[Black Butler] Sugar Dreamland

"It seems like we are running towards a sunny future." Elizabeth repeated it to the elderly Paula, but her eyes were empty, as if she was mumbling to the air. In Elizabeth Ethel Cordelia Midford's memory, the figure of the young boy, Charles Phantomhive, was blurred; instead, at his father's funeral, the figure of Count Phantomhive looked more and more like his father. Charles Phantomhive has been dead for six years, no, maybe seven years... Elizabeth can't remember exactly how many years he has been dead, but when she closes her eyes, she can still see the honey-colored light. On the Campania, she is wearing low heels and is being pulled by the boy to run wildly. That was the Earl of Charles Phantomhive she loved. Elizabeth put down the fruit and looked up at the mottled ceiling of the nursing home. In the dirt of Ypres, she saw Count Phantomhive wearing an eyepatch and still retaining the arrogance of a boy. She should have abandoned him in the long river of memory, turned into a bubble of nothingness, and gone with the wind; she should have crossed the cliff chasm named "The Death of Charles" and continued to be her "golden rose of the Garter" and "the countess who never achieves anything." She should have... Should have... What should it be? The dream woven together with sugar, fairy tales, fantasy and beauty has long been illusory, and she is still half asleep in this dreamland that once brought her love and fantasy, which seems to be real and half illusory. She didn't want to be the Garter's Golden Rose; She doesn't want to be a countess who never achieves anything; She still wanted to be the fiancée of Lord Charles Phantomhive; She still longs to be Phantomhive's sword and shield to protect the beauty of the past; She still prefers the pure and childish love of her youth; She still longs for dreams as sweet as sugar; Elizabeth closed her eyes. "Heading towards a sunny future." She whispered again, not knowing who she was talking to.

Sigh... This relationship is too painful for her. I wrote a lot but deleted them in the end. I hope Leeds has a happy ending...