Borrowed Wine

"To love or not to love, love and hate are clearly defined." [Orange Candy] is here

Chapters 19 and 20 use rain as a curtain to slowly unfold the wrinkles in the characters' hearts. There is no ups and downs in the plot, but the water marks on the bluestone, the breath under the umbrella eaves, and the warmth of the wooden bookmarks are used to blend the grand and personal proposition of "reconciliation" into the tiny daily life. It is both sour and warm, and has a bit of indescribable stamina. Perhaps rain is the soul of these two chapters. It is not only a physical scene, but also a metaphor for the characters' state of mind. Lin Buqing once insisted that "rain can wash away dust" and firmly believed that a rain can make regrets, longings and pains disappear. Isn't this a kind of innocent and stubborn self-protection for young people when they face difficulties? He hated his father's departure, complained about the impermanence of reality, and was trapped in the obsession that "growing up will solve everything." But when the raindrops fell again, he finally confessed that "some things cannot be washed away." This sobriety concealed the pain of growing up: it turns out that growth is never about having a "magic key", but learning to admit "powerlessness". He said, "I'm relieved, I just want to let myself go." There was no grand farewell, no strenuous reconciliation, only a gentle letting go of himself. This "let go" is heavier and more courageous than "forgiveness" - he no longer forces himself to forget the irises in his father's yard, and no longer criticizes himself for not being able to retain his mother's memory, but allows these regrets to stay in his heart and become a part of himself. Just like the bookmark engraved with iris, it has the moisture of rain and the texture of wood, imperfect, but real. And Jiang Bubi's presence is the most appropriate warmth in the rain curtain. His tenderness is never a straightforward declaration, but is hidden in the details of "not mentioning that his left shoulder was cold from the rain", in the action of "quietly adjusting the handle of the umbrella to make Lin Buqing more comfortable", and even more hidden in the promise of "I can hold an umbrella for you, and I am willing to accompany you in the rain." He never said "don't be sad", but embraced Lin Buqing's fragility with silent companionship; he understood Lin Buqing's astringency when he said "rain can't wash away things", and he also understood the pain when he mentioned his father, so he only tilted the umbrella a little further so that the other party could lean against him with peace of mind. The most touching thing is the metaphor "Ginger is not like ginger, but is the ginger of ginger tea" - the rain is cold and the space under the umbrella is small, but the warmth of ginger tea is concrete and perceptible. He didn't want to be a savior, he just wanted to be the person who could dispel the cold for Lin Buqing. This "protection that does not cross the line" was more sincere than any love words, and it also made the "thin-ice lake" in Lin Buqing's heart quietly crack. The most touching thing is Jiang Busi's "waiting that does not cross the line." In Chapter 19, when faced with Chu Pei's questioning, he said, "I don't have the initiative, I have to wait for him to think about it," which showed his restrained tenderness. He knew clearly that Lin Buqing had unspoken thoughts in his heart, but he never wanted to expose it. Even though he had already subconsciously paid attention to Lin Buqing's bed and wanted to sort out his crooked music scores, he only hid his thoughts in the details. But when he learned that Lin Buqing was caught in the rain without an umbrella, he instantly broke through - he grabbed the umbrella and rushed into the rain. His steps were twice as fast as usual, and the umbrella tilted early, as if he was already prepared to protect the opponent. This contrast of "waiting on the lips, but being honest with the body" is precisely the most real heartbeat: he respects Lin Buqing's rhythm, but can't help but rush to the other party as soon as possible when he needs it. This balance of "restraint and eagerness" makes the emotion even more profound. Lin Buqing's changes in mood are hidden in the metaphor of rain. In Chapter 19, he said, "The lucky number is five" and "Four, unlike ginger, is the closest." There was an unnoticeable excitement in his tone; but when the news of his mother came, and the fact that his father's memorial day was approaching hit his heart, he fell into silence for an instant - in Chapter 20, he looked at the rain and said, "Some things can't be washed away." What can't be washed away is the regret of his father's departure, the vague memory of his mother, and the longing he has hidden for two years. From the briskness of "easily satisfied" to the calmness of "reconciling with oneself", Lin Buqing's growth is not in the vigorous declaration, but in the words "I want to let myself go" in the rain alley. He is no longer obsessed with washing away the past with rain, but has learned to move forward with regrets. This clarity is the most precious transformation for young people. The existence of Chu Pei and Xu Sai makes this story a little more pyrotechnic and layered. Chu Pei was like a transparent bystander. He saw through Jiang BuNi's "duplicity" but did not criticize it. He only guarded the rhythm of the two of them silently. His appreciation of Lin BuQing also stayed within the boundaries of "being friends". This sense of propriety made friendship more pure. Xu Sai represents another kind of "reconciliation" - he found difficult-to-match piano strings for Chu Pei and asked someone to hand them over with belated regret. This "awakening" may not necessarily lead to forgiveness, but it is also the beginning of reconciliation between him and his past self. The appearance of the two people added a footnote of friendship and regret to the emotional main line of Jiang Busi and Lin Buqing, making the story more real. There is no fierce conflict between the two chapters of text, but small objects such as umbrellas, bookmarks, and piano strings are used to connect the most delicate emotions. The rain is cool, but the temperature under the umbrella is warm; the past is heavy, but the power of companionship is light. Jiang BuTi's waiting and protection, Lin Buqing's reconciliation and growth, are like the light in the rain curtain, illuminating the tenderest thoughts of young people. It makes us understand that the best emotion is never a vigorous possession, but a tacit understanding of "I'll wait for you to think about it, and I'll hold an umbrella for you at any time." This deep love hidden in the rain is more touching than any love words, and longer-lasting than any promise.

This chapter is like a cup of rice wine warmed over charcoal fire. The first taste is the slight sweetness of a young man's thoughts, but when you taste it carefully, there is an undercurrent of mellowness. Every word is soaked in "restrained enthusiasm", and people can glimpse the joy of two hearts slowly approaching each other in the gaps between the words. When Lin Buqing replaced the precious special prize with a mobile phone, the thoughts he made countless times in his mind - "Having a social network is equivalent to being involved in life, almost equal to the other half" - were very much like the little thoughts hidden in candy wrappers, childish and sincere. The pinning and stars when adding friends, the repeated consideration before sending a message, the recklessness of using the lyrics as the opening remarks, and the panic of fearing that the other party will misunderstand, the worries about gains and losses in secret love are deeply written. The phrase "pretend to be drunk with wine to hide the thunder" was originally a meaningless temptation, but Jiang Busi caught it. He not only understood the hidden meaning in the lyrics, but also gently changed it to "half a star", and the sentence "when you sing, your eyes are as bright as", like the spring breeze blowing across the lake, instantly causing ripples in Lin Buqing's heart. And Jiang Buyi's response is even more wonderful in "blank space". He didn't expose Lin Buqing's thoughts directly, but he caught the uncontrollable joy by changing the lyrics; when asked about "I can't ask for a breakup", he went around to the 3,200 yuan of Wensi tofu and the egg white of Xueyi bean paste, and answered with "It's not over after all the hard work", breaking down the abstract emotions into concrete tenderness. The phrase "Who said paper airplanes have to wait for the wind?" Was like a glimmer of light, illuminating Lin Buqing's uneasiness - it turned out that his approach was never a one-sided approach. The most touching thing is the unspoken understanding. The teasing of Qiu Zheng and others was a lively background, making the silence between the two of them even longer; Jiang Busi's cool fingertips holding Lin Buqing's wrist, and the light touch when brushing away the fallen leaves, were all things that need not be said. The ending sentence, "It turns out that some people will take the initiative to face the wind and walk towards you" gently brings the chaos in the young man's mind into a gentle ending. Their feelings, just like the two modified lyrics, are neither fast nor slow, hidden in the sound of the piano and the evening breeze, gradually turning into a sweetness that only each other can understand. There is no grand confession, but in the friend application of "Ding", in the words of the changed lyrics, in the dialogue about paper airplanes and the wind, people know clearly: some fate is destined to be a "natural match" from the beginning. In fact, from the first chapter to the present, it feels a bit like tasting wine. You wake up first and then shake. It has a bit of staying power and a different kind of sourness. The first few chapters feel a bit like Lin Buqing, but Jiang Busi's perspective is interspersed without feeling abrupt. I really like this kind of light and dark pulling feeling, which keeps you awake until you click, and it doesn't make people feel that your love mind is not busy. It's Lin Buqing who knows what he's doing. It's both necessary and a compliment in Lin Buqing's dictionary. He really doesn't play by the rules and is not annoying. You just can't guess what he will do, but you feel that what he does is reasonable and in line with his characteristics. As for Jiang Busi, there is indeed a contrast, but I don't know how to clearly define this perception. It's the same as what the author said in his copywriting: I thought it was the war of one person, but it turned out to be the love of two people. It's all hidden in invisible details. Maybe you have something on your mind, so you really don't need to fold it into a paper airplane. Maybe some people will really face the wind, walk up to you, and put half a star together into an entire universe.

I really like this sentence: Fold your heart into a paper airplane and fly to you against the wind. I don't care where it lands, I just want the wind to blow me to you...

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[Purple Sugar] kswl, there are so many golden sentences in this chapter!! "Hide it, act it out, don't mess it up, don't let me know" "The adult world is not broken up, only faded" The most profound impression~~ I have been busy recently, so I need to bulk up a few chapters before reading...