If the more people who want you to live well in this world, the greater the meaning of your existence, then maybe there is no meaning of existence for a person like me. But even if you use this statement as a reason to let me die like this, I can't do it. Ancient books say: It is human nature to like life and hate death. In the words of ordinary people, it is better to live than die. Living, I may not be able to find the meaning of existence throughout my life; dying, I won't even find a chance. So, I lived like this in an uneasy way for twenty years.
Intention: love, hatred and hatred for family and country