So I'm Begging You

The pronouns in chapters 1–10 of the pirated version on that browser are a real mess. I fixed them later, so if you’re interested, I recommend reading the original version. ABO pregnancy, bittersweet romance, melodrama, Hong Kong style, youthful love, both leads are sexually inexperienced. Li Jiayou -- Chen Xirong I came to the Li family when I was thirteen. The first time I met sixteen-year-old Li Jiayou, I could see at a glance how much he hated me. Back then, I had no idea how painful it would be to be ignored by everyone later on. Mr. Li supported me mainly because I looked so much like my grandmother. Perhaps because of that, the people in the third branch of the family thought I’d eventually become their Sixth Madam. Either way, the reason I ended up there was nothing to be proud of. I was terribly isolated in their home. I went to an elite international school, where everyone talked about things I couldn’t afford. I couldn’t make friends. Often, no one said a word to me for a week, sometimes even a month. When I was fourteen, I finally couldn’t take the loneliness anymore. I ran away from home with my cat. But it ended in complete failure. My parents wouldn’t let me. It was winter of my second year of middle school, and Li Jiayou was in his second year of high school. Our relationship had turned poisonous. We traded cruel words: I mocked him for having so many half-siblings, and he called me someone his family had abandoned. We got into a fight. I bit his hand first, leaving a bloody bite mark. He’d trained in Muay Thai and kicked me in the stomach. I spent nearly a month in the hospital. After that, our relationship reached a boiling point. He hated me, and I hated him too. But more than dealing with him and his strange family, all I wanted was to go home, back to Nandun Island, where it was summer three seasons of the year. I wanted to live with my family. It was unbearably lonely when no one spoke to me. Li Jiayou hated his strange family, but he wasn’t independent enough to leave. Maybe to relieve the pressure and meet his mother’s impossibly high expectations, he started smoking, dyed his hair, and talked back. In the end, he got sick. A recurrent rut disorder. He needed to mark a beta or omega to get rid of his excess pheromones. His first episode came on suddenly. He couldn’t bite a family member, so his mother pushed me forward instead. Helping a sick person by letting him briefly mark my neck was no trouble at all for a beta like me, who couldn’t be marked. But what was I to him? I could grit my teeth and let him bite me once. If he did it a second time, I’d want to hit him. But things never go the way you want. His mother said he absolutely refused to accept any of the betas she found, and since he’d already bitten me once, she asked me to help him. In the end, money persuaded me. I’d stayed with their family because of their financial support. If I saved enough ahead of time, I could go home. Compared with getting to leave early and go home, being bitten was nothing. I could put up with it. Li Jiayou was nineteen, and I was sixteen. More than a year had passed, and his condition still hadn’t improved. But I’d saved enough money to go home. What a load of nonsense, saying Hong Kong had better educational resources. Being ignored and isolated was the worst pain of all. I’m going home!!! When I told the Li family I wanted to go home, I never expected Li Jiayou to fly into a rage and forbid me from leaving. - “I want to go home!” I cried at Li Jiayou, clutching my now visibly swollen belly. Li Jiayou gripped my wrist tightly and stared at me with a cold expression. His fingers were harder than steel, and I couldn’t move at all. “Isn’t this your home?” “When you’re upset, you want to run back to your parents. Have I ever mistreated you?” Li Jiayou asked, looking down at me. “Xiao Xi, we’re married now. Your household registration has been transferred under my name. This is your proper home now.” Who says transferring your household registration means you can’t go back to your parents’ home? “What kind of logic is that?” I wailed, accusing him. Li Jiayou was being completely unreasonable. “That’s the home I share blood ties with. Changing my household registration can’t change that,” I snapped. Through my tears, I accused the man in front of me, whom I’d known for seven years and who was now the father of the child in my belly. “You say you haven’t mistreated me, then explain those pregnancy tests!” “I’m only nineteen, and you schemed to get me pregnant with your child. If I hadn’t found those pregnancy tests, would you have kept it from me forever?” Li Jiayou held me tightly from behind, his lips brushing the side of my neck like a venomous snake flicking its cold, scarlet tongue. “You call that mistreatment? What can we do now? The damage is done. Can’t you just pretend, like before, that the condom failed?” “You were the one who agreed to sleep with me.” Content warning: The top has a strong desire for revenge. The bottom is somewhat of a jerk early on, drawn to the top’s good looks and getting together with him, only to later suffer the consequences when the top turns into a rabid dog. A similar novel: “Reborn at Sixteen, I Met My Wife Again,” a rebirth-and-pursuit-of-wife story. ---Also titled “The Tree and the Mistletoe” Chen Runshu was reborn, back at sixteen, when there was still time to change everything. His mother-in-law, who loved him most, was still alive. He hadn’t been tricked by Zhang Xiongguang into joining the Zhou family. He hadn’t signed any agreements with them, met Zhou Zhaoyue, or gotten pregnant with his child. Given another life, he didn’t want things to turn out the way they had before. At first, he’d only meant to help Zhou Zhaoyue recover. The only son of the famous Zhou family in Haishi didn’t need someone with no standing like him to give birth to an illegitimate child who would be looked down on by the wealthy. But over the five years from age nineteen to twenty-four, he gave birth to two of Zhou Zhaoyue’s children, a girl and a boy. The villa on the mist-shrouded mountaintop was a place he could never escape. Zhou Zhaoyue came from a wealthy, powerful family. No matter how lawless his actions, his grandfather could always smooth things over for him. He was reckless, cynical, cold, and selfish. Perhaps after becoming dependent on Chen Runshu’s pheromones, he refused to let him go even after their agreement expired. Just thinking about Zhou Zhaoyue made Chen Runshu’s bones tremble. He and Zhou Zhaoyue went way back. They’d been in the same class for all three years of high school, but Zhou Zhaoyue often skipped class, and they came from different social classes, so they barely knew each other. Back at his high school, the first time Chen Runshu saw Zhou Zhaoyue, he still looked like the same arrogant, spoiled rich kid he remembered. Good. He didn’t recognize him, so he must not have been reborn. Chen Runshu wanted to transfer schools, to make sure they never had anything to do with each other in this life. - “Class monitor? You look scared of me.” Zhou Zhaoyue stared at Chen Runshu with an amused smile, a fascinating glint in his dark eyes. Chen Runshu met his gaze. His throat bobbed uncontrollably, and his heart pounded. Zhou Zhaoyue narrowed his eyes, intrigued by the timid omega in front of him. Chen Runshu felt as if every bone in his body had gone limp. His hands were cold as ice, and he couldn’t get a word out. He was afraid of Zhou Zhaoyue. Terrified. Chen Runshu ran. Zhou Zhaoyue watched him quietly, his brow furrowed. - Chen Runshu thought he could avoid Zhou Zhaoyue, until one night Zhou Zhaoyue suddenly barged into his room. He wrapped his arms around Chen Runshu’s chest like a wall of bronze and pressed his bloodshot eyes close to Chen Runshu’s ear, murmuring. “Wife, I’m back.” His scorching breath fell on Chen Runshu’s trembling, pale face. It felt as if a bucket of ice water had been dumped over him. Zhou Zhaoyue had said he’d never let him go, even if he died. Theme: Love makes the proud bow their heads