Do You Want to Love or Continue to Love?

My birth made everyone in my family very happy. Except my grandma. He always hoped that my mother would give birth to a boy for her first child. I know he must have been very unhappy with my mother at the time. . . My parents don't seem to care much about whether I am a boy or a girl. But later I discovered that I had been deceiving myself all along. …….. What will happen to me in the future... Will my love happen? What should I expect?