To Become a Monk

Because I love you, I often want to apologize to you. My love is heavy, dirty, and contains many unpleasant things, such as sadness, melancholy, self-pity, and despair. My heart is so fragile. I am always defeated by these negative emotions, as if I am struggling in a swamp and sinking deeper and deeper. And I love you, I just want to drag you in, but I hope you save me.