Monologue

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Su Mo had a secret crush on Fu Shizhao, from that summer at sixteen, with cicadas singing beneath the blazing sun, to the end of their two-year marriage, as dull and lifeless as water.

She calmly asked for a divorce. Fu Shizhao's features were refined and cool as he replied with just one sentence: "Suit yourself."

Before they could divorce, Su Mo received news that Fu Shizhao had lost his memory in a car accident.

The Fu Shizhao who had always been cold and taciturn with her now asked in a gentleness she'd never heard from him before, "I'm sorry, miss, but do we know each other?"

He'd forgotten everyone, but her.

Su Mo told him spitefully, "I'm your wife, but there's no love between us. You're deeply in love with me, while I couldn't care less about you."

Unexpectedly, Fu Shizhao paused, then smiled faintly. "Is that so? No wonder I fell for you the moment I saw you."

Su Mo pressed her lips together. After a moment, she looked up and said, "Doctor, check his head again."

*

Because of his amnesia, their agreed divorce was postponed for three months.

Before he lost his memory, they might go half a year without seeing each other. Afterward, Fu Shizhao was considerate and gentle in every way.

Su Mo didn't take it to heart. She only asked, "Have you remembered yet? Once you do, we'll get divorced."

"Almost."

Fu Shizhao handed her some nutritious porridge he'd made himself. "The doctor said kissing helps restore memories."

Su Mo: "..."

*

When the three months were up, Fu Shizhao held her before bed, touching his forehead to hers as he asked softly, "Can we not get divorced?"

Su Mo said nothing and pretended to be asleep, breathing evenly.

Before dawn, Su Mo had vanished, leaving only the divorce papers she'd signed.

Their friends watched the usually composed Fu Shizhao fall apart. He called her blocked number over and over, then, drunk and out of control, begged her to come back.

#Loving you is an instinctive reaction#

[Reading Guide]

* Mutual secret crushes, brought together by a twist of fate

* Both are each other's first love, and both have only ever been with one person

Next novel: Heart-Pounding Marriage

At university, Shen Yan was aloof and taciturn, never showing anyone the slightest warmth. Countless girls liked him, but he never seemed to give any of them a second glance.

Qu Zhao pursued Shen Yan, making such a spectacle of it that everyone knew.

He rejected her without exception: "We're not right for each other."

Qu Zhao only got bolder with every setback. "Come on, an ice prince and a sweet girl are the perfect match!"

Later, tired of being pursued, Shen Yan said, "I don't like you now, and I never will."

Qu Zhao gave up. When her friends asked, she just said she'd lost interest and liked the handsome guy next door who played bass.

*

After her family fell on hard times, Qu Zhao never expected to see Shen Yan again. He offered to pay her to marry him in a marriage of convenience. They each got what they wanted, and they readily agreed.

After the wedding, Qu Zhao played the part of the perfect Mrs. Shen, treating Shen Yan like her boss, working diligently and taking her pay without complaint.

It didn't take long for her to realize that earning that money was getting harder and harder.

Shen Yan bought back the bag she'd sold, the one he'd given her, and demanded to know if all she cared about was money. He made her pay for his meals and movie tickets, then accused her of being stingy. Even when he was sick and delirious, he called her a heartless little money-grubber.

Clutching her wallet, Qu Zhao asked worriedly, "Are you trying to divorce me?"

Shen Yan pressed his lips together, unusually nervous. "Do you want a divorce?"

Qu Zhao shook her head instead. "Not really. I haven't earned enough yet."

Shen Yan was the one who breathed a sigh of relief.

Later, once she'd earned enough, Qu Zhao prepared to quit.

Shen Yan spent the whole night standing in the wind. The next day, he asked hoarsely, "The agreement is void. Can we stay married?"

Qu Zhao eyed him warily. "What, are you trying to BP me?!"

Shen Yan: "..."

"Idiot."

Theme: Love yourself before you can love others.