I've Liked You for a Long Time

I'm starting a new identity now: a lovestruck high school girl.

I'm changing my upcoming book to My Deaf Boyfriend Is Actually Up to No Good.

I'll write that one first when the time comes!

Blurb for this story:

In their second year of high school, Chi Ye transferred from Dongcheng No. 1 High School to Nancheng No. 7 High School for Bian Yi. His father asked him, "Is it worth it?"

Chi Ye: "It is."

He thought it was worth it. Two years should be enough to make someone forget, but Chi Ye couldn't forget the child who used to follow him around: little Bian Yi. It wasn't until middle school that he realized his feelings for Bian Yi weren't just brotherly affection. He didn't know how Bian Yi felt. Leaving only made him realize more clearly that he dreamed of Bian Yi countless times: Bian Yi as a little boy, grown-up Bian Yi, middle-school Bian Yi, that little boy who was always following Chi Ye around.

So he came back. He came back to see him, and to keep secretly loving him.

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Bian Yi had an older brother, though they weren't related by blood. His brother was wonderful in every way, except that he left him the year of the high school entrance exams. His mother wouldn't tell him where his brother had gone, and neither would his father. In their second year of high school, Chi Ye came back. Bian Yi had been holding in two years' worth of anger, and now he finally had someone to vent it on. He was proud and disobedient, and his older brother tutored him. When he got cold at night, he'd go find Chi Ye.

Then that older brother became his boyfriend.

He was also a talented boyfriend, who tutored him, though the lessons gradually turned into something else.

- Since secret love is painful, I'll be the first to fall for you.

- Big brother is wonderful in every way. He's willing to orbit around him.

Next upcoming book: Give Me a Hug

Blurb:

Xia Shiyi was the school bully at Ancheng No. 1 High School, but he had a difficult desk mate and childhood friend: a top student with excellent grades and a grudge that lasted forever.

Xia Shiyi climbed over the wall to go have fun. The other guy used a leave request as an excuse to drag him back. Xia Shiyi's hands were pinned, and he tried to pull free, but the other guy wouldn't let go.

He finally snapped. "Jiang Zhipei!"

"Xia Shiyi, if you skip class again, I'll make you think about nothing but exams, even during your vacation."

To Xia Shiyi, that was pure torture. He thought he could escape Jiang Zhipei's control in high school, but he couldn't. After five years as desk mates, Xia Shiyi knew how difficult this guy was.

He didn't believe Jiang Zhipei would stick around through college, too.

When he received a love letter, Jiang Zhipei threw it away right in front of him. "You're not allowed to date in high school."

Then one day, Xia Shiyi found Jiang Zhipei's diary in his room. He'd meant to dig up some dirt and get leverage over Jiang Zhipei, but on the first page, he saw his own name.

[Today Xia Shiyi gave me a cup of milk tea, but he didn't buy it himself.]

[Xia Shiyi is a picky eater and doesn't eat bitter things. I have to coax him into finishing it, then give him some candy so it won't taste bitter.]

[Xia Shiyi received a love letter today. I'm very unhappy.]

[Xia Shiyi gave someone else the snacks I got for him. I'm so angry.]

Suddenly, a slender hand took the diary from him. "Xia Shiyi, would you give me a hug?"

"When did you start drinking?"

"Give me a hug, and I'll forgive you."

Even if you don't like me, a hug from you will be enough to soothe me.

"When... did you start liking me?" Xia Shiyi was trapped between him and couldn't move, so he could only let Jiang Zhipei nibble at his neck and shoulder.

"A long time ago... I knew you were afraid of gay people, so I didn't mind staying your friend for the rest of my life. As long as you still talked to me, it didn't matter if you saw me as a friend or a brother."

Theme: Since secret love is painful, I'll be the first to fall for you, and then you'll fall for me.