to evaluate her. I can only say such specious words. He understands her, and she understands him. They are fragrant but come together at the top. Their love is not as passionate and unrestrained as youth. It is a trial and a cautious time, and it is a time of disbelief. But after the heart is clear, the love is deep and strong, and it is not comparable to the love of young people written in ordinary love novels. The stories in this novel are truly based on reality and exceed reality. It is not the love in those novels, which will be smooth sailing or have ups and downs, but will always be beautiful in the end. He will also describe the conflicts between lovers. The starting point is also for the other person, but it is precisely because he is too much for the other person that conflicts arise. This kind of "poisonous" point in the novel that seems to pour cold water on emotions is actually more in line with reality. In addition, the story is based on the author himself. Unfortunately, this work has transformed from a general "creation" story to a "narrative" story. This kind of beauty derived from reality and beauty beyond reality is one of the most attractive points of this novel for me. Another point that attracts me the most is that this book is full of various philosophical thoughts and views on love. Some people may think that this is very "literary" and deviates from the market and has a small audience. But I think it is these philosophical thoughts - about life, about love, and about human society, that make it possible. This novel has truly risen from an ordinary novel that only describes the love between two people to a level that I think is an excellent work. In my heart, this book can no longer simply be called a "love novel". It deserves and should be read by more people, and it deserves to be read for a long time. Spread, because in this era where everything is fast, even love has become fast-paced. The love described in this novel is slow and long-lasting. As the author writes in capital letters, love should not just be about running straight to a distant place as soon as an idea comes to mind in the early morning, not just walking on the road together, not just ups and downs. Ups and downs, because these can be done together even if we are not lovers. In my understanding, what it tells us is that love is the plain and sweet experience of life together, it is plain and true, it is the romance of music, chess, calligraphy, painting, poetry, wine and painting, and it is also the plainness of firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea. In this fast-paced era, it is rare and precious to have a book with delicate writing and deep philosophical thinking that tells you to slow down and enjoy life, instead of investing in the market and capital for the sake of making money or fame. I caught up with the latest chapter at noon on May 29th, and I just felt my heart surge. In the afternoon, I was very energetic and high-spirited. I felt like my soul was intoxicated, as if I had drunk a bottle of old wine after reading this book. Because of this book, I became interested in philosophy, and even planned to choose philosophy as a major in college. I knew that this should be just a whim, and I should be careful when choosing a major. But I still hope that I can choose philosophy after careful consideration. Although it may not be easy to find a job, it is worth it if you love it. This book is worth collecting. It is different from my previous collections. Those books are mainly for entertainment, supplemented by very few ideological viewpoints or words and literary talents that interest me. This book is based on his philosophy and love, inspiring insights, and the beauty that originates from the real and goes beyond the real. It is worth collecting and reading frequently. I look forward to the day when this book becomes popular and published. ps... The above are my thoughts after reading the latest chapter on May 29th. Now let me write again. I think I won't be able to write so many words. I hope that the plot of the male and female protagonists' love can be handled well and grasped, because too many romance novels are extremely attractive before the relationship is confirmed. People, but after they are really determined to fall in love, they are very boring. I hope the author will catch up with your heroine as soon as possible, and then use the truth and beauty in your lives to continue to write the truth and beauty of this book (´ﾟωﾟ｀) Attached is a paragraph, which seems to be quite suitable for a book: If love is a philosophy, it precisely illustrates the contradictions of love itself and the contradictions of human nature itself: rational creatures long for the long-term happiness of love and the satisfaction of biological desires; human nature is always self-deceiving! These are also inherent in philosophy itself, but even if the expression content of philosophy is historical, the core concept is indeed scientific - worthy of admiration! So, the ignorance, excitement, lingering, romance, plainness, and baldness of love - eternal faith!

I am not as good as Su Ye, but she is more dazzling than Jiang Baizhi I have been following the author's updates. When I read it before, I thought it was a good story. Until I saw the regret the author wrote in a single chapter. Some people live in their memories, and her appearance is always the most beautiful, because there are too many regrets and too many beautiful fantasies of "if we are still together". I once felt that some things do not need to be recorded in words, but in photos. They are the most profound in my mind and the most shining in my memory. Perhaps when you get older, it will be the most precious gem when you sit hunched by the roadside one evening. Until, you told your story, you said regrets, you said regrets, you said there are many divergent roads in life, from north to south, you go to Xiaoxiang and I go to Qin. Until everyone said "What about you?!" In the later chapters, I also wanted to say "What about you?!". Because the Jiang Baizhi in my memory is also my regret, my crossroads between north and south. "Why don't you try to get her back?" "Why don't you have the courage to step forward even though she gave you answers?" "Why am I the same as you! Why" I felt sad in my heart, feeling something surging in my chest, thinking of my miss, my regret, and thinking of her deeply. We broke up in June of 2021. It was not because of any quarrel or conflict. It's just that two people in different places couldn't hug each other. I couldn't help her solve the problem of being excluded by her roommate, and she was unwilling to talk to me about the problem. Until the communication became less and less, I could feel her sadness and depression. But she has a soft ear, and she can only give in if her roommate gets tough. I have no choice. The only things that can make her better are time and growing up. The reduction of communication is fatal to long-distance couples. I even forgot who stopped contacting first in the end. The breakup was like a walk after dinner, it happened naturally and then they were separated.

After reading the author's remarks, I was deeply moved. I have something to say to the author. I hope the author is willing to spend some time listening to me, a young reader. But before I start, I would like to invite the author to listen to Li Zongsheng's "Song to Myself". "If you want it but can't get it, what's wrong with your life?" How many people's sadness and loneliness can be expressed in one sentence? Perhaps there are bound to be many difficult feelings in life, but how many of these difficult feelings are due to fate, and how many are just a difference in one's own thoughts? Speaking of fate, I think the author is probably someone who believes in this theory, right? But I would like to ask the author to think about it, is it destiny that affects your choice first, or is it your choice that determines the development of destiny? "There is a high probability that we will not be together." In my opinion, the author should still have hope in his heart before making this statement. I don't want to advise the author to be brave or anything, but for me, this work is undoubtedly the most polished work and is an incomparable exquisite gift, just waiting for the author to be willing to give it. It can be a beginning or a conclusion. But if it is hidden and tucked away, then this work can only be the author's diary, and everything is just for memories. I believe that the author must have had many considerations before setting a threshold for expressing his feelings. Maybe this is a love destined to be fruitless? Or are you worried that the "bright moonlight in front of the bed" will turn into a rice stick? Or maybe the worst thing is that we like each other but can't be together? I would like to borrow a quote from a friend of mine: "It's only my business that I like you, and it's my alone business that I confess to you. It's only a matter of two people whether we want to be together or not." It sounds extremely rogue, but it has benefited me a lot. Finally, I would like to share a few stories. Let's start with something lighter. Once I was chatting with some unlearned friends about "Red Roses and White Roses", and one friend said jokingly: "If I become a glutton for rice, then I will be a 'wife of chaff'; if I become a bloodthirsty mosquito, then won't I be hung on the wall every day, and you will have to see me even if you don't want to see me?" See?" She added: "'Bright moonlight' or 'cinnabar mole' are just desires, beautiful imaginations. But 'rice glutinous rice' and 'mosquito blood' are daily life and a part of life." Although this sentence greatly misunderstood the original meaning of the article, it opened up my imagination about love and even life. The second story is about my father and his former best friend. My father left his hometown and studied abroad when he was in high school. And his deskmate happens to be from the same hometown as him, with very similar hobbies, living habits and even family backgrounds. A man and a woman would probably be called a "match made in heaven", and the two grown men are destined to be buddies. The two even had many crazy experiences together: they rode for several days and nights to circle the island, and the motorcycle broke down while passing through a famous haunted holy place, causing them to slide down the mountain relying on the terrain. "Then what is he doing now? When I was still young, I asked my father, but I got the answer: "We have cut off contact early." I thought it was because the relationship had faded, but my father said otherwise. After being silent for a while, he continued: "Relationships must be carefully managed, not just left to chance." I once thought this was my father's excuse. Until one ordinary afternoon, a strange man called my father's name on the street, and then there was a strange scene of two old men crying and laughing on the street. Only then did I realize that the relationship had indeed not faded. It was just that as the interval between each contact lengthened, it became increasingly difficult to say anything, and I was worried about whether I had gone too far. The more worries there were in their hearts, the more naturally the two of them drifted away. The last is my own story, which is probably somewhat similar to the author's experience. At one of my most vulnerable times, I met a wonderful girl. My mental state was very bad at that time, but my friends around me couldn't see anything abnormal. But that girl - to be honest, we had not communicated deeply before, but she saw something strange about me at a glance, and said "Are you okay?" Which completely broke my defense, and we got closer and closer. But the girl was too good to be true, and I was a diagnosed patient. The huge difference makes me always cautious in my love, even though I can occasionally feel the tenderness in her words. After that, we went to different but not far away universities and kept in touch, and I secretly vowed to work hard to keep up with her. But the unfamiliar environment overwhelmed my already unstable mental state. But this time she couldn't always be by my side to support me. She is getting better and better, and her steps towards the future are becoming more steady and determined, while I am stuck in the quagmire of the past. In the end, I deliberately kept a distance from her, so far away that I couldn't even be called a normal friend. I thought all feelings would heal over time, until after graduation, I heard from a mutual friend that she liked me. In fact, I knew it, but I felt that I was not good enough for her; I also knew that even if we liked each other at that time, there were thousands of reasons preventing us from being together. I once thought that "not confessing" was a cunning and correct choice, and that girl would always be Bai Yueguang in my heart. Until now, whenever I think of her and those past times, I realize that this memory has become a rotten wooden thorn, piercing my heart. The wound is invisible but painful, and I can no longer remove it. I found that I could no longer read stories with flaws, and even the hardships and joys were hard to bear. Now I really want to go back to the beginning and express my feelings to her. Maybe the result won't be good, but at least it won't cause such long-lasting, chronic and fatal wounds. I may have offended the author and book friends by saying so many words, so I would like to sincerely apologize. But I hope the author can think about how to deal with his feelings. A teacher of mine once said: "A person who is not in pain cannot become a good creator." Then I wish the author never to write such a good story again.

The author's writing style is really great. This book deserves a better score (a little delayed by the title) haha. I also hope that the author's regrets can be relieved after the end of this novel, whether the final result is the happiness of the novel reflecting reality, or the freedom and ease of the past that has passed away. From the language and text, we can feel that the author is a person with extremely rich inner emotions. I hope that he can find the destination of his soul in the future and be able to smooth out his emotional wrinkles. (Silently enjoying the author's future happiness) The novel is really great! Come on, keep it up✊

If the title of the book is changed to: "Sangyu Feiwan" or "Looking into the distance", both of them may become blockbuster books.

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The Angelica dahurica in my heart~

A letter to the author Actually, I read this book about ten days after I broke up (the relationship broke down). I just graduated this year, a fresh graduate, and she was a fresh graduate last year, but it seems that because of the distance, the gossip in the dormitory, and the suspicion, I chose to give up. After giving up, what I thought of was actually not her, this woman from a different place who had been with me for almost 2/3 of my college years (I won't talk about the experience of being cheated). Nine times out of ten things in life will be unsatisfactory, and it is impossible for everything to go as planned. However, the kind of temptation a girl has in the Mood for Love is really pure. She just wants to be with you, to rely on, and to think that it will be you when she wakes up, and you will be there after she falls asleep. Maybe you will say that I am still young and don't understand anything (=_=), but sometimes I am braver than you, right? ? Haha, it's not funny anymore, let's just say it carefully. Actually, in your own story + feelings in Chapter 106, you want to have a high-quality "confession", right? However, when you make up your mind, you have actually lost, because you still like her in your heart, and you don't want to give up. You hope to be the same as before. She is happy and she is sad. You are happy because of her and worried because of her. Perhaps people today's perception of the post-00 generation is that the post-00 generation cannot endure hardship, is spoiled at home and is weak, has no experience, and is a group of naive students who like to talk? There seems to be nothing wrong with it, but some people seem to be special. Because they are lonely, forgotten, and disliked by others, they have a mentality that is not in line with their age and a heart that is more than 20 years ahead of their time. I don't know if you have ever had misunderstandings in the past. I am not a philosophy major, I am just a science student who wants to write a novel that I like and that a small group of people like. However, I really want to bless you to seize the time and catch her before her heart is completely broken, while she still has beautiful fantasies about you. Are you afraid that you won't be the right person? But why is it just for material reasons? In your book, you pursue ideological differences and seek common ground, so why are you so harsh on yourself? Love is sometimes funny, because a small thing or a word can open the hearts of two people. The encounter may be a promise made in the previous life. It is beautiful and fragile. She has already thought of many possibilities when she chooses to approach you. Girls are emotional, but are there times when girls are irrational? I won't answer this question. You have the answer in your own mind, and you must have some answers in your book. Are you a clown in a book, a voice of love and regret turned into words, pursuing so-called fine works to share with her? But at that time, is she still as desperate as she is now? The superiority of her family does not necessarily determine how high her parents will ask you. The TV series is exaggerated. Although it is based on the people, it is also a misunderstanding, isn't it? You still love her, can you give it to her? I also had a girl I liked but didn't dare to express. I even chose to run away from my classmates to avoid embarrassment. Now when I think back, or when I read some fragments in the book, I wonder if I would have had a better future if I had chosen her. I gradually became depressed because of the loss. I decided to go away because I had no love. I was ostracized by others and disliked by teachers. The madness of others before the college entrance examination made me feel heartbroken and insomnia. Maybe I am not as good as Su Ye in having such noble pursuits. I am an ordinary person, an ordinary person who has begun to mess up and only wants to "live." It's crooked again, it's harmful. After saying so much, what actually touches me the most is "How dare you mislead a beautiful woman with the breeze in your sleeves?" This sentence is really misleading. Did Zhu Yuanzhang ever abandon Queen Ma? Perhaps your success is just because she supports you with a small harbor behind your back. None of us are ancients or saints. What we have is a pair of hands willing to protect her, a heart that misses a beat because of her, and a pair of eyes that look at her. Nine out of ten things in life are unsatisfactory. Why aren't you one of those people? Why do you always run away because you feel unworthy? Really? Are you unwilling or dare not? Maybe there will be another girl waiting for you in the future, but won't you find that this girl has the shadow of the girl you lost? Don't believe in the saying "How dare you mislead a beautiful lady with the breeze on your sleeves"? You are not a poet, you are the person she likes. Wouldn't you choose to work hard for her? When two people come together, even if they have fuel, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar and tea, wouldn't they be happy to create some small surprises under careful budget? Villas and luxury cars, when you have these, you will be happy, but you won't feel empty in your heart. Perhaps that girl chose to marry before her youth because she was afraid of time. If you are not happy, and you only stay in the so-called well-matched villa and luxury car, will your heart really be full? The author, I really hope that you, like Su Ye, should take the initiative and don't miss (lose) the beauty. She said that Disney is to go to Disneyland with the person she likes, which means that you are the person she loves, likes and cherishes. Why do you say such defining words if you don't like me? It's because I like you and think it's worth it, right? Say yes, but if you don't make it, it doesn't matter. Just put down your work for a month, tell your boss to take unpaid leave for a period of time, and go see her. Don't let her show signs of being forty when she should be twenty years old. You shouldn't hurt someone who loves you like this. As a science student who has passed twenty-two years but still likes novels and loves to write fragments, I wish you to take the initiative, wish you success, wish you to clear up the past grudges, wish you harmony, and wish you a happy life and a full moon. Remember to say "good night", remember to say "w a n a n" I wish you more than ten times the best Go after her While the flowers have not faded, while the leaves are full of spring, while there is still a possibility of getting better, while she has not forgotten you [emot=default,64/][emot=default,64/][emot=default,64/]