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Adam Gordon, a high school student from Topeka, Kansas, USA, a master debater, poet, and migraine sufferer, is about to take the stage to participate in the National Speech and Debate Championship. His parents, Jonathan and Jane, both psychiatrists, sat nervously waiting to watch. Jonathan understood the folly of psychiatrists: they thought that because they could analyze their emotions, they could transcend and overcome them. But in fact, they are more often feeding this emotion. Their lives are also one long psychological analysis. But it did not bring healing, but instead caused emotional imbalance. Until the pressure broke out and the smooth surface broke, everything gradually returned to normal... It was 1997, like a party that was hot, noisy, and somehow not very good. Like migraines, phosphenes, and eternity.

The protagonist "I" is a young and accomplished writer who has just been diagnosed with Marfan syndrome, a hereditary disease related to the heart. He began to worry about an unforeseen death. At the same time, his single female friend Alex is trying to raise a child with him through medical means. At a time when hurricanes are coming frequently, and climate disasters and social crises are part of life, he can't help but wonder why he wants to be a father. But in the process of getting along with the graduate students he mentored and taking care of the immigrant child Roberto, he kept thinking about the meaning of raising offspring, and gradually began to take on his own responsibilities... In the end, "I" and Alex built a new emotional relationship and family model. This is not only a story about becoming a parent, but also a journey of transformation to regain courage and sincerity.