Song Huai was fifteen when Duan Chaoling brought her home.
On the night after the college entrance exams, she hid in the bathroom and copied his familiar movements, shaking a cigarette out of the pack and lighting it with unsteady hands.
She suddenly remembered the way he would often stare into space with a cigarette in his hand, and finally understood.
In that moment, he had been missing someone else.
Twelve-year age gap
Happy ending / Secret crush / Reunion after years apart / False replacement
[Reader's guide]
1. The blurb is told from the heroine's perspective, but this is not, at its heart, a replacement romance.
2. The hero has no idealized first love and never treats the heroine as a replacement.
3. No intimate scenes before the heroine comes of age.
4. Weibo: @Chengxiovo
Theme: Love makes life flourish
Xi Zai!!,, Cp,,, The amount of information in every word and sentence is so explosive that I can savor it for a long time. Watching Chen Jingru and Xu Chengqian get along with each other, the setting, the story, and Xu Chengqian's hidden thoughts, it's like throwing an effervescent tablet into Coke, and the bubbles burst out instantly. I howled with excitement!! I have been looking forward to this line from the two of them, and today I saw it, and my hands trembled a little while typing. The line between Chen Jingru and Mathieu cannot be savored because it is too painful!! Their relationship went from being boyfriend and girlfriend to husband and wife not long ago, and half a year was neither short nor long. It was precisely because of this that Mathieu's death made it even more serious. TT [Xu Chengqian looked at her deeply] ① She clearly knew where the medical kit was, but she did not disinfect and bandage her wounds. She may not even realize that she was injured. (I'm a little annoyed that she doesn't cherish her body. Or maybe she feels more deeply and directly that she is in a bad state, her mood is very depressed, and her whole person is very depressed.) ② He was clearly full of thorns just now and was so irritated that he lost his temper directly at him. After a while, he calmed down and returned to his old big sister appearance, as if the loss of control just now was just an illusion. (Personally, I feel that his glance is more inclined to the latter guess.) I think Xu Chengqian probably wanted to see Chen Jingru losing her temper at him, because she wanted to let her emotions out. If she kept holding them in, something would happen. Having a temper is better than being a "walking dead". [Answer my question first] With this sentence, Xu Chengqian's stubbornness and strength were faintly revealed. And he is really good at it, he is very purposeful, and he is very determined and will not be easily swayed by other things. [It has been you who invited me to dinner for so many years. No matter how you calculate it, I know that the favor is repaid. If Xu Chengqian couldn't restrain himself when he forced the door open with workers, held her forcefully to treat the wounds, and stubbornly wanted an answer, etc., And was panicking because of worry, then by the time he said this, he had already completely calmed down and was in a good mood. You still have to step back beyond that line. Being too anxious will scare her and be counterproductive, so you have to take it slow, but you also have to show your thoughts bit by bit, let her feel it, let her discover it, and give her time to adapt. Xu Chengqian is really good!!! Either he saw Chen Jingru's politeness and saw that she was keeping a distance from him, so he followed her lead and wanted her to accept his care for her with peace of mind. In the years when she was unaware of it, there was a man who transformed from a boy to a teenager and finally grew into an adult man. The seasons rotated, year after year, but the one thing that remained unchanged was the heart that loved her. He has looked at her thousands of times, and his heart and eyes are filled with hers. (Affectionate boy~TT) [You are still young and I don't even have time to take care of you. How can I put an unnecessary burden on you. If possible, time can pass faster. When I read it for the second time, I subconsciously compared these two sentences. It was very touching and interesting. It feels like Xu Cheng's hidden meaning is: I can take care of you now. If you want, I can be your backing, your support, and even... Your husband. In fact, I think Xu Chengqian is very annoyed, even disgusted (?) With the word "age" because there is an eight-year age difference between them, and he is always a few steps behind her. When he found out that he fell in love with Chen Jingru, his first reaction was to hide it, because he knew very well that she had no other thoughts about him. If he expressed his feelings or showed the slightest affection, their relationship would never return to the past. When the time came to express her feelings, her eyes and heart were already occupied by the man named Mathieu. It took him more than twenty years to catch up with her slow steps, and he was even prepared to never catch up with her for the rest of his life. Let's not mention why Duan Chaoling didn't call her sister, but you can still guess why Xu Chengqian didn't call her sister. The moment they realized that they fell in love with her, they no longer had a "sibling" relationship. The "sibling" relationship was one of their obstacles. Of course, the young man's secret thoughts dare to be revealed quietly here. [Relationships between people should not be bound by these. They are not related by blood. Sister and brother are just names, nothing more. But as time went by, everyone got used to it, and subconsciously ignored the "blood relationship" aspect. It was natural for them to think that they were siblings, but in fact this was not the case. But the subconscious thoughts are actually the most torturous. This may be one of the reasons why Chen Jingru, including her elders, could not accept this relationship in her later years. Chen Jingru's mother passed away early, and her father did not have time to take care of her. In fact, Chen Jingru may be a little lacking in love and care. Her rebellion may have been a way to vent herself, express her dissatisfaction, or even to gain her father's attention, but the final result was not satisfactory and she found it boring. But after reaching this point, she found that she would not be noticed if she was obedient, nor would she be noticed if she was rebellious. But when she was rebellious, she was actually relaxed and even cheerful, so why did she still follow the rules? Since you can't get what you want no matter how you live, you might as well live as smoothly as possible and continue to indulge. Finally, her father took her mother's photo and talked to her, which made her wake up. Maybe softness is her surface, maybe it's part of her inside. Boldness and enthusiasm are also the background of her character. Xu Chengqian's family background and origin meant he was destined to lose a lot of his "own choices" and "own time." He is a child with high expectations. He must be sensible, obedient, restrained, and calm, and he must learn many things. But does he really like these? Only he knows this question. There were too many times when he "wanted but couldn't". The appearance of Chen Jingru allowed him to relax and soothe his soul. He can also eat, drink, play and make mischief like other children. Chen Jingru is like Xu Chengqian's sun. She is warm and lively, and is his contrast. Everything about her is what he yearns for but cannot reach. She is his playmate, energy bar, place to relax, and amusement park. As long as there is a place with her, Xu Chengqian will be alive and free. They get along really well!!! I feel that Xu Chengqian has seen every side of Chen Jingru and knows it well. They both know each other's truest appearance. This is their secret, and it is private to both of them. It's hard not to suspect that Xu Chengqian got into the school she went to just for her own selfish reasons. I cried to death. "She was the only one in Xu Chengqian's childhood." This sentence really killed me. [The smell of the other person's body is all too familiar] Subconsciously, Chen Jingru knew that this person was Xu Chengqian's. There are many details before this chapter that show that every time Chen Jingru looks at Xu Chengqian, it is no longer "sister looking at brother", but "woman looking at man". This change may not even be realized by herself. They grew up together, so they must be very familiar with each other. Chen Jingru needed an outlet to vent. Her previous disguise, the string she had tightened, completely collapsed under the catalysis of alcohol. She was too miserable and in pain, and she just wanted to sink into this fog. Alcohol was a good excuse. She was drunk, so she could let herself go. She was drunk, so it didn't matter if she released it. When Chen Jingru called Mathieu's name during the sexual intercourse, I felt it was more like an apology, guilt, and shame for what she was doing now. It was as if calling Mathieu's name made everything go right. It was like reminding myself, and also like reminding Xu Chengqian. But it's too late to regret it now. (Xu Chengqian's monologue) I'm just so despicable, even if you mistake me for him, it doesn't matter. Getting you has always been my desire and obsession, nothing else matters. Xu Chengqian would even think badly: Sister Jingru, if you wake up and find out that you slept with me, how will you react? (After much thought, I think the title "Sister Jingru" is appropriate here. Xu Chengqian's paranoia, crazy and strong love, and even bad taste are fully reflected in this "Sister".)
I remember one night when I couldn't sleep, so I lay in bed meditating. Then my thoughts drifted involuntarily to Lin and Xue, and to Chen Xu, and I discovered a few more points, which were very interesting. [Chen Jingru leaned on the edge of the island, looking in the direction of Xu Chengqian in trance. This was not long after Mathieu passed away. When I saw a familiar place, I thought of the past with my husband. Xu Chengqian's sense of presence is there but not strong. (But I think this is exactly what Xu Chengqian wants. He wants to squeeze Mathieu out of her life little by little so that he can replace her.) This episode of Xu Chengqian accompanying Chen Jingru in Los Angeles can be compared with the time when Chen Jingru took Xu Chengqian out to play, and there will be a strong sense of fate. The little boy who had no freedom and was always following her grew up. The small hand that was always held by her was now the strong and warm big hand holding hers. There was no confrontation as imagined, and this seemingly calm state that was actually already turbulent inside was the most appropriate for the two of them. Every time Chen Jingru calls Xu Chengqian by her first and last name, she always feels an inexplicable excitement! Who knows!! Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah t . . However, considering that your kid is not allowed to do this next time, measures must be taken. What makes the two of them very interesting is that Chen Jingru definitely knows a lot, and she also knows how to make herself happy, and has a clear understanding of her body. After all, she has been in love and been married, so she should be the kind of person who is quite good at it. In addition, Xu Chengqian is a young, energetic, versatile, and crazy dad. Younger brother, I'm not saying that this scene is really fatal, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh that I dare to think about it actually hey hey hey (dog head) I dare to think about Cheng Xi, do you dare to write it?!!! (Stimulating method) From the beginning to the end, Xu Chengqian only wanted her. He was desperate to get Chen Jingru. It didn't even matter if it wasn't equal or unfair, because that was not what he cared about at all. He is willing to be used, because he is valuable, something Chen Jingru needs and can't live without. If she is addicted to and demands for him, then his goal will be achieved. But in fact, some of Xu Chengqian's eagerness (?) Is that once he catches the opportunity, he will not let go easily, and he will fight with her to the end. Because of this opportunity, he hid his love and waited for many years. [In those few years, you had someone by your side, so I couldn't take the spotlight. ] Just tell Chen Jingru clearly that I have liked you for many years. Xu Chengqian was no longer hiding anything and hit the ball straight. But what Chen Jingru didn't know was that his pride was nothing in front of him. He is a silent tree, and she is a bird flying in the sky. Let her fly all over the place, and she will still have a place to perch when she returns. He is a companion and a waiter. Summer Chen Jingru VS Xu Chengqian "Scorching sun, heavy rain, rainbow, sunset and dusk" Before this chapter, reading their story gave me the feeling of a blazing fire in winter, which still conforms to the tone of the whole article (winter). But after reading Chapter 92, I felt that the storyline between Xia Tian and the two of them was particularly relevant. Xu Chengqian's love and person make me feel like the summer sun, scorching. After Chen Jingru's husband passed away, he entered her life and approached her in a powerful and irresistible way. (In fact, Xu Chengqian understands Chen Jingru very well, understands her sadness, understands her loneliness, and understands her pretense of being strong. So he went from San Francisco to Los Angeles, and led people to demolish her home to give her warmth, support, and comfort. It was the home door that was demolished, and the knock was It is the door to her heart. I dare not think about what her life and status would have been like if Xu Chengqian had not gone to find Chen Jingru.) He left his traces in every detail of her life, and he will also appear when she thinks of Mathieu. Xu Chengqian slowly replaced Mathieu in his own way, or in other words, made Chen Jingru forget about his husband. The dampness before the rain is very much like Chen Jingru who has closed herself off. The arrival of Xu Chengqian allowed her emotions to be vented. The time when they were obsessed with each other was like the time when they threw away their umbrellas and kissed passionately, holding hands and laughing loudly, regardless of the weather or other people's eyes. Free, free and easy, enthusiastic. After experiencing all kinds of things and finding out that he was still behind her, her heart had already been shaken, and they still loved each other. It was the joy of seeing the rainbow after the rain for the first time; it was the joy of her letting go of the past and herself, deciding to walk towards him and embracing happiness; it was also the joy of his years of delusions coming true. When you imagine the two of them strolling down the street and watching the sunset, you will really feel a slow-paced sense of happiness, and finally complete. AutumnZhou Chuning VS Zhang Muye "Maple leaves, autumn coolness, desolation" Most of the maple leaves in autumn are red, adding a touch of bright color to the season. The color red goes well with Zhou Chuning. I always think she is a very lively and passionate girl. Maple leaves represent eternity, warmth, memories and true love in terms of love. No matter which one it is, it is very suitable for this pair. Qiu Liang subconsciously thought of Zhang Muye, a man who loved her more but was very affectionate. There is always a sense of melancholy and sadness in this season, which feels very relevant to their storyline. They are really the ultimate be. It hurts so much. WinterSong Huai VS Duan Chaoling "Chilly, freezing, and heavy snow" The pair had a bad past before they met each other. The difference is that Huaihuai is going through it, and Duan Chaoling has been adjusting to his condition for many years. Some of those pains were forgotten by him, and some were sealed deep in his heart without touching, mentioning or thinking about them. Winter is a slow-paced but romantic season. The relationship between Huaihuai and Duan Chaoling develops in a steady and slow pace. The story between them is really romantic. The warm sun in winter, like Duan Chaoling, makes people feel warm. Only Huaihuai understands his delicacy and tenderness. This book is really a sweet and sour oral novel, it is hawthorn wrapped in a layer of frosting. What should be said and what I want to say has been said in the previous chapters, but I still can't help but think about it in this chapter. I really love "Rin and Snow"!!! You really have a strong desire to express yourself, and you say a lot every time. I can talk so much nonsense every day because you are more powerful. What you write gives me something to say and something to think about, so you are the most powerful one! Do you understand?! Thank you also for reading and liking what I write every time. Your affirmation of liking me is a reward and an honor for me, and it is also an emotional feedback. Follow the serials and enjoy the serials that follow you even more. This book has a long serialization period, and I know it was not easy for you to create this story. It is really special to achieve such results in the end. I am actually not in a hurry to follow your articles, maybe because I am a very Buddhist reader, and the content you provide can be read over and over again for a long time, so I really enjoy your slow pace and attention to detail. After it's over, just take a good rest. Don't be anxious. Don't be anxious. Enjoy and relax first. Wuli Xizai is the best ^3^ See you next time. See you next time.
I have really been waiting for this book for a long time, from the time when there were only a few people in advance, to the publication, to the overhaul, to the second update, and now it is finally finished. I enjoyed reading it, but I was very reluctant to leave it when it was finished. It must be published, and I want to buy a physical book to collect~
I'll finish reading all these books in succession.
I really like the sub-CP extras ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Finished with flowers hehe?? I hope they are happy in parallel time and space hehe! I really like this book??? It's the first book of Chasing the past hehehe, see you in the next one???
I haven't finished writing it yet. I may not be able to finish it tonight. I'll try to post the last chapter tomorrow morning. Don't wait.
I've finished watching 💪 Spread the flowers and spread the flowers ~ I really like 🌈
This pair is so cute, they love each other so much.
Finished spreading flowers, see you in the next chapter