She's the Henchwoman to a Harem of Villainesses

In Autumn 2, he never stayed in bed until the end [Dog Head], the unluckiest person in the book

Um, it's actually finished. I finished it while I was writing my final paper around the end of the term. But I felt that the main and emotional lines were a bit rushed. Maybe it was because there were too many male guests. Although each one was delicious, I felt that each of them had a bad taste, especially the senior brother's and the mermaid's. It was a pity, and Qiu Er was too clown. Hahaha, I have eaten this guy. I am still friends with friends. I really want to watch Shura Field and I want to see each male guest's separate episode [crying] It's so good.

The contradictory feeling of "both low self-esteem and extremely conceited", "both gloomy and tough", "both taking advantage of everyone and longing to be accepted unconditionally", is exactly the charm of this character. We can analyze why she became "this kind of person" rather than "that kind of person" from three dimensions: 1. Why won't she become the kind of person who has "completely inferior self-esteem"? If a child is abused or neglected since childhood, there are two most common outcomes: 1. Complete acceptance of fate: I feel that I am inherently inferior and unworthy of being loved, and will always huddle in a corner. 2. Reverse compensation: "You look down on me, but I want to prove it to you." Mei Man chose the latter. There is a key "bifurcation point" behind this: she once "saved the son of an immortal cultivator" - this act itself gave her the first taste of "I can change my destiny through my own actions." At that moment, she had the experience of "I am no longer a pure victim." Although she later went to work as a slave, it was not a "charity" but "a ticket she bought in exchange for saving her life." This established an extremely important understanding in her heart: "I don't live by the pity of others, I live by my own exchange." From this point on, she embarked on a completely different path from a "completely inferior person": her inferiority complex was transformed into "fuel" instead of "shackles". 2. What is her personality type? She is very close to a mix of Narcissistic Personality Disorder and Avoidant Attachment, but with one key difference: she has realistic goals and agency. To use a more popular psychological concept, she is a "high-functioning, high-defense, high-control survivor personality." 1. External manifestation: the "sense of omnipotence" of narcissistic personality · She believes she can achieve anything with her will (and it turns out she can). · She lacks real empathy for the weak (for example, her "compassion" for Yu Guiya is essentially looking down on her). · She needs to constantly confirm her worth through external achievements. · She is extremely afraid of "mediocrity" and "being ignored." 2. Inner core: avoidant attachment's "not needing anyone" · She does not allow herself to depend on anyone. · When someone shows "pure kindness" to her (such as the grilled fish girl), her reaction is "stiff". · She transforms all relationships into "controlled transactional relationships" to avoid the fear of abandonment. · "Loneliness" is redefined by her as "freedom". 3. Difference from a pure narcissist: She has real achievements, not just fantasies Unlike typical narcissists who live in their own fantasies, Meiman has actually climbed into that position. So she is not an "arrogant person", she is "a person who uses her strength to support her ambitions." This makes her stronger and more self-consistent than ordinary narcissistic personalities, but also more difficult to be "hit in the weak spot." 3. Why can these two contradictory parts exist at the same time? Because she has a very solid "middle layer" that integrates them: she has an extremely clear set of survival philosophy of her own. The core of this philosophy is: "The world is a trading market, feelings are luxury goods, and I can't afford them at the moment." · She is responsible for reminding the person with low self-esteem: "Where you come from and how humble you have been" - this makes her always vigilant and will not be as lax and arrogant as those born immortal cultivators. · The egotistical part of her takes charge and tells her: "You've come this far, you're better than them all" – which gives her the motivation to keep climbing. The two formed a "perpetual motion machine" within her: "I'm not good enough" (low self-esteem) → "So I have to work hard to prove myself" (action) → "I did it" (conceit) → "But I still feel like I'm not good enough" (back to low self-esteem) This cycle will not stop, because her goal is always moving forward - when she becomes the pinnacle of mortals, she wants to be an immortal cultivator; when she becomes an immortal cultivator, she wants a higher level. She is always creating new "not good enough" to maintain her motivation. 4. The essential difference between her and Yu Guiya: mobility Yu Guiya had a similar background to her (being dependent on others and looked down upon), but Yu Guiya's attribution method was: "I am a victim, so I need to be saved." Meiman's attribution method is: "I am a victim, so I want to be the person who will never be victimized again." The same starting point, one seeks inwardly (praying to be loved), the other conquers outwardly (becomes stronger on one's own). This is why Yu Guiya needs to hold on to her when she has a mental breakdown, and when she faces the same loneliness, she chooses to package it as "I don't need it." 5. What is the price of this "contradictory personality"? She could never truly rest. You can imagine a picture: she is standing at a very high place, there is no one around, and the wind is strong. Her face was calm, even with a smile. But she kept thinking in her mind: "Where to go next? If I don't keep walking, will I fall?" Her life is a long, unaccompanied marathon. She didn't allow herself to stop, because stopping would mean crying in front of the "unloved child". And the reason why she was able to run for so long was precisely because she turned that cry into the sound of wind.

Arrange in order, thank you, live in seclusion, when you are lonely, autumn should be pity, autumn wild geese are snowing, autumn cranes are flying, and the gloom is returning to the cliff.

I still remember the shark. For many years after that, the little shark spent every day in the sea missing all the things he had experienced back then.

Goddess [biting handkerchief] You must continue writing about Shura Field [Orange Candy] I've got it

Love this book so much! ! The heroine's feeling of being alive is really strong hahahaha! But I still hope that the boys who have sex with the heroine can have an explanation! Np is the best [love eyes]

I wanted to read the emotional line, but there is no emotional line. The main plot is too ugly. I keep skipping chapters. Why don't I write about what I am good at and what philosophical thoughts I have. The fighting is not good-looking, there is no suspense, and there is no macro system. The emotional writing is very good, but it is all between the teeth.

Yunshan Ju, who are you? Every book is so appetizing. I came from Xiaochun and now I like Manman again. The author who loves the heroine the most in the world. The author who is number one and the most dedicated in creating the heroine. I am going to haunt you Yun Shanju!

Good-looking, good-looking, good-looking! ! ! I really like Meimei! Totally my ideal type, totally in love with Meimei! ! !