#Resilient, dazzling, and pretending to be fragile x cocky, cheeky, and lovesick# Updates daily at 6:00 p.m.
[A state of mind without a past or a future: "No matter what tomorrow brings, I love you today."]
When Ding Anjing was in high school, her mother pinned her against the windowsill and cursed her to die for dating too young.
Apparently, dating at sixteen counts as too young, but getting married at twenty counts as marrying late.
Just two years later, her family had her lined up for one blind date after another, all so they could collect a bride price and send her off.
Ding Anjing didn't bother arguing. She treated it as checking off a relationship KPI.
She never expected her blind date to be a scumbag too, tricking her into going out drinking with his clients.
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And then??? Somehow, she ended up in bed with her first love.
Shen Zhinan gripped her chin and forced her to look at him. "What, you think you can just sneak off after getting what you wanted?"
"Smack!" She slapped him hard, because he was a jerk, and because he'd let her down before.
He lightly licked the blood from his split lip and gave a self-mocking smile. A shadow fell over his flawless face as he berated her for never learning, for never fighting back. "How can you be so obedient, still picking through the trash for more trash?"
"What do you know?" She didn't even know how she'd made it through all those years.
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Her mother sat on the ground outside her home, wailing, while her younger brother got married because he had a child on the way and still took it for granted that she would give him money.
Driven to desperation, Ding Anjing's psychological illness returned.
Just as she had in high school, her mother blamed everyone but herself. She had caused scenes at school back then, and now she caused scenes at Ding Anjing's workplace.
"You and I will die together! Didn't you say you wanted to take me to see your father? Then let's bring your little brother along too!"
That night, Ding Anjing really did walk into the sea, until she heard someone shouting her name: "Anjing!"
He wrapped his arms around her with all his strength.
She struggled and yelled, "Didn't you say I was weak? Why stop me now that I'm trying to be brave?"
His eyes reddened. "Because I'm scared. Scared of a world without you."
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Anjing! Everyone, be quiet!
Years later, Ding Anjing finally realized that the two words her carefree, irreverent first love said most often were her name.
She cried, soaking his clothes with her tears. The dampness seeped through to him, making his body stiffen as a nameless ache surged through his heart and caught in his throat.
Now he could finally see her every day. He watched her turn over and rest her cheek to one side, sometimes smiling, sometimes frowning. He realized he'd loved her from the very beginning, perhaps when she pulled out a knife, or when she played a piece by Ryuichi Sakamoto.
"So how should I respond to you?" she asked.
"You should love me just a little," he replied.
◎ Reunited after years apart / rekindled love
◎ SC, HE, a short story of fifty to sixty thousand characters
◎ Sometimes I think writing is about sensitive people finding words for things everyone experiences but can't quite name. This story is very much a personal indulgence of mine. When I feel lonely and helpless, I imagine someone coming to save me. Of course, we girls have to keep trying too.
◎ Thanks for reading, and may life treat you well~
Theme: Make way for the beautiful woman who's nobody's fool
The conflict is well written, but too many descriptions of clothing and appearance can be a bit boring. The writing is a bit literary, and some places are like ancient sayings, but some places are flat, and some places are well written. Come on!
Alas! How could Gu Yiyan, a humble man, treat Ding Anjing like this? Is my girlfriend a free escort girl? Break up quickly and talk to Shen Zhinan!
I don't know why, but when I saw this, I burst into tears. I didn't expect that in Jinjiang Romance, where "Fu Bao" and "Concubine" are everywhere, we can still see a normal, kind-hearted heroine who doesn't mess up the female rivalry. Through the heroine, we can also get a glimpse of the author's soul—— She must be a very thoughtful woman. He is avant-garde in thought, but not so penetrating in writing. Ding Anjing, in terms of character, should be a girl who was harmed by her original family. Yeah, a pretty normal character. But her behavior was so abnormal. Seven years ago, her mother pulled her hair and told her to die because of her puppy love. She should have seen her mother's true face clearly from that time, right? But seven years have passed, why hasn't she escaped from her mother? Why would my mother hold my head down and go on a blind date with a strange man? [PS: I was aggrieved at the beginning, really. Even in real life, a person with a job and an education can easily escape the scourge of his family of origin. But the heroine did not run away. Her thoughtfulness and thoroughness seemed to have become a joke. Maybe she agreed to the blind date because she still loved her mother, but this was too sad. ] Love, love is not thorough. Hate, hate not understanding. Besides, at the beginning of the chapter, I put together the "blind date partner" of Chuangfei. Pliing wine, touching faces, forcibly kissing, teasing... What's next? Thank you, I've been beaten to death. This is a crime, right? But why can the heroine still be calm and rush into the bathroom to feel sorry for herself and complain about her rapid decline in life? To be honest, it was really unpleasant to see this. The author's malice towards me is really too great. Even if the heroine rushes out and blows up those old wall lamps with glass bottles, it will make people happy. Really, it is impossible for a normal, moral adult to watch others destroy themselves. [There are jobs everywhere. If you beat up the old wall lamp and lose your job, you can go somewhere else to make a living. In this modern place, it's not easy to get rich, but it's also very easy to be a wage earner. ] Then there is the appearance of the male protagonist—— Indifferent, dignified, and looking down on all living beings. In short, it's like being reproductively isolated from the people at the bottom. Well, just when I was looking forward to watching Flower of the High Mountain step down from the altar for love, the author started to hit me with a forklift again. Can't this world allow pure lovers to survive? Why does the hero want to have sex with the heroine when she is unconscious? Why! Why! Why! What is the difference between this and crime! Why! Why! Why! At that moment, he was no longer a flower on the high mountain, nor was he a cold and overbearing boss. He is a potential criminal. [I was beaten to death, but I got up again and continued watching. ] Well, it looks like a routine that was popular in online articles when I was in elementary school—— First, he was drunk, and then something inconvenient to describe happened smoothly while drunk, then he got entangled, and then he got back together... It's too routine. To be honest, I really came to watch Love, but after watching it for a long time, I didn't see anything. Just, very twisted [referring to my mental state] Just, very awkward. But I feel that the author is very different. Well, I look forward to the author's other works [Best wishes]