After the Immortal Venerable Wanted Me but Couldn't Have Me

A flower bloomed in Cen Xue's heart. She was graceful and dignified, rarely smiled, and whether she sat upright at her desk copying books or glanced up at him, her gaze filled him with joy and left him unable to look away.

He tried every way he could to win her favor. Even when he was turned away time and again, he was perfectly content.

Later, chaos erupted in the Demon Realm, and he became a half-crippled wreck, disfigured and with both his spiritual root and meridians damaged.

As for why he never once thought of going to see her, there were two reasons:

First: he had a blood feud to avenge.

Second: "she" was Xiao Yu.

That's right, the Immortal Venerable Xiao Yu, the one everyone said was destined to attain immortality!

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People often said that if only one person in all the heavens and earth could ascend and attain immortality, it would have to be the Immortal Venerable Xiao Yu.

Xiao Yu had exceptional natural talent and had never encountered a bottleneck in his cultivation. Then he became consumed by an obsession, and his path to ascension was cut off.

Everyone thought Xiao Yu refused to take disciples so he could focus on cultivating. But only he knew that through the years, as day gave way to night and the seasons turned, he kept writing the same name over and over.

He wished Cen Xue were dead. Then his inner demon would fade and his obsession would dissolve, leaving him free to devote himself to cultivation without a care in the world.

But he also wished Cen Xue were alive. Otherwise, would the delusions he'd harbored for centuries have been nothing but a joke?

Snow falls across the sky, mist veils the mountain peaks.

Today marks the three hundredth year I have searched for you.

Xiao Yu

A gong whose first love was a man, and who turned from love to hatred after realizing it, x a shou whose first love was a man and who wanted to give him his first time, but couldn't bring himself to do so.

Before you read:

1. The shou has lost some of his memories.

2. The setting is entirely made up and not intended for textual research. Please keep discussion civil.

Theme: Stay focused on your goal and never waver.