Song of the Northern Desert Under the Mystic Heavens

In her first life, Shen Yao was a ruthless killer who slew dragons and gods, while Bian Zhao was a schemer who ruled the world.

In a tale of the underdog overthrowing the powerful, the schemer fell in love with the killer. Sadly, the tragedy was already set in motion, and no amount of effort could undo it. In the end, the schemer died because of the killer’s duplicitous schemes. Only death could atone for his sins in this life.

Shen Yao: “So this is how much your loyalty is worth? Less than paper?”

Bian Zhao offered no defense.

The blade pierced straight through his chest. There was not a trace of tenderness in her, and the cold steel laid bare three hundred years of false affection.

He died by her hand. Cause and effect had come full circle, and justice had been served.

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In her second life, she was the grandmaster of the Carefree Sect, and he was its chief disciple.

All he wanted was for his master to live in peace and happiness. He devoted himself to cultivation and forged a Lili Dragon Pearl simply to win a smile from the Venerable One. But a god loves all living beings, and she had never looked his way. He gave his life for his master, and only then did he earn a sliver of her compassion.

Bian Zhao: “I am fortunate to have earned my master’s compassion. Even if I die, I have no regrets in this life.”

He lay in her arms and died, lost in her tender embrace.

The dragon maiden wept, and her tears stirred heaven and earth. At last, flesh and blood grew around her wooden heart.

In the end, she sacrificed herself for the Dao, restoring life to the world and delivering ten thousand spirits from suffering.

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In her third life, she was the strongest fighter in the Heavenly Dao’s mystic sects, while he was the young lord of the Bei Mo Bian family.

They met through one near miss after another, and recognized each other amid schemes and conspiracies.

This time, they will return to where it all began and mend the regrets left behind in their previous lives. Though everything has changed, no matter how many times they are reborn, he will still fall in love with her.

Also known as: After Reincarnating into the Human Race, I Killed Myself

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Ongoing serial "Return to Eight Hundred Years Ago with My Nemesis". Blurb:

1. Fang Xi, a judge in the Underworld, and Qi Yu, a Heavenly Dao agent, have fought for a hundred years, locked in bitter opposition. Right under the Heavenly Dao’s nose, Qi Yu played both sides, made Fang Xi take the blame, defied fate, and left the Underworld to become his vassal.

So she used Qi Yu’s heart’s blood as an offering to reverse time and return to eight hundred years earlier, vowing to bring him to justice before he ascended.

But the formation failed. They both lost their memories, and former enemies became brother and sister.

Qi Yu became Fang Xi’s elder brother, Xu Chengyan. After their parents died, they depended on each other.

2. Xu Chengyan was gentle and composed, at ease but never arrogant, and treated his younger sister Fang Xi very well.

But Fang Xi couldn’t help suspecting her elder brother.

When he gave her life-extending pills, she secretly switched them out instead of taking them.

When he tucked in her covers, she woke with a start and held a dagger to his throat...

In a dream, Xu Chengyan drove her to the brink of collapse and said, “Don’t touch me.”

When she woke, Xu Chengyan casually felt her forehead, his eyes full of concern.

But she curled up in the corner, afraid of his touch. He grabbed her, made her take her medicine, and scolded her: “Why are you hiding? How can you get better if you won’t take your medicine?”

Fang Xi was still shaken, but her elder brother’s kindness toward her felt so real.

One day, unable to sleep, she heard something from the room next door and pressed her ear to the wall.

She heard her elder brother murmuring in his sleep, calling her nickname between ragged breaths.

She used a Dream Peeking Talisman to investigate, and saw him in the dream, his eyes dark and intense.

He nuzzled close to her, whispering, “A Xi, be good.”

When she woke, Fang Xi fled in a panic, her face burning.

How could he... How dare he?

After that, they should have kept their distance, but they kept instinctively gravitating toward one another.

As the Heavenly Dao gradually weakened, the seal on their memories began to loosen.

Xu Chengyan once again rose to the highest ranks of court, and his wife approached him with a cup of poison.

Xu Chengyan suddenly understood: she had never forgotten the love and hatred of their past life.

Fang Xi: “It’s late and damp out. I made ginger tea. Drink it while it’s hot.”

Xu Chengyan looked at the cloudy ginger tea, then at her.

He reached out and pulled her into his arms.

Xu Chengyan: “Call me big brother, and I’ll drink it.”

Fang Xi refused, trying to pour the ginger tea into her own mouth.

Xu Chengyan gripped her wrist. A faint sound rang out as the core snapped... [source text garbled]

Xu Chengyan’s eyes darkened with anger.

“I suddenly remembered our younger days in Fengqiu. We were poor, but we were happy together. A Xi, do you remember what you used to say all the time?”

Xu Chengyan kissed her earlobe, biting gently.

“You said I was the best big brother in the world.”

4. It took her many years to understand that the racing of her heart back then came from hating him so fiercely and loving him so much that she lost herself.

A nightmare.

When her younger self saw the face of her nemesis in a prophetic dream,

Fang Xi finally realized: how could her elder brother be her nemesis?

The girl in the dream told her to kill her elder brother,

but she refused.

[Reading guide]

1. One-on-one romance, happy ending. The leads lose their memories and return to their youth. The early part is slow-burn; the pace picks up later, with explosive melodrama and plenty of personal kinks. Neither lead is morally perfect or saintly.

2. Alternate-history setting, not a conventional view of history. Please don’t overanalyze it.

3. The male lead has separation anxiety early on and skin hunger later.

4. Angsty, melodramatic, old-school period romance.

5. Chapter 11 onward is a new reincarnation world, not a flashback. (2026.9.5)

Romance 60%, plot 40%. Not a female-empowerment novel.

Theme: World peace