[Korean Showbiz] The Years I Scrimped and Saved

Having been severely deceived by the created persona, I am now a boy. I am absolutely sure that he has a lot of black stuff. It is okay to appreciate his appearance and stage occasionally, but it is absolutely not okay for me to spend money on it.

When I was in my 20s, I was crazy about chasing stars. I spent a large part of my life. I spent my energy, time, and money like water. Every day when I didn't work, I was like taking drugs. Later, due to some reasons, I completely lost my fandom and became a Korean entertainment girl. I just like ordinary people did not understand myself at that time, so I ended my long adolescence hastily and decisively. Now, this year, after seven or eight years, I have started to fall into the circle again, but not so crazy, like a real adult. In the entertainment industry, you treat it as entertainment, watch it for fun or spend money to buy emotional value. This is the 18th level of star chasing. You cannot fall into the trap of the fan circle. Don't chase stars for the sake of chasing stars. It is a one-way effort in itself. If you feel uncomfortable, leave [Compare Heart]

What I believe in chasing stars is the theory of projection. The so-called love is actually the pursuit of the fantasy self and the desired life state. Maybe it's also the desire to be loved – there will always be someone in the world who loves me unconditionally, right? Idol is an industry, but also a phantom in a dream. It is a profession about selling fantasy, but the undertone of fantasy is cruel, stupid, commercial and replicable. We long for the love we devote to our idols to be reciprocated, and we can satisfy the emptiness and shortcomings in our hearts through dedication and putting aside rationality to fight for him/her. However, friends and comrades, I think fighting in an information cocoon will not have good results, right? Can blind love really have a rational future? Will there be equal rewards for running with passion? I think only you know the answer to this question. I have loved some people truly and sincerely before, but now that I think about it, I actually love myself and my colleagues. Because at that time I really longed for attention and love, but it was also the most painful period for me. Behind this love, there is pain. I naively thought that I not only love your light, I also love your shadow, your vulnerability and helplessness. But in the end, I really discovered that this vulnerability may also be packaged. Once I cast doubt on it, cracks appeared in my trust. This little me has been really hurt by some people, but I know clearly that the blackmail is really because of my lovely partner and can't bear to break up. While chewing the pain, I type "Wow, I can't explain it to the universe." Hahaha,,, there is no future for those who love celebrities. . .

The baby I saw will be smooth and happy in 2026. If you are willing to eat a small candy (physical meaning), you can come to wb at 12:12~

Hey, it's such a pity that I didn't get to see the end. Happy now

I feel like if I wait long enough, my red and black colors will be updated as well [Spread hands]

311 Is a good dayhhhh

I understand the teacher, so I can't say anything to persuade him to stay. The Li Hua the teacher wrote is great. I will miss him until I completely forget him. What a pity! [Crying]

In fact, you don't have to write about beautiful things, right? [Poor]

It's even updated. Happy New Year!