I Shouldn't Have Said I Loved You That Day

Bad ending, terminally ill hero, written with complete creative freedom [Brash on the outside, deeply devoted underneath x cold on the outside, warm-hearted kept lover] At Zhou Si's funeral, his kept lover, Jiang Sui, inherited his entire estate. Jiang Sui gazed at his portrait with calm indifference, without shedding a single tear. The thing Jiang Sui regretted most was telling Zhou Si, "I love you." As a plaything kept by Mr. Zhou, he had always thought he was quiet enough, obedient enough, perfect in every way. But he made two mistakes. Ten years ago, he buried the love he should have confessed deep in his heart. Ten years later, he shouldn't have let Zhou Si learn about that long-expired love, only for Zhou Si to leave this world full of resentment. Before his death, Zhou Si had wanted to see snow one more time, but Beijing's first snowfall was far too late. That day, he was too weak to get up. Holding Jiang Sui's hand, he asked, "Has it still not snowed today?" Jiang Sui had always hated snowy days. Looking out at the bright sunshine and cloudless blue sky, he suddenly hated this false semblance of peaceful days. "It has," he answered. Zhou Si only smiled faintly. "Don't lie to me." . The day Zhou Si received his terminal cancer diagnosis, he calmly accepted his fate. He had no family or friends and was all alone. With nothing to hold him back, he had nothing to fear about death. His only regret was that after ten years, he still hadn't melted Jiang Sui's icy heart. It wasn't until Jiang Sui shed tears in front of him for the first time and solemnly said, "I love you," that Zhou Si truly felt the fear of death. He was reluctant to leave, and full of regret. It turned out that losing something after finally getting it was even more painful than never getting it at all. He hadn't had time to marry Jiang Sui. He hadn't had time to happily introduce him to everyone as his "lover." Most importantly, he hadn't had time to be loved by Jiang Sui. He liked snowy days. One snowfall had led him to find Jiang Sui by chance, and another had helped him coax Jiang Sui into living by his side, where he could care for him tenderly. This year's first snow came too late. He would have to wait until his next life to see it. The love of this life had also come too late. He hoped he would receive it earlier next time. Bad ending. Whether there will be a parallel-world happy-ending bonus chapter depends on how things go. Theme: A terminally ill hero with a bad ending.