[Detective Conan] Hirota Aiko Decides to Die

To all readers: Some netizens said that I am not responsible for my views six months ago. When people are young, their opinions often change. I like to incorporate my own opinions when I write and therefore cannot be held responsible for the opinions that appear in all my articles. There was a major turning point in my life, and "Aiko Hirota Decides to Die" was the work I conceived when that turning point occurred. At that time, I had no hope for the future. I felt that once a trauma occurs, it cannot be cured. I would have to live with the pain throughout my life. This pessimistic thought runs through the first part that was written at that time, and the follow-up that was conceived but not yet written (the second part, the third part, the future talk and the possible IF extra). But in the past year, due to personal experiences, I have become aware of some new possibilities. Maybe time will make people gradually forget the pain, maybe I have been struggling with the trauma, and I started to have positive thoughts about the future. Therefore, the originally planned ending, which is HE but still slightly pessimistic, may be changed, as well as the plot leading to the ending. For me, writing is a means to satisfy current desires and convey current opinions. The two purposes are neither high nor low, but if I pay more attention to the latter when writing a certain article, that article can also become a preservation of my opinions at that time, like a slice through time and space, which will continue to remind me a few years later what kind of thoughts I had. The first part of this novel incorporated many of my views and experiences at the time. When I was writing, I had serious psychological problems, but I didn't realize it. Readers pointed out that I was depressed. Half a year later, I was diagnosed with depression and have been fighting it to this day. When I read the comments, I was very surprised. I have always emphasized that this novel was written to comfort and encourage myself when I was in pain, and I also hope to comfort and encourage other people who have similar experiences. But I recently discovered that rather than thinking, inputting, and outputting in the virtual world, perhaps practicing in the real world is more important. Someone told me that if I keep moving forward, the answers will be found along the way. It just so happens that my current life has entered a new stage, which is very suitable for my beloved son. I hope that through my own exploration, I can feel new ideas and pass them into the novel, so that my beloved son can grow up at the same time, instead of being limited to my old views and experiences and misleading other people I want to comfort and encourage. Of course, I am not ashamed to admit that in the past six months, various reasons such as being out of touch, climbing the wall, being stuck, and being alive are also reasons for not updating. I will no longer easily make promises that I cannot fulfill, such as when to update this novel again, because I don't know and I don't want to break my promise again, but I will try hard to finish this novel, just like Aiko will try to survive and treat every day as a battle. This novel means a lot to me, unlike any other. I'd love to receive comments and stay in touch with readers. During the year and a half that I continued to update, I gained a lot of friendship and help, and I am very grateful. Although I am not a person who frequently communicates with friends, nor do I like chatting online, I will always remember my friends. Some readers leave me comments or send me private messages, telling me that they are inspired by my novels or sharing their current life with me, and I am very happy. Finally, I would like to encourage you all and hope that you and I can successfully overcome difficulties when we encounter them in this life.

Oh my god, Shuichi Akai, thirty-six years old. It's really hard to imagine these two words appearing together. And it's hard to imagine him getting fat and starting to get off work on time from 9 to 5. He has broken away from the eternal youthfulness of shounen comics, always like a vigorous beast, as if he can leave everything behind at any time and at any time. He became a mortal man who fell to the ground. But Judy still retains that feeling, a sharp blade heading straight to the ends of the earth firmly and desolately. This charm was not a happy one for its owner. So from another perspective, taking care of Aiko's life not only heals Aiko, but also makes Akai feel happy. Judy is still chasing Belmode. But what I always find very cruel is that Belmode may not remember her. There are countless happinesses shattered by absinthe, so why do I remember this one in particular... Catching Belmod is not the end of it all. Akai finally accepted that his father died and his whereabouts were unknown, and Judy had the same life issue.

The second time I read it, I still remember that the last time I read it was a year ago. I was not surprised when I saw that the author was diagnosed with depression and hoped for a speedy recovery. Being able to write such sad and angry words made me realize that the author's mental state is similar to mine. I was filled with emotions after reading this article. I have been prone to depression since sixth grade, but my family The family will not accept a psychopath, which makes me painful and angry. OC creations are always full of jealousy and sadness. Seeing Aiko is like seeing myself. The figure locked in the solitary room in the orphanage overlaps with the pain in my heart. Aiko begs Mrs. Kawamura to let her out. Who can I beg to let me go in my fantasy? Always fantasizing about bloody, violent and terrifying images, torturing myself and gnawing away at the deep pain

What touched my heart the most in this chapter was Judy, "She turned around, pushed the door open and went in without looking back." She burst into tears. When I listened to "Dehors" later, I felt that she was very similar to Judy. "Témoindetavision, auditeurdetaprison (I witness your vision and listen to your shackles)" They were once comrades-in-arms and lovers, fighting side by side closely, sharing a vision: to eliminate the organization; they also knew the constraints, dilemmas and challenges in each other's process; "Escape from the struggle in your heart" I really like what my wife said: "She stood in the fire scene. She was only eight years old. She picked up the glasses dropped by her father and never took them off." The organization and Bermod had a great influence on Judy. Bermod carved heavy blood marks on little Judy's body, so he picked up the glasses dropped by his father, took up the responsibility of avenging his family, and endured hardships; after growing up, Judy was like a hangover. The Sword of Damocles on Belmod's head always stabbed her in her midnight dreams, reminding her of her sins. It also reminded her of the episode in the anime where Judy found out that the new doctor was Belmod, and appeared in front of Belmod to reveal her identity. If Xiaolan is Belmod's angel, then Judy is the goddess of revenge Erinyes, who is afraid of her. "Tumanquespasdecourage (You are not lacking in courage) Alorsviensjouerdehors (So take that step outside) Alorsviensjouerdehors (So take that step outside)" Judy said that she is now like Akai in the past. Yes, you are now brave and fearless, independent and resolute. You are already an extremely sharp sword, with the tip facing forward. "Goodbye" "Goodbye" I have witnessed your vision and listened to your shackles. We are close and like-minded. Even though we are no longer walking together, you do not lack courage now, so keep going, Judy.

In the winter of 2024, I opened this book for the first time and finished reading it with tears and relief at the same time. From now on, all the blessings from Conan's parallel world are that they have a happy ending. Aiko hopes that they will have a good ending, and so will I. I hope that everyone, whether they are us in real life in the second dimension, I hope that we will have a good ending. Even if I haven't lived a happy life yet, I will be happy soon, eventually. It's been so long, my dear, how are you doing? I'm not feeling well. I really want to go to California and bask in the sun.

The introduction to this article looked a bit negative, and I thought it was a dodder-type heroine, so I never read it. After I was short of food, I accidentally clicked in and watched Seven Seven Eight Eight. To be honest, the jealousy I felt before about my talent and me being mediocre was so real that it was depressing. Fast forward to when Aiko was given free money at the police station. It was actually very real. Maybe I skipped it because it was too real. I will review the parts that I couldn't bear to watch later. Thank you for telling the story of your beloved son. After reading this story, I feel a little melancholy and a little cheered up. Aiko is a flesh-and-blood little sister, ordinary yet extraordinary. She has her own athletic talent and personality. Although she was jealous of her sisters, hated going to school, and had her own little secrets, when her sister was about to die, she would desperately seek help and did not abandon Shiho. In the most extreme moment, when she wanted to give up her life, she still persisted in making Fukuman confess. Although it was in vain, it was also the care that her two sisters, Akai, and Bobon had given her over the years to correct her three views. The two sisters care about each other because of their biological relationship and make Aiko jealous, but they will use Aiko's surname and first name when naming them. This kind of secret emotion is like tiny dew that gently wets the little flower of Aiko. If you are used to reading cool novels, you will hate the protagonist who accomplishes nothing, just like you hate yourself. But when I say this name, Aiko, I feel warm in my heart. Protecting this little flower that stumbles and blooms in the darkness is like caring for you and me who have grown up and stumbled along the way. Thank you Akai for never giving up on your son and accompanying him all the way forward. The above is my reflection at this moment. Thank you again for telling the story of the three Aiko sisters. I hope that everyone who has read this article will work hard to survive like Aiko in real life and never give up on themselves. Even if the buds haven't bloomed yet, they will one day bloom their own little flower. [Hug]

Finished reading it in one sitting. So delicate! So delicate! She truly deserves to be a female author! Teacher, you are one of the best fan authors I have seen in the past few years! ! ! The teacher's writing about group trauma, personal emotions, and the entanglement of personal destiny in the larger context is so good! ! ! That kind of long confession is just right and doesn't give people the feeling of being piled on. Instead, it conveys very surging emotions! ! ! Articles will more or less output values. What is difficult is to truly convey them to readers. The thoughts on themes such as teacher feminism, depression, high pressure, and growth really touched me... Aiko is a relatively ordinary little girl. She does not have the endurance of a shounen comic protagonist. When faced with too much pressure and fear, she will break like glass, which is very sad. It's so rare to find this kind of protagonist, this kind of protagonist who hit me hard in the heart, "a boy with a heart as slender as glass." I feel that the teacher really loves her. Those pains cannot be written without the corresponding experience and hard work. I also sympathized with these chapters of the second part. When I was sixteen or seventeen years old, I didn't want to grow up and was afraid of growing up. Even now that I am twenty years old, I am still afraid! Every female character written by the teacher poked me... Akemi's struggle, the secret jealousy and love entanglement between the two sisters, as well as Ueno Shiori and Judy, are all very, very, very good. Organizations oppress everyone, and women in organizations are oppressed by men. Unequal life oppresses everyone, and women are oppressed by men. Double oppression is a lifelong dilemma for all of us women. It's really touching. I have also given a speech on women's rights. My feeling is that it is very tiring to export values. It is difficult to persuade others to influence others. People with different positions of men and women can never truly understand each other. This has caused me to become a listener and observer relatively speaking, and it has also made me admire and appreciate women like Ueno, Judy and Shiho even more. Also, when the base was blocked and distributed beer, women's hygiene products were forgotten. It was exactly the same as the actual rescue in a disaster area, and I completely felt the teacher's thinking about the plight of women. The description of Zero's loneliness is also great. Loneliness as pure as ice and blood, a specific scar in the dark age. His guilt towards his beloved son is actually more mixed with self-pity. Nothing is gone, the deepest bond with the police academy team members is gone, leaving only loneliness. People can never understand each other, but they can try to get closer to each other and warm each other. Shiho and Aiko are common survivors and are on the same team, but there is actually some distance and some hatred. But it's great that we are all still together. We have such a deep bond and can work hard to understand each other and hug each other tightly. It's great. Just because I have never even had this kind of relationship that is so close that I can hug tightly, I will always cry for this bond. It is so rare, so shocking, and so beautiful. The teacher also portrayed the relationship between Akai and Aiko well. And that kind of gentleness and occasional toughness really pokes at me... "Pick the cup up" Who knows, when I saw this, I covered my heart and the daddy issue exploded! ! ! There is also the scene where Akai is about to drink the poison. The collision is so beautiful and the tragedy is so beautiful. I love that section, and I love you, teacher. And teacher, do you know that you kicked me, a full-time cook, into the Akai team? I will consume passionately, and maybe produce food passionately. My son is eighteen years old. I'm looking forward to the story behind it. I'm really looking forward to it. I can't wait. I hope the teacher's third time will go well. Come and produce food soon. Come on.

I finished it in one night. I am really looking forward to the emotional scenes between the heroine and Shuichi. Hehehe.

I love it very much, the ending of the first part was already very good. My wife also has other interesting articles on ao3!

When watching Aiko, I cried once at the beginning, during the middle, and again at the end. My wife wrote it so well. My beloved son's struggle, pain, and confusion made my heart ache. Aiko didn't want to stay in the world. She had too few things and had too many things taken away from her. Her parents left before she learned how to love herself and the world, and the sister who raised her up was gone. The world was really unfair to her. In the new volume, Akayi is 36 years old, which really shocked me. In my impression, he is still the high-spirited FBI ace who even said a flirtatious word when he was drunk. Now he has become the kind of middle-aged man with a family whose temperament has become rounded. Every day Thinking of getting off work early and encountering difficult colleagues, it would be easy to be scolded anyway, and it would be acceptable to just do the housework casually. It is quite happy. I guess Akai never thought that he would live such an ordinary and happy life in his thirties when he was in his twenties.