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My name is Xi Gu'an, and I am a eunuch.
At thirteen, I followed the prince Xuan Yan to Western Chu as a hostage. For six years, we depended on each other and I protected him with my life.
When Xuan Yan returned to court and ascended the throne, I rose with him, becoming the only eunuch in the history of the Great Zhou Dynasty ever to climb so high so quickly.
I was utterly loyal to Xuan Yan, and in return I earned his absolute trust.
I knew about Xuan Yan's secret affair with General Xiao Mingfeng. I was the only one who attended them by candlelight on the imperial bed of hibiscus.
I understood Xuan Yan's selfishness and fickleness. Moving between the court and the palace, I oversaw the emperor's selection of consorts and the appointment of the empress.
I knew Xuan Yan's ambitions and schemes. Once the realm was united and the hare was dead, the hounds were cooked. I personally stamped the order that trapped Xiao Mingfeng to die in Hongyan Valley.
It was said throughout the land, "At court, no one knows the emperor, only Xiao Mingfeng; in the inner palace, no one knows the empress, only Xi Gu'an."
I thought that after Xiao Mingfeng died, I would be next.
But I never expected the emperor to be the next to die.
Xuan Yan left me a young ruler. With the dynasty changed and the emperor still a child, I remained the Chief Eunuch of the Directorate of Ceremonial, a loyal eunuch of the inner palace.
No one saw me love anyone, because that was my secret.
No one saw who loved me, because that too had to be kept hidden.
But I think I'm about to go mad...
[Reader Advisory]
1. The main text is in third person. The protagonist is Xi Gu'an (the bottom), with two tops (Emperor Xuan Yan and Imperial Guard Chu Tiankuo). Their two tangled romances unfold side by side, one an unattainable first love, the other a beloved scar. The relationships are messy, so readers who insist on chastity should stay away.
2. Top 1, Emperor Xuan Yan, is not pure in body or heart. Top 2, Imperial Guard Chu Tiankuo, is pure in both body and heart. Top 1 will die, and Top 2 will take his place.
3. Set in a fictional world. Every detail serves the melodrama.
4. Healthy love is certainly healthy, but twisted love is just so addictive.
5. This is not a sweet romance. You'll have to find sweetness among the shards of glass, and even the sugar will cut your mouth.
6. Chapter titles: Xuan/Xuan Yan appears; Chu/Chu Tiankuo appears; Both/Xuan and Chu both appear; Plot/plot-only chapter.
Theme: Though the moss flower is tiny as a grain of rice, it still strives to bloom like a peony.
The author is DaDa~FanFan~Hungry~Wenwen~
I feel like I'm going to be tortured. 🥺
WOC After reading this, I really want to give up on Xuan Yan and Zhan Tiankuo!
????? Husband, goddess, you don't have a heart 💔😭😭 Originally, we were all going to recognize each other as brothers. We were all going to be happy with Xiao Chu. We were all going to be happy in the imperial court. But in the end, we were dead, dead, right? 😭 😭 [Heartbroken] [Heartbroken] I'm really dead. It hurts. It hurts so much.
I didn't pay much attention to the role of the brother, but he is so unreasonable! Why is it like this! [Angry][angry][angry][brain-picking][brain-picking][brain-picking][brain-picking][brain-picking][brain-picking]
Our Gu An charmed everyone like this. The little emperor will take good care of Gu An for his father. 🐶🐶🐶
Will the person I knock on the door be Tiankuo [Let me be healthy]
I still want to read ~ Updated by the author 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭
Come on, baby sixteen~ I've been waiting for two days
Great, I'm a new fan. This chapter "ψ(`∇´)ψ" is as touching as ever. I'm really curious about what Xuan Yan and Tian Kuo talked about. Will my wife write this part? Tian Kuo is really sad this time. Is it Gu An's turn to take the initiative to apologize to Tian Kuo?