Facing the Sun, Wind at My Back

When I watched Shen Ya before, it was my first exposure to this kind of subject matter. After watching it, I only had one feeling - breast cancer. When reading the novel, I can't help but take it from the perspective of the heroine. Jiang Yunxi's contempt for Shen Ya, Jiang Yunyi's control, and Jiang Yunxi's tepid apology later on, everything made me angry. I originally thought that everything was over, but after reading it, I was put off. Unexpectedly, I saw this if line in Jinjiang after a while, and clicked in with mixed emotions. I spent a few hours skipping through some of the plot and finished it. How can I put it this way? This book doesn't have the aura of Shen Ya's chapter. The reason why Shen Ya made me angry is because it is really well written. Maybe the author didn't think that much when he wrote it before. He considered so many people's thoughts and followed his own heart. Although the writing made me uncomfortable, it was very well written. Take Jiang Yunxi for example, because there are too many controversies, so the author explained it to her, but there is no need at all, and there is no need to make excuses for her. The words in the Shen Ya chapter and the various descriptions of Jiang Yunxi in the article have already explained that Jiang Yunxi treats Shen Ya as a toy, and she does not care about Shen Ya's thoughts. This is also the charm of Jiang Yunxi's personality. She is such a bad person, bad and true. But now she is clearing Jiang Yunxi's name, saying that she did this because she wanted to force Shen Ya to stand up, and that they were friends at the beginning, and Jiang Yunxi found out that Shen Ya liked her, so she treated her badly. Jiang Yunxi does not need to be whitewashed. If she is whitewashed, she will no longer be Jiang Yunxi. According to this whitewashing path, the character will almost collapse, such as this paragraph in this article. {She brought the topic back to the past again: "I will not apologize to you. I believe that I have abided by our agreement. At the beginning of each game, I asked you what you meant. During each game project, I also repeatedly asked you whether you can still bear it. Therefore, I don't feel that I am wrong. If you think that I was cold and cruel to you before, then I really have nothing to say.} On the surface, Jiang Yunxi said that he would not apologize, but when he said it, he was apologizing, and it was Jiang Yunxi who took the initiative to bring back the past. It's strange, really strange. This paragraph seems to be spoken by Jiang Yunxi who was possessed by the author. It was written in order to make the world peaceful (not) and the protagonist in the novel will no longer have disputes. Because if Jiang Yunxi really writes according to the main character, the if line of this book will not be able to be written. You can look back at the handshake and reconciliation between the two in the Shen Ya chapter. Jiang Yunxi's apology in the Shen Ya Chapter was completely forced. The two of them just maintained a superficial peace, did not speak unless necessary, and would not be alone together. They treated each other as insubstantials. But in this if line, Jiang Yunxi actually prepared a gift and gave her a bracelet after communicating with Shen Ya, eh? There is a disconnect here. The explanation in the article is that Jiang Yunxi also regarded Shen Ya as a friend at the beginning. Seeing that Shen Ya had changed and become like a person, he was relieved and relieved to hand over Xiao tide to her and gave her gifts. Writing this paragraph not only ruined the character, but also explained one thing in reverse, that is, Shen Ya who was with Jiang Yunyi in the Shen Ya chapter did not become a human being in Jiang Yunxi's eyes, and Jiang Yunxi looked down upon her. Therefore, in the Shen Ya chapter, Jiang Yunxi reluctantly apologized and did not give such a redundant explanation to Shen Ya because she felt that she was not worthy. This is indeed in line with Jiang Yunxi's underlying logic. This kind of person has an inherent instinct, that is, if you don't treat you as a human being, there is no need for me to treat you as a human being. If you start to have self-esteem and become a human being, I will treat you as a human being. In fact, Jiang Yunyi also has this underlying logic. It seems to be S's own instinct that can help them quickly identify prey. When Shen Ya didn't treat herself as a human being at the beginning, she subconsciously wanted others to treat her this way. This kind of M tendency went in both directions. So the character design in this book is completely different from the Shen Ya chapter. Let's talk about Jiang Yunxi first. The master-servant relationship between Jiang Yunxi and Shen Ya lasted for four years. There were 12 months and 365 days in a year, and 1,460 days in four years. If calculated based on the frequency of playing once a week, it would be 208 times. The two did the most intimate things 208 times, pouring out the most secret desires/desires. The author said that they did not have a relationship, but helping to solve this kind of thing would be a relationship in Le's eyes. Jiang Yunxi saw the naked Shen Ya, her beautiful face, good figure, and the rhythm when she was excited. Wasn't there any emotion or desire at all? Shen Ya's figure and appearance are both excellent. My answer is: Yes, because in the main plot, Jiang Yunxi's positioning of Shen Ya is "X toy" Because she does not regard the other person as a human being, the other person's good figure and appearance are just toys in her eyes, like a beautifully made doll. Although it is exquisite, it is not interesting. She can play with it occasionally and vent. Otherwise, it cannot be explained why Jiang Yunxi was so angry when she saw Shen Ya hiding her shirt. She felt that she was offended by the toy and could only play with the toy by herself, but the toy could not have thoughts about her. Although the author has explained the point of anger, the explanation is really far-fetched. As someone who has had sex life and P friends, it is really difficult for me to imagine where Jiang Yunxi's point of anger is. Even if Jiang Yunxi's brain circuit was abnormal, how could they still be so disgusted with the shirt incident after they had had 208 intimate contacts? So there is only one explanation. Jiang Yunxi really does not regard Shen Ya as a human being. She cannot accept the sexual intercourse of lower species. To give an inappropriate analogy, you have a dog as a pet (female). It goes into heat and makes very uncomfortable noises, but it cannot be sterilized for the time being. You feel a little annoyed, so you use something to help it. However, if this dog wants to ride you or steal your shirt and go back to the den, it will make you feel sick. Let's talk about Jiang Yunyi again. Jiang Yunyi is no less evil than Jiang Yunxi. What impressed me the most was when Jiang Yunyi discovered that Shen Ya was secretly hiding her shirt, so she called Jiang Yunxi and asked Jiang Yunxi to humiliate Shen Ya in person. She also did this and that to Shen Ya when she was on the phone with Jiang Yunxi. When I read another comment about posting photos, I was not impressed. So I looked back and found that such a thing really happened. I hadn't noticed it before, and the new discovery made me scared. Using a plot in the second half of the novel as an example, you can understand what I am afraid of. When Xiao Xi saw the video of Shen Ya changing her face, Jiang Yunxi called to question Jiang Yunyi. Jiang Yunyi retorted, would you take a video with Qin Shuyao and show it to others? When I saw this, I thought of Jiang Yunyi exposing Shen Ya to Jiang Yunxi in person. Jiang Yunxi sent Shen Ya's photo to Jiang Yunyi. There seems to be another plot where Shen Ya recalls that Qin Shuyao was there once when Jiang Yunxi molested her. Did she remember this wrongly? She didn't dare to watch it again, it was uncomfortable. This kind of behavior of exposing Shen Ya makes me extremely uncomfortable. Why don't the two sisters consider Shen Ya's privacy at all? Even if they are biological sisters, they can't do this. If it were in real life, such S would make M die without a burial place. The two sisters gave the impression that they didn't care about Shen Ya at all. Even in the HE ending, where Jiang Yunyi and Shen Ya are sweet and have children, I still feel panicked, as if I am the only one remembering those humiliations for Shen Ya. The description of the game involves the real life of the protagonist, which makes it impossible for me to think that it is just a game, or that I cannot understand the fun of M. To Shen Ya, those experiences are just fun. Most people read them as an H novel. Why am I the only one who cares about it? This if book really made me see a self-respecting Shen Ya. Such Shen Ya, Jiang Yunxi and Jiang Yunyi did not dare to humiliate her. It also made me suddenly think of the sentence "What others do to you is with your permission", which is really good.

I can't survive, two Mongolians [dog heads]

If possible, I really want to read the book about Xiao tide and Shu Yao 😣

Many people in the comment area have read the original text written in big letters WWW hahaha

After all, Zhou Ziqian was raised by Fang Moyao, so we have long been used to it 🐶

Teacher Shen is here because of Mensao

Little Sun Iceberg is awesome and can't be explained

In fact, it refers to Sang Shuhuai.

I almost couldn't hold my breath, hahahahahaha

Is this also a victim of patriarchy? 😭