"Deskmate, aren't you wasting your life?"
"Lin Jiayi, do you see a light shining on me?"
"I do."
"I want to be your sun and light up your life."
The story begins with Lin Jiayi showing up late, but his looks make everything all right.
"Le'er, improvise something to cheer Brother Yi on!" Chen Le gathered up his courage, clenched both fists, and raised his hands as raindrops clung to his eyelashes. He shouted hoarsely, "Rain falls from the sky, the ground is slick! Sleepyhead Jiayi stands firm as a rake!"
"A hundred gold can buy one hand-holding with Chen Le, a thousand gold buys a hug, and ten thousand gold buys a kiss. If I don't offer myself up, how am I supposed to get all of him?"
Lin Jiayi had kept a diary since childhood, but stopped writing in it after he turned eight. You could still feel the childish handwriting on the yellowed pages. The diary ends on August 7 of that year. That page is blank, but the great swaths of tear stains say it all.
"So many people smooth down their rough edges, sheathe their sharp teeth, and change their personalities just to please this vast world. I won't try to please the world, and I certainly won't try to please anyone else. But I'll try to please you. I'll worry about you. I haven't even abandoned you, so what gives you the right to take yourself away from me?"
Lin Jiayi is the sea, and Chen Le is the sun.
Sunlight can't penetrate the deep sea, and the depths of the abyss are hell. But they were born for hell, and the boys feared nothing, because they had each other.
"Why can't sunlight get through? That's just physics. I can get through."
"And what kind of phenomenon is that?"
"A necessary phenomenon."
The afternoon sun was bright, the breeze gentle, and the ginkgo tree still stood tall and lush. Chen Le stood upstairs, and Lin Jiayi stood below.
Chen Le shouted down, "Lin! Jia! Yi! I! Love! You!"
Lin Jiayi raised both hands and shouted back, "Chen! Le! I! Love! You! More!"
They chose each other, kept each other warm, and grew up together, from beginning to end.
A scheming, domineering, lonely-on-the-inside, takes-everything-on-himself, gentle and handsome top × an innocent, kindhearted, sometimes dumb, pretty-boy-loving, sun-seeking bottom.
Theme: Choosing each other, fighting to the very end.
