Pause the Meltdown, Let's Debut First [Survival Show]

[The blurb is in first person; the main story is in third person]

My name is Chu Xingyun, and I'm mixed-race.

It doesn't matter what I'm mixed with. What matters is that I got the full set: [a mother with schizophrenia], [a father who emotionally abused me], and [a controlling, perverted godfather]. A three-in-one hellish start from the start.

Life has been pretty hard, but I've gotten used to it.

People say poor kids grow up fast.

My family isn't poor.

I just never expected that kids from a mentally ill family wouldn't only grow up fast, but would also have no family left to come home to.

When I started hallucinating, I knew: well, that's it. I'm going crazy.

Sigh, I still couldn't escape my inheritance.

Maybe that's for the best.

After I went crazy, my mental state improved a lot.

Anyway, the rest of my life is going to be either going crazy or dying.

Might as well go crazy to my heart's content.

First, set off a firecracker at a grave.

Then buy a plane ticket and head back to China.

And then...

Hey, what?

A survival show?

The man looked at me with shining eyes and said with complete certainty, "You're definitely going to be famous! Countless people will love you!"

I don't really care whether I become famous.

But...

Then let me leave my mark on the world.

Maybe someone will remember me someday.

So I agreed.

I just didn't expect that my joining the survival show on a whim would result in a whole group of adoring big brothers:

[Clingy loyal dog], possibly a masochist: I'd be afraid he'd lick my hand if I tried to slap him;

[Gentle, domesticated husband], like a brother and a father: attentive in every way, quietly caring for everyone;

[Happy puppy], a social menace: direct and passionate, always competing and vying for attention;

[Beautiful big shot], extreme contrast: to his own people, "Be good, little brother," but to everyone else, "What are you looking at?"

And there's also [the boy mom], [the face-obsessed solo fan who hates everyone else], [the silent lighthouse]...

And more than that, there are all those sincere hearts shining beneath the stage.

Faced with unfamiliar but burning affection, I thought: Maybe I should stop going crazy for now and debut first.

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From Zhou Siren's point of view:

The story of "how I rescued an abused cat, only to be the one who was saved."

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* [Highly capable, socially withdrawn, turns from black-hearted to devoted, pure-love-warrior top x talented, flirtatious, sweet on the outside and dark within, mad genius bottom]

* A mutual journey toward each other between someone "with issues" and someone "with even more issues."

* The top is older in years, but younger in mindset. He's younger, but a controlling dom who takes charge.

Rebuilding from ruins is a hero's journey unique to survivors of trauma.

[Reader's Guide]

1. Entirely fictional characters. They aren't based on real people. Don't project or recast them, and don't bring up real-life celebrities.

2. The setting is fictional. Any namesakes, including cities and universities, belong to a parallel world. Don't associate them with reality.

3. The story has a survival show arc and a boy group arc, and will continue through the end of the limited-time group.

4. The competition format is based on the Produce 101 franchise, but includes many original elements.

5. There are no secondary couples, but the boy group will play up same-sex chemistry, and fans will pair them up. There'll be every possible combination.

6. Extra scenes will appear in the author's notes from time to time.

7. I have a habit of revising. I only take responsibility for the official version on Jinjiang.

Theme: May you always have the courage to love and be loved.