Song of Departure

From the moment I wrote the review, I had a hunch that I would write another long review. So this long review will probably be an expansion of my evaluation of "a poem of love that lights up a world full of mud". But before I start the main text, I would like to write a warning here for readers who have not read this story yet - my long review will inevitably contain spoilers. I do not want to spoil your perception of it if you are about to, or want to, read it, nor do I want to cloud your judgment while you are reading it. Please just read along the author's writing rhythm. What a book or a story should look like does not come from someone else's complete description, but depends on the viewer's personal experience after reading it. But I also understand that in a world where attention and time are scarce resources, readers want to get reference before reading. Therefore, without spoiling anything, all I can say here is that this book is worth it. I hope you can read it for yourself, I hope you can concentrate, I hope you can read it to the end, and I hope you can have your own experience and judgment at that time. To be honest, if I were to sum up this story in one sentence, it would not be complicated at all - it is a story of a man taking death away from death, and then grafting and rebirth on the broken bones. If I had to decide on a label, "redemption" and "healing" would probably bear the brunt. However, there are thousands of redemptive literature in Jinjiang, and I have read quite a few of them, but only "Li Ge" made me so heartbroken. It is said that its previous name was "Being a Substitute is worse than Exploding". I have not followed the serial for a long time, and I only read this novel recently, so I don't know when the author changed the name. But I think if it weren't for the song "Li Song" after the name change, I might have missed it because of its original name – but that doesn't matter now, it doesn't matter anymore. To me, Qingqing can be anyone, be it an actress, a dancer, a teacher, a writer... Or even if she does nothing and just spends her life, it is all valuable. Her mere existence in this world is a great privilege to the world itself. Maybe I shouldn't call her Qingqing, I should respectfully call her Teacher Qing. In the book, a world full of mud and thorns, and in the real world full of mud, she is a bright light that lights up the darkness, and she redeems the world and the viewer. But I think that setting Qingqing as an actress in the entertainment industry and hoping that she will become a flame that burns away corruption probably stems from the author's own anger. This anger is clearly visible in the text, both in the sometimes cheerful writing and in the more heavy narratives. And as the author himself said - "This story started from a disease and was finally cured. I want to say too much, family, school, hospital, love, friendship, family..." These silent fireflies ignited those inextricably linked clues that were eventually twisted together and fell into place, eventually becoming a poem of love that illuminates the world. I love this story so much. However, the author also said - "If my writing brings pain to others and does not even bring aesthetic pleasure, then it may be meaningless. I am also thinking about whether I will write again." As a viewer, I cannot personally understand the pain of the creator, and I don't know if this belated response can still be heard by the author, but I still want to say - "If writing must be an expression that turns to the shadows, I would rather believe that it presents the desire to embrace the world and reality." - So, I hope you will continue to write, and write with this anger and courage. Then, I want to talk about major depression. In this world, once a word is stigmatized, people will forever lose the right to use it calmly. I say this because I am also a sufferer of depression, but whenever I am asked to face or describe my "depression", I feel ashamed and inferior. It is indeed a sin to be sick, especially if you have a condition where you cannot see the wound. Being in the crowd feels like being separated from the world by an ice surface. You are holding a dull knife and grinding it helplessly, but no matter how you grind it, only that layer is left. The flowing water underneath is misty and misty. You can't see clearly no matter how you look at it, and it's blurry no matter how you hear it. But you know that the silent and huge rejection is far colder and more decisive than the running water. However, I don't know how or when I became an exile on this side of the ice. It felt like a huge web of nothingness swallowed me up, and then I woke up to a different world. To this day, there is still no unified explanation of the cause of depression, and human understanding of the body, brain, and nervous system is still shallow. "Li Ge" also said when describing Qingqing's illness: "The cause of illness is a variable. If mental illness must be due to some fixed factors, it would be too ridiculous." Therefore, the sufferings that the world generally summarizes - emotional pain, frustration of ideals, encountering evil people... - Are just attributions that arrogant healthy humans look down on. After all, even I, who is deeply depressed, know nothing about this "black dog". I often think that human beings may be the mayflies that are parasitic on diseases and treat day and night as eternity due to short-sightedness. I forgot where I saw a passage, but the general idea is: "The story is fictional, but it is inevitable that it is similar to actual events, groups and characters. However, compared to the story, the reality is often more cruel." Yes, the reality is often more cruel. "Li Ge" writes about Qingqing's self-hypnosis - how painful is it for people to forget everything in the past when they decide to live a new life? Even if you create false memories for yourself, you won't hesitate. I often thought about this question when I read this story for the second time. But the real world is always more absurd and unfortunate than the hypothetical world. Caramel (also Qi Huan and Qingqing) said: "When I think of cockroaches, spiders, sharp knives, cold guns, endless murderers, and homeless people who starve until dawn, I want to die immediately and never see the light of day." When I saw this, I cried. I often feel that maybe each of us is the same. Each of us is alone in this incomprehensible world, indifferent and indifferent to others except ourselves because of too much suffering. Having said that, even if the ending finally ends with "healing", I still feel that Qingqing can't actually get better. Because "healing" does not mean to completely repair those things that have been melted, I think it means more to live with the pain without giving up love and creation. Love is dappled, lush, and all around. Qingyu was unfortunate, but fortunately she never gave up on love, so she got true love. The love of Nian Yu, Ji Lan, Sun Anxu, and even Qing Yuan-Dian Dian. Qingyuan is indeed "the most desolate dead". She often reminds me of the comic called "My Broken Mariko". Mariko said to Xiaozhui, "I want to be born as Xiaozhui's child." - This love is too violent and hot and full of shocking beauty. And the beauty means that it is violent and destroys everything with the force of destruction and decay. Therefore, this love pulls Diandian and Qingyu into the abyss. Although it is indeed "love" as well. When I came back to my senses, I realized that I had written this long review. I don't know if these are nonsense or if they are useful words. Because I also have the same anxiety about my own words. It is really difficult for human beings to understand each other - even if understanding is not impossible, it is very difficult to use words to properly express one's true feelings and thoughts. But it also reminds me of this novel. "Li Ge" really uses words to build a bridge of communication between readers and the author. Otherwise, my long review, which is born of infinite resonance, would not be possible. I have always believed that it is very important for works to have emotional narratives that can shake people's hearts, because what people remember about a work is the moment when their emotions are shaken to the extreme. If a book is a torch, it ignites you, and you ignite more things with your own hands, then you will ignite the world. Yes, we will never fully understand each other, but we will and can go far beyond understanding each other. Or perhaps, what is really important here is not mutual understanding, but what is important is that we ordinary people, in some ordinary moments, rely on ordinary encounters and partings with people, objects, and stories to finally reach the shore of salvation that once felt untouchable. With endless love and a sense of confusion that I don't know where it starts or ends, I wrote this love letter seven months ago for this story. I have been writing for a long time, and there was a time when I could not continue writing. "If you have rivers and seas in your heart, then you have to let them flow out." After reading this book again and writing this belated love letter, the dull and turbulent river in my chest was finally able to flow out happily through tears. As I said in the review, "Li Ge", to me, is a poem of love that lights up in a world full of mud. Being able to encounter it is definitely my greatest luck as a reader. At the end of this love letter, I would like to sincerely express my gratitude to the author - although these sentences integrated with characters and light points are light and weak, I still hope that the words can carry my heavy thoughts and convey them to you. I feel so lucky to have read this story and thank you so much. Once again, I wish you good health and good luck as you write this story. As for my neighbors who also embrace the sorrow of existence, thank you for reading this far, and thank you for meeting you at this moment. May your future be open and bright, and may the nightingales you meet sing softly to you. Finally, please allow me to quote a passage to conclude—— "Read the thoughts about the world that I have locked in these pages; then put down the book and love. May you have a better future, love without fear, and remember that we loved too. When the shadows close in, the stars shine brighter." - Derek Jarman We should choose to live by love. Best wishes!

The teacher wrote really well, and the delicacy of the strokes made everyone heartbroken. I have thought about every problem that Qingyu has thought about. Maybe he is pessimistic by nature, so he always falls in self-criticism. The drama of life far exceeds everyone's standards for life considerations. I love this world but I am also afraid and disgusted. This may be the complex emotions of being a human being. I have clearly seen many injustices and countless sins. In the end, In the end, I still deceived myself helplessly and allowed myself to live selfishly. Qingyu's tragedy resonated with me. I always thought that there would never be anyone as nervous and sensitive as me. I am very grateful to the teacher for allowing me to witness a similar self. I think about it every day, but I stop at thinking. People need to think, but endless criticism will only make themselves miserable. I also want to be a flower blooming in the corner, and one day be able to face the light.

In the past, I would guess the development of the plot based on the foreshadowing, but after that, I became more and more lazy when reading the book, and I didn't bother to use my brain to guess the plot line after seeing the foreshadowing. I am like a sponge that was thrown into a bucket. After I took it out and wrung it out, it returned to its original state. The water entered me and after it receded, I gained nothing. From now on, I have to calm down and read books. When I was looking for an article, I looked at the copy and clicked in. The style of writing was also quite cheerful. I thought it was a cookie-cutter article that you don't need to read with your brain. With this in mind, when I saw the foreshadowing, I was a little bit looking forward to how it would be arranged later. In the previous chapter, someone in the comment section said that the entertainment industry was too heavily involved and wanted to see the emotional line. I'm glad I didn't read the part about the entertainment industry with this attitude. The reality reflected by the words is far more outrageous than the words themselves. I don't know since when, the lines in my mouth became 1234567. Even if I had a scratch on my skin and didn't go to the hospital, I would still be praised for my dedication. He made his debut based on his face first, and then filmed TV series to spoil the audience's eyes. At least there is one thing to say, capital will protect you. Later, none of them could be said to have passed, and they made their debut. It was no longer a waste of the eyes, but just took out a piece of shit and stuffed it into someone's mouth. Sometimes I can't help but wonder: Is a person's aesthetics really so easily influenced? Take an example from my side. When chatting with me before, a roommate mentioned that Xiao Zhan is very handsome and Chen Qingling is very good-looking. I told her about 227 and the subsequent events on the spot. When Xiao Zhan was mentioned later, she remained silent. I know that she didn't change her mind because she knew this, but because I didn't agree with her on this topic. She just followed my words and "stand on the right team." How many people are on the right team under the influence of capital? There are many comments on the Internet such as "xxx is so handsome, I just sat on the floor to ovulate" and "I exploded, brothers, did I do the right thing?", Which makes people sick when they look at it. Some people think that the reproductive organs are located in the brain. Is this star chasing? I don't know and I don't want to know. I originally thought that they should at least respect the audience, but they don't care about the audience at all. Do they still have half the value of existence? This big dye vat should have been smashed the day it started to become turbid. If you're extreme, just be extreme. Just think of me as having a crazy dream in the middle of the night. Coming back to the article, the plot gradually became more and more blurred, and I felt that the subsequent direction was like solving a puzzle, but I didn't feel that it was torture. Maybe it was because I believed that Teacher Nian would always guard Qingqing. "Some people are healed by childhood throughout their lives, and some people are healed by childhood throughout their lives." Childhood is really important. As someone who has experienced it, until I am unable to give my child a wonderful childhood, I will not consider letting him come into this world and suffer. When a person needs to use a fictional self to protect herself, I think no one is qualified to deprive her of this power. Our understanding of depression is still too shallow, and our treatment methods are also pale. Coupled with the interference of public opinion and the inherent limitations of human thinking, people who are truly sick are not treated with equality and respect. This is sad. Literature is the study of human beings, and human beings are the sum of social relationships. I'm not good at evaluating characters, so I won't say too much. I wrote it with a hot head, to express my feelings. Please forgive me if the words do not convey the meaning or the sentences do not make sense. I want to say to the author: Thank you for your words. I remember that Teacher Wen Gai once said something in class: "Some people are destined to write something, and they can't do it if they don't write." Although the expression is more colloquial, I think it expresses that feeling very appropriately. I will also look forward to your texts, see you next time.

When I read the back part, I felt that the logic was not very smooth in some places, and the timeline was also difficult to follow. But in general, it does not affect the overall reading of the article and the depth it brings to people. It is full of mixed feelings. Compared with the entertainment industry articles I usually read, this article is indeed in-depth and makes people think. At the end of the show, I think I still feel a little dissatisfied with the role of Yuanyuan. How should I put it, when I saw Yuanyuan leaving, I felt that she was extremely paranoid, and there was no big disturbance in my heart. After watching the extra chapter, it turns out, no wonder, no wonder. I am not qualified to evaluate and criticize everything she has done from her perspective. She has suffered a lot. It is undeniable that she did pull Qingqing into the abyss, and at the same time, she did bring hope to Qingqing. It can be regarded as a subtle mutual redemption, even if the time is short, the time is wrong, and it is invisible. Her experiences have created her extremes, indifference, pretense, and morbidity. But put yourself in her shoes and you can't do any better than she does. Suddenly I thought that she had learned so much psychological knowledge, and that she said she had a better gift for Qingqing. So, perhaps, she had already thought about and prepared such a path, when she thought that another hope might be dashed. Death is her best escape, right? No, it's them. "Congratulations, this should be the last time I protect you." From now on, there will only be Qingqing, no Yuanyuan, and no Diandian.

I really want to know where I can listen to the radio drama. Does anyone know? ●▽●

Don't talk about the past, don't ask about the future. From now on, the river will be strong and the mountains will be high and the water will be long.

What I read before was always confusing. There was an introduction before reading. I tried hard to find the character and behavior in the protagonist that fit these two characteristics. I think Qingqing can really do it all over again because he probably doesn't want to meet Diandian again. If Qingqing has been on the edge of the abyss without realizing it, Diandian is the one who pushed Qingqing into the abyss. When Diandian realizes, he looks towards the abyss. The Qingqing of the abyss again regards himself as the God of Redemption, delusional to be the light of Qingqing in the abyss, typical of the yandere behavior, changing the protagonist in this way, it seems to make sense. I was confused after reading the first half, and cannot be read as a romance novel. Rather than a romance novel, it is more like how a mental illness is formed, the process of struggle, redemption, so messy. Can anyone tell me about it?

At first, I thought it was a cool article, but I was wrong. It was painful and happy at the same time. Nian Yu is fine, Qing Qing, Ji Lan, aunt, Dian Dian, everyone is fine. The bad thing is reality, family, grades, money, and society. Under so many interfering factors, we who live well are all good. The author writes very well, see you soon.

Originally it was just to pass the time out of boredom, but after reading it, I was shocked. This is a good article (but a little worrying)

I'm crying, who wants to send a razor blade to the author like me? Maybe I'm the only one who likes Nian Yuan, woo woo woo