You think you've interfered with history and ruined the path a god was meant to take as he grew up. Your mind is in turmoil, so you want to run away from him.
A Li is the child you raised with your own hands, someone like a younger brother to you.
He is far too close to you. Ever since he was a young dragon, your loneliness kept you from refusing his affection. After he took human form, you still didn't push him away, because children need attentive care. You were far too careless with the child who was by your side day and night. Even as a teenager, he still habitually and matter-of-factly hugged you from behind, drawing warmth from you with an intimacy and ambiguity more suited to lovers.
And an unnamed feeling in your heart was also taking root and beginning to grow.
This feeling disgusts you.
It is an instinctive rejection and resistance to “incest.”
You can't stop yourself from screaming inside.
“You're insane,” you thought more than once. “You actually want to make a move on the child you raised.”
Theme: Depicting complicated, tangled, and contradictory emotions
