I Don’t Love Him [The Long Road to Winning Her Back]

[A groveling-to-win-her-back story, happy ending]

[Sweet, gentle, adorable, and silly bottom]

Ji Yu is a little fool. When Lu Tingshen found him, he couldn't remember a single thing about himself.

After being taken in by Lu Tingshen, Ji Yu finally had a home. He loved the man who gave him one so much that he tried hard to remember everything about him.

For instance, Lu Tingshen liked having Ji Yu tie his tie, so no matter how exhausted or uncomfortable Ji Yu had been the night before, he would wake up groggily the next morning, tie Lu Tingshen's tie, and give him a good-morning kiss.

For instance, Lu Tingshen liked silver willow flowers, so Ji Yu would throw away the champagne roses he'd spent an hour walking to the flower shop to buy and replace them with the thin, unopened silver willow flowers.

And for instance... when Lu Tingshen's most beloved person, Lu Yiliu, was rushed to the emergency room and desperately needed blood with a very high compatibility, Ji Yu had to obediently roll up his sleeves, expose his fragile veins, and watch as his blood was drawn.

He was afraid of pain. He was terribly, terribly afraid of it. The needle pierced his bruised skin, hurting so much that he wanted to cry and run away, but Lu Tingshen only soothed him gently. "Xiao Yu, don't be afraid. I'll take you to see the northern lights in Iceland."

But he didn't want to see the northern lights. He only wanted Lu Tingshen to hold him and tell him he didn't have to hurt anymore.

Later, Ji Yu finally got his wish. One afternoon, when Lu Tingshen was especially fond of the light, Ji Yu filled Lu Tingshen's home with blooming silver willow flowers, then disappeared without a trace.

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Lu Tingshen had always thought Ji Yu was a little fool who could take his mind off his troubles, because the little fool had forgotten everything except how to please him.

He liked putting an arm around the little fool's slender waist before falling asleep, waiting for him to turn over and face him, then sneak him a careful little kiss.

He also liked how the little fool, exhausted and nodding off against the stair railing, would brighten up and obediently throw himself into Lu Tingshen's arms as soon as he saw him come home.

He liked the little fool's innocent nature, but he hadn't forgotten that the little fool was only someone he'd taken in to improve his mood, not someone he held dear.

It was supposed to be that way. So why was he heartbroken after the little fool left, as if something had been torn out of his chest?

He tossed and turned day and night, desperate to find the little fool who had eyes only for him. But when he finally found him, he discovered that the little fool was now surrounded by many people.

And the little fool remembered everyone, except him.

Reading guide: 1. The top loves no one but the bottom; misunderstandings.

2. The top doesn't know about the harm the bottom suffered.

3. The bottom is of normal intelligence; he has simply lost his memory.

Theme: Bloom for you in the name of love.