Lost in Paradise

I just typed it all out when I had time, and it was really shocking to see the latest chapter along with the previous one. Chapter 75 is heart-warming and heart-wrenching, and the struggle between Liu Shu and Yuan Niang is written in a particularly delicate and moving way. Chapter 76 makes people feel chills in the back. From Zheng Mi's treatment to Yuan Niang's questioning of the incense burner, every scene is as sharp as a knife. Because I read it all the way from Zhu Ming and finished it, my overall feeling is that the big novels are the shell of ancient words, the core of machinations, and the entrails of a madman. They are not sweet novels (of course I haven't seen any sweet novels haha), nor sadistic novels (although every ending is very sad). Each of them describes a kind of struggle of a person to survive in bondage. Yuan Niang is not good, Zheng Mi is not warm, Willow is not strong, Lou's father is not kind, and Lou's brother is beautiful, strong and miserable. No one in the family is happy, but everyone is living in their own way. Speaking of which, after reading it so far, I feel that 75 Ximen Xing and Liu Shu merge together, especially when he recited to Yuan Niang, people suddenly felt the sense of carpe diem with a sense of despair in the poem, which further showed the softness of Liu Shu. When she first appeared, I thought the willow tree would be the kind stuffed with sesame seeds. I didn't know what color it was on the outside, but I felt that she was sinister. However, she was subdued by Yuan Niang in no time. Later, she revealed a kind of weakness in her bones after being squeezed by the rules. (Please forgive me. What I write next is not very organized. I just write whatever comes to my mind.) At present, I see many multi-person love stories that use the emotional relationship in a love triangle as a selling point, but I feel that this article Lost in Paradise is more like a "triple dilemma": Yuan Niang is not faced with the problem of "who to choose", but the problem of "how to save everyone without hurting anyone" - including saving herself. Let's talk about the willow tree first. The intimate scene between him and Yuan was written in such a touching, dangerous and tumultuous way (of course the one with Zheng Mi was also very good). The two people had clearly separated, but they still got close to each other drunkenly, kissed, and talked to each other. But behind this reason is a more cruel fact: she is actually pushing him away in the name of "being good for him" because she knows that she cannot give him the future he wants. Willow is semi-awake, and he knows that there is no result in all this, but he is still willing to dream. This state of being awake and dreaming is the most touching thing about him. Let's talk about Zheng Mi. He is really about to get a big result, and is Yuan's nominal support, but his "love" has a strong sense of possessiveness and control. He expresses his jealousy through three things: a white jade crown, a sapphire chessboard, and a tourmaline anklet. Every piece has traces left by the willow tree, and every piece reminds Lou Yuanang: I know you still think about him, and I also know you haven't let go of him yet. But he didn't question it hysterically. He just looked at it coldly and remembered it, and then "processed it" in his own way. He said to Lou Yuanang, "I will take action for you, but not now" - this sentence is much scarier than him recounting old scores, because it shows that he is keeping accounts and he is waiting for a suitable time to settle everything. As for Lou Yuanang herself, she is the most complicated one. She is not a "scumbag" in the traditional sense (sorry I feel that way sometimes). She has taken on both relationships and refuses to be ashamed of either one, but she is also a person who lives in the cracks. She showed mercy to Liu Shu because she and he were truly in love for a long time; she stayed with Zheng Mi because she knew that this marriage was a political alliance that she must maintain (Zheng Mi has certain instrumental attributes). She caught both sides, but neither was allowed to cross the line. She used willow trees to stimulate herself to stay awake, and Zheng Mi to numb herself and keep moving forward. It was a kind of self-destructive sobriety—she knew what she was doing and knew that everything she did had a price, but she did it anyway. This kind of determination to "do something even though you know you can't do it" is the true background of her madness. Then when it comes to the climax, it really makes people feel chills down their backs. Needless to say, Lou's father and Lou's brother, but Yuan's intervention makes it not a Shuangwen-style "female protagonist's counterattack and slap in the face", but a real power showdown. Yuan smashed the incense burner belonging to Mrs. Tai. This move seemed impulsive, but in fact it was carefully planned. What she smashed was not an ordinary object, but Lou's father's reverence for his mother, his ancestors, and his appearance. She knelt in the bloody water and said "please father kill me", which was not really asking for death, but forcing Lou Peng to make a choice: you can either really beat me to death, proving that you are a tyrant who kills women, or you can stop and admit that you just used family law to vent your personal anger by beating Lou Chuying. Lou Peng fainted from anger, not because of lack of physical strength, but because he realized that he could not occupy the moral high ground in front of his daughter. The most important thing is that she directly told her father that Zheng Mi was directly responsible for the death of that woman, and directly sold Zheng Mi as a tool to achieve the purpose of using power to suppress power. This reminds people of the previous episode, when Brother Lou told her that he would use imperial power to suppress the patriarchal power under family ethics. They are worthy of being brother and sister. In the end, no one in the whole scene was clean. Brother Lou is a madman who takes the blame. Needless to say, Father Lou is a selfish madman with a good fortune. Lou Yuanang is even more crazy. He can look his father in the eyes. Everyone actually has their own life issues. Father Lou is crazy because of the troubles in his life, and Brother Lou has to go crazy because of his survival. Yuan Niang seems to be very cool and has a good brother to help her, but she is also struggling to survive in the cracks of the family (actually, she is the most desperate, and has no way to get ahead compared to Brother Lou), but everyone is trapped in the rules of this family and cannot get out. This state of "all people are sick" is more touching than the simple confrontation between good and evil. I still have to say that this title and the title of the book are really awesome. The introduction is also amazing, but it seems to be from the perspective of Liu Shu or Zheng Mi, so it is close to her and fall into hell, and away from her, lost in heaven. It seems that Lou Yuanang is the combination of heaven and hell. But actually looking at it now, it feels like Lou Yuanang's life is heaven and hell. , When she became enlightened and became sensible, she lived in hell. She left Ximen, got married, and was eliminated. In the end, she had to return to the Lou family to be the daughter of the Lou family. In one chapter, it was written that she and Brother Lou shared the same wish of having a "home", but she felt that this unreachable home was her hell. Brother Lou actually already has the home he longs for (Endless Summer is so beautifully written), but Lou Yuanang is the only one without a home. Liu Shu loves her, but Liu Shu's love is the obsession of "I want you to remember me", not the power of "I want to take care of things for you". Zheng Mi loves her, but Zheng Mi's love is the possession of "you are mine", not the understanding of "I understand why you feel uncomfortable". Lou Chuying is just an elder brother. In one chapter, the ancestor of their family bluntly said that he cannot be your husband (who understands, who understands!), Lou's father feels very complicated to her, but from her perspective, she does not seem to really respect and love this father. Her good friend Teng Wanzhen is estranged from her because she likes Zheng Mi, Xiao He is just a maid and does not understand her, and her mother has passed away (her feelings towards her mother are also very complicated). She asked who broke the incense burner. She was super majestic, but even more fragile. She could never show weakness or lean on anyone's shoulder. She leaned on Liu Shu's shoulder, but that was when she was drunk. When she woke up, she had to stand up straight. She lay in Zheng Mi's arms, but it was filled with jealousy and calculation, not a harbor. She is the center of everyone, but no one is the center of her. She is really a crazy, crazy, and awesome heroine (don't scold me). After watching Zhu Minghe and watching Lost in Paradise, I really feel that it used to be super subtle and beautiful, but now it's starting to be wild and crazy. No person or relationship in the novel is pure, clean and beautiful, and there is no absolute good or bad (this is so accurate when it comes to Mei Rugui, who knows?), And everyone and relationships are in a state of "almost right", which is a double "miss". I don't think it is a deliberate creation of the so-called missed lover, but their destiny. I don't believe in the existence of happiness, and I believe that "regret" is the normal state of human relationships. Wow, I wrote a lot in a mess. I'm very grateful to see such works. Dahai Daida, keep writing. (Don't be discouraged. Please know that someone is always watching and supporting you.) 😍 😍

This whole family feels so ghostly 😆[Purple Sugar]kswl

😭😭😭It's all over, stop being so ruthless

Happy ending! So when will the next book be released😆

Alas, I feel like I've seen the ending [Orange Candy] and I've eaten [Purple Candy] kswl

Oh, this couple, [orange candy] got [purple candy] kswl

Haha, there are times when Zheng Mi has such pure love 😆 The brother and sister get along so well, the family of four is neat and tidy.

I finally understand where the tension between these two people is. They fall in love and kill each other [Purple Sugar] kswl

So what does Teacher Yi Zt say: A passionate person must be suspicious, so the sky of love is often the sea of ​​hatred 😭 😭

This chapter of my day is also very powerful. Needless to say [666]