A Genuine Fake

"Qinya, I don't know what kind of hurt you've suffered in love. I can't promise I won't marry again in the future, because it's my duty, and I have no way to shirk it. But here..." Yinzhen took my hand and placed it over his heart. "It's small. There's only room for one person. You've already made your home here, and there's no room for anyone else." "Yinzhen, I..." Tears spilled down my cheeks despite my best efforts. "I'm scared. I'm afraid that once we're together, I won't be able to face your wives and concubines with composure. I don't want you to shut me away in some tiny courtyard, where I spend every day waiting for your affection. I don't want to resort to any means to win your favor, or do something unforgivable out of jealousy..." "Qinya, leave everything to me. I'll be here. Trust me." "Yinzhen, promise me that if one day you stop loving me, you'll tell me and let me go. I don't want you to see my jealous side, and I don't want to spend my days waiting from dusk till dawn, hoping you'll come. Will you promise me?" "I promise. That day will never come." Yinzhen held me tightly... First, it would be best never to meet, then we could never fall in love. Second, it would be best never to know each other, then we could never pine for each other. Third, it would be best never to keep each other company, then we could never owe each other anything. Fourth, it would be best never to cherish each other, then we could never look back with longing. Fifth, it would be best never to love each other, then we could never abandon each other. Sixth, it would be best never to face each other, then we could never meet again. Seventh, it would be best never to misunderstand each other, then we could never let each other down. Eighth, it would be best never to make promises, then we could never be bound to continue. Ninth, it would be best never to depend on each other, then we could never hold each other close. Tenth, it would be best never to encounter each other, then we could never come together. But once we've met, we know each other. How can meeting compare to never having met? How I wish I could part from you forever, so we needn't pine for each other in life or death.