Shattered Soul

For many, many years it was always empty. In the end, I found that my position had been taken by someone else. After time was revised and printed. Is this the jealousy of a girl? I looked at you silently, but found that the one being protected was myself. I hate myself for forgetting. My dear, what happened back then... I looked at the intermittent handwriting and found that it was blurred under a cup that was accidentally knocked over. Water stains. What did I do when I ran away? What exactly was done. What did. I miss everything about those years crazily. But except for that "summer of 2008", I can't remember everything else... In the end... In the end... To the end... Is there just a "false memory" left, right...

Um, the comments magically disappeared, Jin Jiang Niang, you are not doing your best. Don't worry, Lingcheng-chan, I'm fine, as long as she is well. Lingcheng-chan, can I send it to you on his behalf, even if I don't have maple leaves here? Can you tell me the mailing address code? If it is inconvenient to go to Jinjiang, please put it on Sina.

I'm here in Lingcheng. How are you? Lingcheng-chan, I was so heartbroken. She was admitted to the intensive care unit. I was so scared. She asked me who I wanted her to be in the next life. In fact, I had always lied to her. I was online as a man. I knew I couldn't see her like this, so I said that I had never been real. I thought she wouldn't understand, but she understood. She... She thinks there is always a line between me and her, Yes, always, but I really don't want to, I really love her, I don't know, I can't face it, If only I were a man, Lingcheng I don't know what to do. Finally, Lingcheng, I love you, even though it's online, it's true, I don't want to lose anyone anymore

Sorry, I haven't been here for a long time. Are you okay, Lingcheng-chan? I miss you so much. Wen's matter, Lingcheng, can you really let it go? Now, I met a person, Lingcheng. She was like a preview of your past, but this time, I can't let the same pain happen to her. It's a regret in my heart that I missed the time that can give you comfort. So if you can please tell me how I can make her happy. Although I am not overestimating my abilities, I hope that I can comfort you to some extent when Lingcheng-chan is in pain. But Lingcheng-chan is a stronger person than me. The time we missed is my regret, so I don't want the regret to happen to another person again.

I found that I am a very picky person I obviously want someone to be by my side but I can't stand the feeling of having sex with them (As expected, I still have some radio waves) But Lingcheng-chan was the first person I had a good conversation with after we separated. Although the Internet is full of falsehoods, I feel that this feeling is very real.

I also played the game between big cats and small dogs when I was in primary school. But it was someone else who suggested it. I thought it was childish at the time, so I never responded to them when they were called strange names. By the way, I was a radio wave major in elementary school, because now there is a radio wave major in our class. I think she is more similar to me in elementary school, but I don't have as many tics as she did (probably). I just simply don't want to communicate with others. The reason at the time was "I don't want to talk, I'm too tired to talk."

It's rude, but the memory loss is fake, right? I also hope that I can forget painful things, but that is impossible. It is human destiny to grow up in pain. In fact, I hate a dull life more than a painful life. Boredom can drive people crazy (so I can't always focus on one thing. Life is interesting, even if it is painful.) However, the most important thing is to absorb the most happiness in a total of decades of life (ME's life philosophy)

The gloomy life will eventually pass, right? Living through pain is life, right? People who have never experienced pain are probably not qualified to enjoy happiness. I was rejected by others when I was in junior high school, so I could feel the pain. However, there was one person who always supported me and I always felt that she could understand me. In fact, I know that a large part of being disliked by others is because I am not good at myself and am always too willful. But it was so nice to have met her, even now that we are apart. Now I have decided to rely on my own strength to be liked by others, and I can no longer rely on her. In fact, when I am with her, I often worry that she will hate me because she is always dependent on me. I was afraid that I would lose my last friend, but she never did anything bad to me and always tolerated me. But I don't dare to get too close to her. I'm afraid that in the long run, she will become my whole world. Nothing lasts forever, or so I thought. Because I have always relied on you and refused to give up this warmth, you will become fragile. I love my family and friends equally, but they are not my whole world. I don't want to lose my existence because of anyone. But warmth is also necessary. Without warmth, a world without only benefits does not exist. I also believe that Wen will not tell you all lies. A clever liar will never expose his lies. And if I want to hurt others, I will never become friends with her, because the closer I am to the victim, the easier it is to expose her. Wen is a bit like me before, very willful. (The name Ranqi was my original online name. Because I separated from her, I adopted this name again as a commemoration of a new beginning. I can probably think of people with the same name and there are similarities.) But I didn't mean to hurt others. Because I was too willful in the past, I lost my temper with others casually and did some rude things. So when you are hated or bullied by others, you think it is appropriate. Although I cried too. I actually wanted to be friends with everyone, but after I did something wrong, I was not forgiven. I didn't have the courage to apologize at that time (although I would definitely go back now), because I was persecuted, so I was very afraid of that person (name is Lin). I think I must have distorted her concept. So I hope you can forget Wen and forgive Wen. Like I couldn't say "I hope you're forgiven." The mistakes I made at that time are all over, so I don't hate Lin for what she did to me.

In fact, when I found out that Wen was a woman, I had a strong hunch that this person probably loved Ping. I don't know what your relationship is. I don't know who of you used whom, or who took revenge on whom. I just feel childish because it's all childhood. Dear dear, no matter what time, I sincerely hope you can be happy, really. Relax, accept others and accept yourself. Maybe this is not much white I can bring you, because you have used too much white~ (laughing)