This is a previously approved story, now being updated again. The full story is expected to be 200,000 words.
Bian Xueming, a spoiled young noble of the capital, loved cockfighting, horseback riding, and sightseeing. She'd never done anything worthwhile in her life. Who could have guessed that at the age of sixteen, she'd fall in love at first sight with a sickly young man who came to stay at her home?
The trouble was, that year her spoiled, willful behavior led her to do something wrong, and no matter what she did, she couldn't make up for it. She could only watch helplessly as the sickly young man drifted farther and farther away from her.
After years of entanglement, all she got in the end was this: "If there's a next life, I only hope I never met you."
Bian Xueming was devastated. Her grief ate away at her, and within a few short years, she followed him to the grave.
When she opened her eyes again, she was back at the moment before she drugged the sickly young man.
Bian Xueming a moment ago: "Drink your medicine, Dalang."
The next moment: "I'll go first, girls!"
She was terrified of repeating the past, but had forgotten that she'd gone out of her way to find a powerful aphrodisiac.
The sickly young man, pinned beneath her, gritted his teeth and sneered.
Bian Xueming: "..."
I swear I didn't do it on purpose. Do you believe me!??
Shen Qiusui had two wishes in life. First, to be healthy and free from illness. Second, to help the world and bring peace to the people, living up to the teachings of the sages.
Unfortunately, neither wish came true.
After being reborn, the person before him was the one who had harmed him in his past life. He hated her to the bone.
At first, Shen Qiusui only wanted her dead. But she had changed completely. She spent money and effort to treat his illness, and was even willing to give up her life for him. He simply couldn't understand.
Later, standing outside the crowd, he watched her venture into the vast world and find new ambitions, while the image of him gradually faded from her eyes.
Shen Qiusui panicked. He stood along her inevitable path, clutched his chest, and slowly collapsed to the ground.
He was hiding a secret, and had become the sickly young man who panted after three steps and coughed after five once again.
When the truth finally came out, she stormed off in a fury.
"Bian Xueming."
His voice hoarse, eyes red, he clutched her sleeve tightly with his thin, pale hand.
"Look at me again."
Theme: Let go of the past, grow, and transform.
I like to save more and watch it again. I hope to see the heroine become sad and angry after knowing that the hero poisoned her to death out of disgust in her previous life, ignoring the hero, and letting the hero pursue his wife.