
Stop for Five Hundred Years
时停五百年
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- Completed
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- 984k Words
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- Gaming
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- Male
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- Game Otherworld
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- 7y ago
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- Qidian
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90% Of people who commented on this book have not finished reading it. Although he is talking about a game, it is not. The setting is that the protagonist saves a drowning passerby in the real world. After death, a ray of soul fragments enters the fantasy world created in the passerby's mind. This is also the reason why the protagonist has a low sense of existence. After a series of things, the protagonist goes against the time flow in the passerby's mind, breaks through the barrier between the fantasy world and the real world, and finally comes to the real world. (The protagonist's strength is always there. Of course there are some holes that have not been filled)
This book has been on the bookshelf for a long time... To be honest, it was recommended by the system. The writing in the front is very good, maybe the writing in the front is too good... So that the end of the time-stop feels like another story... The key is that I can't understand it well... 🤐 So I didn't subscribe to it after it was put on the shelf, and then forgot about it... I suddenly remembered it today and found that it was finished. I originally wanted to read it... But I gave up after reading the free chapter after the end of the time-stop again 😅. Looking forward to the author's new book... I believe the author has experience... I hope it won't be like this one again... Start high and go low...
To be honest, the first part of this book is very good, but I suggest you not to read the second half. It ends in an anticlimax and the author cannot continue editing, so there is no need to subscribe.
Two books are put together by Qidian, one is "Time Stop 499" and the other is "Time Stop 500"... The author is not the same person, what is this going to do?😰😰😰
The early stage was good, but the later stage was a bit messy. Many things were suddenly transferred to unknown places without being connected. There were too many pitfalls and it was not rigorous. The area that came out of the final passage was quite fresh and felt good, but after I came out, I was confused and confused. Virtual reality, real virtual reality.
There are a lot of loopholes. . It's self-contradictory, but the rest is okay. It's pretty cool.
A mind-blowing story. I think the logic is basically reasonable. In the later period, the author was anxious but managed to come around. The middle period of this book is still very exciting. Worth a look.
I have finished reading this book, and I have something to say, because it is not pleasant to say. I have seen many book reviews criticizing this book before, but this kind of criticism did not make me hate this book, but made me curious. I am an old bookworm with very picky tastes. It can be said that there is no novel of any genre that I have not read until now. At the beginning, I liked martial arts and fantasy, but I also refused to read these two. Later, I read When I got tired of it, I fell in love with Xianxia, and later I dabbled in urban, gaming, supernatural, science fiction, basically most of the themes. After reading it, I found that most of the novels were a routine. Basically, you can guess the ending of the plot when you see the beginning. Gradually, I started to have high requirements for writing. Even if the plot is an old routine, but the writing is good, I will read it, but more often I started to read it. I like to hunt for novels, even if the writing is average, the imagination is big enough, and the story structure is complete, I can still read it. For example, it took me three days to read this book. The writing of this book is indeed average, but what is better than most other novels is that the author's imagination is not only big enough, but also the story is well written. Because I don't follow up on updates, I read the book directly, so there are still many pitfalls that have not been buried, and sometimes they suddenly pop up while reading. There were some strange things and characters, and I didn't understand where they came from, but I let it go in my mind. Now that I think about it, this book does have a lot of pitfalls, but I must say that it is a good story, with a novel theme, a complete story, no bloody plot, and the main plot is not procrastinated. It can be seen that the author has written very carefully, and there is very little water in the plot. Overall, it is a good book.
Tell the truth, God begins. After leaving the monkey group and saying goodbye to the monkeys, the monkeys were ignored at the beginning, and in the end of Life of Fantasy, the faction called the tiger, and the tiger also walked away without looking back, with the same artistic conception. And when Xiong Dahu Er died in the end, the memory was still fresh. If only it had continued like this, it wouldn't be a bad ending later on. It's just a pity that it started so well. . .
To be honest, I haven't seen the paid chapters yet, but the plot after the time lag is really unbearable... Suddenly it changed from a novel novel to a bloody one? The following contains spoilers Is the parent identity plot serious? Although I don't know if there is a reversal, but this plot is too cliche, right? It is also placed before the paid chapter. Is this a strong attempt to persuade people to quit? It is completely different from the fresh feeling that the previous plot brings to the readers... And the writing style has inexplicably dropped by several levels... The plot is a mess. This is not a problem of digging holes, but an inconsistent writing style. It seems that when you want to be serious, you change to a complaining style, and after one or two sentences of complaining, it becomes a deep style. It feels like you are stuck when reading the book... The author still needs to improve his writing style! Please support me next time I have the opportunity. I feel so heartbroken that I can't stand it anymore... It's a pity. It's a good article at the beginning...
The narration of these chapters is still very interesting, that is, some of the previous pitfalls have not been filled, but it feels like they have been filled in again. Players can say that the creation god is set by the fake author Zhang Zhiwen. The copy of the divine world may be to lead to the void world later. It is the five people selected by the creation god. There are other pitfalls. I don't know if they are redundant or have other uses. It's probably almost over. I don't know if the ending will be one where the protagonist transcends infinitely or if it's a step-by-step ending.
Except for the world of gods, everything else is good
It's okay, it's quite interesting. Very well written!
Good early stage. Later on, I didn't want to write anymore, and the plot immediately collapsed. Don't mind ordering.
When I first read the first volume of this book, it gave me a very amazing feeling. It has a very big and special imagination, a very smooth writing style, and a sense of loneliness that Pig's Foot has lost along the way. Especially when Lu Qiqi disappeared, that feeling reached its peak. I felt uncomfortable for a long time. The author of the subsequent plot was limited by his own abilities and lacked more inspiration, and fell into a cliche, but there are still several characters that make people shine. From the time the author entered the realm of legend, I just watched it briefly. In the last volume, the author handed over an ending that can be regarded as the conclusion. It is probably the time when this story must end. The author is already great. I hope that the author's next book will continue to bring us readers a wonderful story. Forgive me, I really can't order all of this book. Some chapters are really hard for me to stand. It's too cliche. In short, the author should work hard! 😤😤😤
Tell a joke. It's been 500 years, I'm 500 years ahead of you! I really mean 500 years, not 500 seconds.
To be honest, the author has worked very hard on this book, and I read it before the author put it on the shelves. This kind of subject requires great writing power and imagination. To be honest, even if there are many platinum masters who can dance, few people write about this kind of subject, but the author has set a precedent for us. I hope that authors who write on this subject in the future can read this book and learn from it, and the more they write, the better. Trolls, don't complain about the poor writing at the end, because when I saw the author writing this book, I knew it would collapse later, but at least the author worked hard to write the ending for us so that we can see the ending. Although there are many holes that have not been filled, we should not care too much. After all, the author has worked hard, and we must support the author and give him confidence to write this book.
If God stopped the time of the world, he would be left alone. I have thought about this before, thinking about how to live in this world where a moment becomes eternity. Every time I think about it, I feel tears filling my eyes. Although I am not alone in the world, I am the only one aware of my existence. No matter how much I want to say in my heart, there is no one to share it with. I was busy scanning the list today, and unexpectedly I came across this book by the author. Although it is still a seedling, it is worth spending time on this book. The earth was chosen by God to become the background of a game. All humans are players. In order to make this game, time has to be stopped, but only the protagonist is ignored. If this kind of subject matter were written by an author who likes to write routine articles, I'm afraid it would be infinitely satisfying. Fortunately, it's not written by that kind of author. On this huge earth, everyone else is happily protected by Time Stop. Only the protagonist needs to run for a living and seek life. Keep company with monkeys, wrestle with wild beasts, strengthen your body to prevent the slightest signs of failure, and seek the path to immortality in famous mountains and rivers. There was no one to talk to but myself. This loneliness, this loneliness, suddenly emerged when he spoke hoarsely when he left the monkey group. Not to mention when the person you have a crush on is face to face without knowing it. The little details in these descriptions are really nice. It's a pity that it's really too short. I can't wait to see the subsequent plot, but I can only wait slowly. Since I don't have a book to read, I have to write a book review and think about the subsequent plot. First of all, I hope that the society after the end of time will not be like the kind of cliche novel where the spiritual energy is revived and various aristocratic families and gangs start to appear, and the protagonist constantly fights the younger ones and provokes the older ones. Since the protagonist has five hundred years of prerequisites, why not take advantage of it and use it to promote social progress rather than slap him in the face just to show off? Furthermore, I don't want the author to write the protagonist's journey blindly like an upgrade novel with only levels and no life. People are not machines, and novels are not game instructions or product descriptions. Interesting stories cannot manifest themselves by acquiring abilities. Wouldn't it be more interesting to write about the small life in the great era of spiritual energy recovery? Then, I hope that the author can create some impressive characters, who do not necessarily have to have an intersection with the protagonist. Traffickers and foot soldiers also have their own stories, and dignitaries also have their own troubles. I also look forward to the feeling that everyone is their own protagonist and everyone has their own world. Li Bai once said: "Heaven and earth are the reverse journey of all things; time is the passerby of hundreds of generations. Life is like a dream, how much joy is there? The ancients held candles and traveled at night, which was a good thing." Life is short, there are people who strive for immortality, there are people who abide by justice, and there are people who enjoy all the happiness. Everyone has a different attitude towards their own life and pursues different ideals. Why should we always worry about immortality and strength? Isn't it more interesting to live every day to the full than to live forever like a stone? I posted some sentiments when I had nothing to do, so my friends, the author, just think of it as my gibberish. I wish your work will prosper and I wish you will achieve platinum status soon.
Just wanted to say it
In book reviews, I often see many people saying: they can't stand it anymore, this book is ruined, they gave up and stopped reading, etc. To be honest, it was not easy to write this book like this. Please think about it objectively. This kind of book is not a very popular subject, and there is not much that can be learned from it. It can be said that it relies on the author's own efforts and ideas, and tries his best to show you his inner worldview bit by bit, all by himself. When this book was first recommended by Sanjiang, it was always highly praised. Maybe it was because the writing at that time was very meaningful and amazing. Maybe it was a little too good at the beginning. As a result, when the author later changed to a copy of the God Realm that was necessary for the main plot, it suddenly conflicted with what you thought. In addition, there were not many chapters, so many people felt that it had changed, the writing was poor, and the theme was wrong. But please calm down and take a look. Don't you notice that the author is slowly building up the meaning in the recent chapters? Moreover, one is before time stops and the other is after time stops. How can it be the same? How can a protagonist, a player, and humans all come together? How can he be as lonely as before? Does he have to ignore worldly affairs? At least I don't think the current protagonist can do that. To take a step back, although it does not meet your expectations, at least it is not like those routine articles, which are vulgar and dedicated to showing off and slapping people in the face. I wish I could tell the world that I am invincible. Let's change the angle again. Maybe this book is not done well in some places, it is not perfect, and it cannot satisfy everyone. But the author is also a human being, and is really not a god. He cannot take everything into consideration, and there will be some flaws no matter what. And the author has also said that after it was published, he also found a job. He worked all day long and had to go to work during the day and write novels at night. He would be somewhat lacking in energy and would be overwhelmed. Under this circumstance, it is already good that the author can do his best to write the plot to this point, with many twists and turns. Let me ask you to be considerate of the author, okay? It's really not easy anymore. I hope you won't be so striving for perfection, lower your requirements a little, and don't regard the author as a god. Thank you and bow to you all.
It makes no difference whether it's a game or not.
The player's game, the end of mankind, and the rebirth of the world. A fusion of the new world and the old. The conflict between the Son of Heaven and the indigenous people in another world. Conflict between reborn human NPCs and players. For a lonely person, it would be good to be an observer and part-time mentor. I know silence, but I see the wonderful things in the world. It would be nice if the way of heaven and other things were out of the control of the players.
There are two possibilities at that time. One is that the protagonist returns to the city five hundred years later and quietly hides the landscape, pretending to be a pig and eating the tiger. The most disgusting thing is that the protagonist has been developed for five hundred years. In order to seek balance, the author allows others to catch up quickly.
A view of the world that stopped 500 years ago
1. How big has the earth become? Take Midcontinent as an example. We have walked from the north to the central mountains for 10 years and have not yet reached it. Assuming that a person walks 5 kilometers in an hour, walks 6 hours a day, and walks 30 kilometers in a day, we have walked 109,500 kilometers in 10 years. The original equatorial circumference of the earth is only 40,076 kilometers. A small piece of Midcontinent is more than twice the original earth, not to mention the ocean area and the other four continents. Therefore, after the end of time stop, transportation and communication among humans scattered on various continents and on the same continent will become difficult in the early stage. They can only fight on their own. In the later period, communication in various regions will be more convenient when teleportation arrays or spaceships are built. 2. How big is Wei Huo's level advantage? The character levels of Time Stop are very simple. From low to high, they are: Common, Rare, Epic, Legend, and Myth. The five levels may seem easy, but it is very difficult to increase the level. It took Wei Huo about 120 years to go from being ordinary to being ordinary, to being a little ordinary, to being a little bit ordinary. It took him 100 years to refine his Qi and upgrade to level 5 (Feng Shui Treasure Land, Heavenly Materials and Earthly Treasures bonus). He exercised every day (the training method of One Punch Man) without being weighed down by intrigues and calculations between people. On this basis, it took him 3 months to become a rare God of Thunder. It took about 3 years to upgrade from level 2 to level 3 (continuous sailing at sea, there is a bug here. The author later forgot what he wrote and changed the skill level to level 2 in chapter 30). From this, it can be seen that upgrading the cheats is difficult. Even if the game is improved after the time stop is over (the treasures of heaven and earth appear, which can be used for gold), the number of people scale effect (in reality, some practicing masters may start from being a little ordinary) and other bonuses, it will take 6 or 70 years to upgrade from ordinary to rare! 3. There are currently two ways of death of characters: time limit and abnormal death (disease, being killed by humans and beasts, etc.). I wonder if there will be a resurrection mechanism after the time stop is over?
It's really a pity that good cards are played poorly.
The novel I followed in high school was not on the shelves at the time. I was shocked by Shi Zingqian's imagination. Some of the descriptions were very graphic, such as "Are you trying to make things difficult for me, Fat Tiger?" "Are you the only fish in this sea?" And that old devil ant who was stunned, all made me laugh. This book does not need to be very logical, because God is the author. The updates and patches of the time-stop world may be the author's inspiration when he was squatting on the toilet, "Oh, this can be so perfect." It can be seen from the plot that the author just wanted to stop time, and then "deliberately" forget the protagonist, and then the plot developed. Purpose? Because it looks like fun. This way you can focus on your wild imagination and interesting jokes. If readers only focus on whether the logic is complete and whether the world view is complete, it is easy to overlook the fun of farming, or the fun of a traditional single-player game with a single protagonist. To put it simply, if it just hits a certain point in yourself, then this book is really interesting. I have reason to believe that such a free plot makes it easy for the author to write excitingly. Success or failure will come with it. In the later stage, it is obvious that he can't hold it back (but in the early stage, at least the first volume is exciting enough), the plot speeds up and a lot of pitfalls are buried. There are many interesting ideas and may be given up. There is a lot of content that can be interspersed. If you can't hold it back later, just let yourself go. . . Because I have to take the college entrance examination, I haven't touched online writing for a long time. As a result, I ended it without paying attention. The comments all said it was a waste, which is really a pity. Now that I am about to graduate from college, Shuhuang suddenly thought of this book and commented here. I don't know if there will be a remake of "Five Hundred Years of Time", because the potential of this genre is really great.
This program is broadcast under the title "Five Hundred Years More". The beginning of Shuangwen was stunned by the vulgar thinking mode and turned into a witness for 500 years. The outer surface of the article is refreshing, but inside it must be written about hard work, struggling to survive, chasing after each other, and meeting opponents. My own ideas and settings are contradictory, so it's strange that the readers don't feel uncomfortable watching it.
500 Years is too long, long enough to forget your family, language, identity, thoughts and yourself. After living alone for 500 years, basically some human skills have completely degraded. If it is set to 5 years or 10 years, it will be about the same. Moreover, 500 years of experience would be a bit boring if written in detail, but it would be confusing if written briefly. Secondly, since they are gods, it will still take 500 years to transform the map?
If nothing else, 100 years of Qi training to level 5? ? 10 Magic stones for one day, super guarantee, cave heaven and paradise, what is the concept? 10,000 NPCs have been hacked for 30 years to get 5,000 magic stones, which is enough to use the Cave Heaven and Paradise for one year. You can only practice Qi at the fifth level for me. It makes me laugh to death. This is bullshit logic.
It's a pity. It's really a pity for this author. Except for the first half of this novel, the other novels are not very good. The spiritual loss is too serious.
I suggest that there is no need to watch it after the time stop ends. The latter part is almost complete. A lot of preparation in the early stage is for the struggle of human beings to survive after the end of time. But suddenly it turned into an online game article. All kinds of professional players came out. What we actually want to see is a bloody apocalyptic scene. The struggles of ordinary people and the growth of the protagonist. It seems like a joke after watching it for so long.
I didn't finish reading this book back then, and it became a bit toxic later on.
I probably remember seeing the unstoppable part of Atlantis, that is, the part where I met a captain who rowed a boat without an oar and ate an instant noodle tree, How to put it this way, the early and middle stages of this book are a god within a god. The protagonist does not farm or make a living like the protagonists in other books. Instead, he keeps wandering and exploring while looking at his compatriots who are isolated by the golden light. He thinks of his crush whose name he cannot remember and gradually transforms into a god. The snow mountain in the middle is read as "Ordinary people are the greatest." When I was still in school, I adapted that paragraph into my essay and was praised by the teacher (thank you, the author) It's really a pity. If this book were to become an absolute hit now, or if the author didn't consider resetting it, and add some dungeons for adventure when the protagonist is isolated from human society and explores alone while enjoying the world and being lonely at the same time, ugh