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Sincere, devoted younger woman x rational, gentle older woman
Li Jingfeng's parents divorced when she was little, and she was sent to live at her grandfather's home with her older brother, who had a heart condition. She never hoped to change the painful course of her life; she just wanted to study hard and escape from home. Then Shen Jin arrived as a teacher sent by the education college to work in the countryside. Shen Jin didn't just light up Li Jingfeng's life; she set off several truckloads of fireworks, illuminating the dark night and showing her which way to go. For the first time in sixteen years, Li Jingfeng learned how wonderful it felt to matter to someone. Shen Jin and Li Jingfeng grew closer with the mother's calm acceptance, using care and understanding to slowly learn about and rebuild Li Jingfeng's shattered inner world.
It would have been enough that Shen Jin was excellent at her job and achieved outstanding teaching results, but she was also a top-tier beauty who caught the eye in any crowd, and she was gentle and understood children's strange ideas. Li Jingfeng fell under the spell of her boundless tenderness and secretly resolved to keep clinging to Shen Jin like this. Unfortunately, her clumsy tricks were seen through at once.
Li Jingfeng was at an age when she would brave fire and water, expressing her feelings with burning passion and determination. Shen Jin remained clear-headed and restrained, only ever acting as the adult she trusted most. As Shen Jin's career flourished, the old house caught fire and nothing could put it out. Li Jingfeng took the opportunity to douse it in gasoline and blow the place up, making her feelings known with reckless abandon. In the end, the two stared at the ruins in silence. The hope that time would heal everything was shattered when Shen Jin left. No matter how much Li Jingfeng wanted her to stay, all she got was: "I'll come back to see you. When have I ever lied?"
Shen Jin didn't lie, but she gave no time frame. Li Jingfeng waited quietly, looking up at nothing but the evergreen mountains. Time kept passing, love and hate faded away, and memories lost their color and clarity. When they finally met again, the traces of Jingfeng's growth were like puzzle pieces Shen Jin had lost. They tried to press each other into their very bones, only to find that time had worn down their edges, and they could no longer fit together.
[Content Warnings]
1. An eighteen-year age gap.
2. Their relationship develops from "teacher and student" into ambiguity, dependence, and emotional entanglement. They only officially become lovers after Li Jingfeng is an adult, but the feelings begin in high school.
3. Shen Jin is married but separated (and later divorces). When Shen Jin was struggling, she chose to marry someone she didn't love as a stepping stone to advance, rather than choose love. The loveless marriage quickly went cold and remained a marriage in name only for a long time. Her husband cheated on her, and Shen Jin was also abused by him during their marriage.
4. A realistic foundation: the story does not shy away from difficult issues such as workplace struggles, domestic violence, school bullying, and trauma from one's family of origin. This is not a sweet romance.
Theme: Gradually learning that growing up means losing things
I am honored to be the first reader to click Today is the 1169th day that I have liked her. It is the 338th day that I have confessed to her. My love for 3 years, 2 months and 12 days has made it impossible for me to let go easily. She said: "Xiaoxiao will slowly reduce the influence of the teacher on you." But I just want to say that I love you and maybe I will always love you. (Statement: I have not behaved excessively towards her. I understand it very well. I understand the teaching staff. I just can't let it go. I am not SJB. Now that I have graduated, she is no longer on my campus. But I usually "run into" her when I go back to my alma mater. Now neither she nor I have taken the initiative to mention the confession. Maybe this is the best ending for me and her, but I think I will always like her. I also wish all the little treasures who read this comment a happy day every day. All the best [touch your head] [touch your head] [touch your head])
The original words are "The part of me that was changed by you will stand with me forever instead of you; and the part of me that was known to you was taken away by you the moment you left." The second half of the sentence was not quoted.
I caught a bug when the article I posted was under review. Thank you all, Baoer, for your collection and comments~ I'll try to update it!
It's beautiful. The author's writing style is delicate and humorous. I really like reading first-person articles. I hope to see the author's new works again.
Feelings will be misplaced and time will pass. The memories left to you will continue to dissolve, solidify, and change into different shapes with your experiences, filling you, tearing you apart, completing you, emptying you, and finally letting go. Just like deep love is often unappreciated, but there are always people who are deeply affectionate; although long-term love is hard to find, there are always people who have long-lasting affection. The author gives Shen Jin and Jing Feng a bright future, and I believe you will also have a tomorrow worth looking forward to.
Never say forever, in every moment. It is rare for many things or people to be perfect. The only thing we can control is our own heart. Letting nature take its course may be a euphemism for powerlessness, but it is also inevitable in life. I envy the sincerity of young people, and I tend to be gentle and tolerant of my sister. Who doesn't love a gentle and rational sister? I hope that lovers will eventually get married, and regrets can be exchanged for another kind of perfection.
Did the author also choose the path of being a teacher? Is there any factor of being a teacher? I'm looking forward to the new pitfalls I'll experience personally, and I really want to know the story between you and the teacher 🤩
Hug Da Da, I really like this article written by Da Da. The teacher will definitely be safe in heaven. I miss Da Da Da. Da Da Da must live a good life and be happy every day.
The ancient Egyptians' view of life and death is that being remembered can lead to eternal life.
Hug the author, the teacher will miss you in heaven