Everyone Says I'm a Very Boring Person

I almost cried through the entire book... I think every patient with depression can relate to the author's words. The pain of emptiness and no end in sight has been eating away at people's hearts. It's hard to say which choice is good and correct. I just hope that the author can always be happy and stay away from pain.

I was all set, but I didn't finish it and skipped straight from chapter 31 to the end. It's not that the author didn't write well, it's just that I was scared. My symptoms were not as severe as the heroine's. Later, because of the support of my family, I got through that period of time, but the crazy thoughts of relief still left a mark on me. I seem to have come out of it, so I don't know how to define it. Is it negative or depressed? But after reading this article, I can completely understand and even resonate with the pain of the heroine in some places, but I am afraid to continue reading, because I am in this hollow and unstable state now, like walking on a tightrope. I am not sure whether I can read this article in my state. Because I am actually very sunny in my daily life, and I think so myself. Although sometimes I still feel a sense of world-weariness when I am alone, it is much better now than before. I will consciously guide myself in the direction of positive energy and sunshine, and try to keep myself in a comfortable state. But this article brought out the mark in my heart, I noticed it, and I don't want to go back to that state. So I didn't watch most of the movie, because I'm not as capable or charming as the heroine, and I don't have as many people around her. I only have family around me, and now I'm far away from them due to life reasons. My anchor point is too far away from me, so I will read this article again when my mental state is stable and strong.

In fact, I have read this book a long time ago. At that time, I was still very young. I was swept away by the wind and waves of life, teased by fate, and fell into a very miserable somersault. I thought that this would be the case for my whole life. Despair, unwillingness, pain and escape entangled me. Like Charlie, I longed for eternal peace. I still remember that when I read this book, I actually couldn't understand or accept the ending. I naively think that if the heroine wants to die, then she should be allowed to die when she wants to die, instead of forcefully keeping her. After all, living is not a happy thing for a painful person. Recently, I accidentally came across this article's tweet on Xiaohongshu, and on a whim, I wanted to review it again. Reading a book a second time will not have a different ending. But it does feel different. In my eyes, Charlie is more like a patient, a patient trapped in an emotional swamp. The education she received since childhood trapped her in the cage of a duchess. She has suffered too much suppression. Her actions, her dedication, and her efforts are all taken for granted. After wearing the mask for so long, she has already lost herself. In this situation, it is natural to desire destruction or death. When you are desperate, there is still a dead end. As a literary work, ending with the death of the heroine is actually the most dramatic, or in my opinion, the most ideal ending. But I know better than anyone else how precious life is. This is why I always feel that this novel is a bit unfinished, but I am still willing to order it all because I think she should not die like this. She deserves a better life. No one is qualified to define her death. She should live brightly and freely But that's it, I still don't think Kailan is good enough for her.

This is a very magical novel... I can't comment on its quality, but the author's writing angle and writing style are new things that I haven't read in a long time. I am willing to leave a full praise

I like this setting of still struggling on the edge of life and death. How can it be so easy to completely stop wanting to die? As long as you have had the experience of death, for a long period of time in your life, this proposal will become a kind of bottom-line option and be considered at certain ups and downs.

I think the shaping of the heroine is the best part, especially the early self-abandonment of the heroine is so well written, it just feels so good. Although the ending was not very satisfactory, thinking that the heroine at least got a certain degree of happiness and peace, she accepted it. There are several things I don't like. First, the plot is too cliche, and the part about the people in the Eastland dreaming is even more cliched; second, although the early relationship with the male protagonist is reasonable and suitable for the character, it is quite unpleasant; third, Allen's plot arrangement actually makes her and the Duke of the North fight together. This is the most disgusting part of the book for me. The author would not have arranged it like this in order to resolve the conflict. This plot is so bad that there is nothing to say. But overall it's still a good book.

I think Allen and that Duke really shouldn't be together. It was not easy for Allen to inherit the Duke. In order to get her, the Duke chose to expose her biggest secret, which made all her efforts in vain. Although Allen was prepared, the loss was not big. But I feel bad for Allen if he spends his whole life pretending to be a man. The dream part is a bit embarrassing, but I am very satisfied with the heroine's unforgiving attitude towards the guilty servant territory residents. Those people look very guilty and heartbroken. In fact, I still think that a good person like the Duchess will forgive them when she sees them feeling so guilty. After all, she has been silently giving, and she is still kidnapping me. I am speechless. I can only say that not all apology will be forgiven.

I couldn't help but cry while reading these two chapters... It felt like the last trace of warmth in the hands of the little match girl before the matches burned out, a dream...

A warm fairy tale ending. Charista is a woman who is like a miracle. How many people among the people who have been hurt are like her, one in a thousand or one in ten thousand? Ask yourself, I can't do it, that kind of happiness is something I can't avoid. The pain in the body is short-lived, but the pain in the heart is long-lasting. Knowing yourself, accepting yourself, and then praising yourself is a life-long task for many people. At the same time, we cannot deny that seeking recognition and understanding from the outside world is also a life-long task for many people, which can be understood as seeking a close friend. If you feel tired, listen to your true voice and explore where the hole in your heart comes from. I can guarantee that this process is not easy at all, but that is the real you that cannot be escaped even if it hurts. But you must not examine yourself too much, otherwise the pain will be even worse.

Life is so fragile, and there are always a hundred ways to kill yourself, but the most grateful thing is that you persisted all the way, so that you can see tomorrow. After reading it, I feel that the teacher has written it really well. Many of the heroine's self-narrations and even the chapter titles of the whole text make people cry. When I think about the difficulties in my life, I said that I want to die but still grit my teeth and persevere until now. I want to say thank you to myself for the hard work.