What I Look Forward To

[Bright and Spirited Heroine X Cool and Quietly Sly Hero]

[Age Gap, Size Difference, Childhood Friends]

How does it feel to see again the person you once confessed your love to in a letter?

Qu Qingning doesn't know how other people feel, but she just wants to find a hole to crawl into.

As a child, she was naive and clung to Bian Li, the boy next door who was three years older, following him around almost every day and calling him "Brother Bian" all the time.

After graduating from high school, encouraged by a friend, she wrote him a love letter and mailed it straight to the university he attended.

But Bian Li only saw her as a younger sister, and politely turned down her confession.

Qu Qingning's girlish heart died, and she never bothered him again.

-

At twenty-three, Qu Qingning quit her job and traveled to a city she had long wanted to visit. To her surprise, she ran into Bian Li there.

He wore black half-rim glasses, and looked cool and elegant. His black turtleneck and crisp gray trousers made him look refined and chaste.

Remembering what had happened before, Qu Qingning avoided him at every turn.

Bian Li invited her over for dinner, but she tactfully declined.

Bian Li offered to go shopping with her, but she turned him down again and again.

Even when they sat together on the living room sofa, Qu Qingning made sure not to sit near him.

Little by little, Bian Li noticed how distant she was being.

Later, Qu Qingning unexpectedly ended up staying at Bian Li's house, where they saw each other every day.

One night, Qu Qingning was building a snowman in the courtyard when Bian Li happened to come downstairs.

She instinctively tried to run, but he blocked her way.

Bian Li was still as warm and refined as ever, and asked in his cool, clear voice, "Why do you always try to avoid me whenever you see me? Am I really that scary?"

"N-no."

After a moment's thought, Qu Qingning took a deep breath and finally summoned the courage to say, "Actually, I did those things when I was young and foolish. You're so magnanimous and forgiving, Brother Bian. You wouldn't hold them against me, right?"

Bian Li nodded. "What things? I don't remember."

Qu Qingning instantly relaxed.

Right, it had all happened ages ago. They were both adults now, so of course he wouldn't hold it against her.

But as she turned away, Bian Li grabbed her wrist and asked casually, "Do you mean when you were five and asked me to carry you to buy candy, or when you were thirteen and came running to my house in tears because you'd done badly on an exam and were too afraid to go home, so you had to sleep at my place to feel safe?"

Bian Li looked at her, his gaze smoldering. "Or do you mean the love letter you wrote me when you were eighteen?"

-

Not long afterward, Bian Li's friend came to visit and unexpectedly learned he had a girlfriend.

After asking around, he discovered the girlfriend was Qu Qingning.

The friend hurriedly pulled Bian Li aside and asked in disbelief, "Didn't you say you only saw her as a little sister?"

Qu Qingning happened to come over and overheard him.

Bian Li gave his friend a cool look and replied calmly, "What little sister? She's always been the person I like."

PS:

1. Both leads are virgins and each other's first love.

2. They are three years apart. The heroine has a one-sided crush at first, then they fall for each other.

3. No intimate scenes while either lead is underage.

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Blurb:

[Quiet, Sweet, Gentle Girl X Arrogant, Cold-Hearted Rich Boy]

[Age Gap, Size Difference, Heroine Pursues Hero]

During the summer after the college entrance exam, Yu You stayed home and met a friend while gaming.

The other person's voice was deep and magnetic, with a lazy, aloof edge and a sense of barely being alive. As someone who loved voices, Yu You fell for him instantly.

As they talked more, she learned that the guy was a graduate student at the university she had been admitted to.

So a few days before the start of the semester, she suggested they meet in person.

On the day they met, Yu You arrived at their agreed meeting place and immediately saw someone standing outside a bar.

He was over 180 centimeters tall, his black shirt and trousers emphasizing his broad shoulders and narrow waist.

When she looked at his face, she saw sharp features and the handsome look of a refined young gentleman. But he was cold all over, and so handsome it was intimidating.

Once the guy realized she was his online friend, the chill in his eyes deepened.

"You're a girl?"

-

After his father tried to arrange a marriage for him for the third time, Ying Xu finally fell out with his family.

His bank cards were frozen, he was barred from entering the villa, and his family confiscated his private yacht and the sports cars registered in his name.

Left alone in the only luxury apartment he still had, Ying Xu irritably played a few rounds of a game.

To his surprise, his teammate was skilled and worked perfectly with him.

After the game, the other person messaged him: Can we add each other as friends? We can play together when we have time.

Almost on impulse, Ying Xu accepted.

They stayed in sync until they met in person and he saw a girl with a high ponytail, wearing a little white dress and canvas shoes.

Ying Xu's first thought was: Not a guy?

His second thought was: Is she even an adult?

-

After the meeting, Ying Xu got home and messaged the other person, telling her they should delete each other.

A few seconds later, Yu You replied: [Can we not?]

Ying Xu brushed her off in a few words: [No.]

Yu You: [But you never asked my gender. I always thought you knew I was a girl.]

Yu You: [You also promised to help me find a place to live, and now I have nowhere to stay. You're such a liar!]

The way she texted bore no resemblance to the quiet, introverted girl Ying Xu had met two hours earlier.

Ying Xu: "?"

-

Everyone in their circle knew the second son of the Ying family was not to be messed with. He was cold, aloof, and inconsiderate.

Not long afterward, a friend heard that he had fallen out with his father and rushed over to comfort him, while also planning to tease him.

But when he rang the doorbell, the person who answered was a cute, obedient-looking girl with innocent, sparkling eyes.

As his friend stood frozen, Ying Xu walked over from the living room, clicked his tongue, and spoke gently to the girl:

"I told you not to open the door in a hurry. Put on a jacket first. Did you forget how awful you felt when you caught a cold a few days ago?"

PS:

1. Five-year age gap: the heroine is eighteen, the hero is twenty-three.

2. Both leads are virgins and each other's first love.

3. The heroine pursues the hero at first.

4. The heroine has mild social anxiety, which improves later.

Theme: The passionate love of youth.