Confessions of an Emperor Scrambling to Survive Between the Cracks

The ending reminds me of the line from Water Margin: "When the tide comes from the Qiantang River, you will know who I am today." Qi Wenyu was very interested in Western philosophy in his previous life. I don't know much about it, but I vaguely remember that the ultimate question of philosophy is who am I. Qi Wenyu began to feel that the world was a game and did not truly accept his own existence. Until the end, when he accepted everything about himself, his childhood memories returned. He was Qi Wenyu from beginning to end. (Personally, I speculate that his previous life also had this name)

Suddenly I realized that although from Xiao Qi's perspective he was quite affectionate, from Xie Chu's perspective Xiao Qi was very face-conscious and... Really had many blue-faced confidants. Xiao Lu Da Qi Xiao Song Zeng Daochang Cousin Xie …

What decision did Youxing risk his life to make for Qi Wenyu? He obviously advised Qi Wenyu to spare Xie Dang and Prime Minister Peng, but he probably meant to let them go, but he felt that it was a decision that Qi Wenyu couldn't make. It's strange, it feels like it's the other way around. On the contrary, I feel that even if Qi Wenyu controls these people, it will be difficult for him to attack these old friends. Qi Wenyu was really miserable. His prediction of the situation was correct, but he turned against him and Lu Ning also failed to stop Xie Chu. Many previous places hinted that Youxing was Xie Chu's spy. For example, Xie Chu was kind to Youxing. Although Youxing said that his surname would be Xu from now on, everyone still called him Eunuch Xie. Qi Wenyu clearly did not agree, but Xie Chu still arrived at the door of his room. But I had suspected him before even when I was asking for blessings. Qi Wenyu had saved his life and given him as much dignity as possible. How could he betray such a good Xiao Qi. People around Qi Wenyu like to make decisions that are good for him, but few people support Qi Wenyu in doing what he wants to do. Xie Chu dressed up as a bearded man, but Qi Wenyu only served as Lu Yunmu's red-haired girl. Perhaps Xie Chu was moved when Qi Wenyu gave up everything and eloped for Lu Yunmu. Qi Wenyu said that he was jealous of Feng Zhibi and Xie Chu was not jealous of Lu Yunmu. Lu Yunmu was Xiao Qi's passionate first love in his best years. Xie Chu had had many opportunities but still missed the love of young Xiao Qi. Madam, you are my god~~Xie Chu is really an outstanding character. Qi Wenchu ​​and Qi Wenyu both complained about each other exactly the same way, "silly brother" and "silly brother", you must be conjugated fools. Qi Wenyu is really kind. His brother almost killed him but he still wanted to take his brother back. My wife is so diligent in updating. I wish my wife a happy new year and all the best.

Ending with a happy ending~ (In the end, everyone got a better ending (the key is that my two difficult feelings were resolved~)) It's been a lot of hard work. It took more than a year or two to chase me from Mackerel to Weibo (I have no concept of time at all). I originally thought that after the fall of Mackerel, I might not be able to see it again (it seemed that it happened to be the time when Xie Xiugang died and Queen Xie returned to Beijing. I really regretted it at that time. I always wanted to know and print it out earlier) By chance, I discovered that DaDa had been added to Weibo (because I don't use Weibo very much, so I had always forgotten about it). Then by chance, I analyzed between the lines of DaDa and found out that DaDa had published on jj, so I followed it (I'm sorry, I'm asking if I really don't read Weibo (it's usually a tool used to confirm whether some DaDa stores are alive or not)) Anyway, my fate with Da Da is not yet over~ After the Fall of the Mackerel, I could not forget the names so many times that I can remember them on one hand. This book is definitely No. 1. From the very beginning, I was impressed by Da Da's humorous writing style. Xiao Qi's somewhat cowardly and complaining character was very popular with me, and the first-person writing method is really interesting (it's a pity that there are not many first-person medium-length novels). Being led away by the protagonist, following the protagonist's thoughts, understanding the protagonist's limitations, etc., And finally being puzzled and shocked with him, in some aspects it really feels like being there. Although I often complain about my inability to write about tactics, it is already very powerful for me (at least based on my IQ, I am stunned) And the most profound impression was still where Xiao Lu was shot off the cliff (I knew you were not that cruel~) It was really late at night, and I was so stunned that I couldn't cry. It was sudden, very sudden, and I watched that part over and over again (I feel sorry for Xiao Qi here by the way) However, I still feel that there are still some small holes that have not been filled in (for example, Xie Chu's "It's like this again" etc.) So (as seen in the picture) robbery, use it for extras~ (Young lovers can do it in daily life too) Finally, I like Dada's writing very much (xp matches it), and I'm looking forward to Dada's other works (please update it soon~) And most importantly, I wish you better and better and happier (after all, the first point of writing is to entertain yourself, no matter what other people's opinions are)

Regarding Xie Li, I think Xie Li is the kind of person who is very smart, but his circumstances are not that good. He was originally Qi Wenyu's companion, but there might have been some conflict between our family and Prime Minister Xie's branch, so Xie Li returned home a year later. Here he missed the sweet spot with Qi Wenyu. In fact, I feel that if he stayed with Qi Wenyu in the palace, with his face and IQ, he might not necessarily have anything to do with Xie Chu and Xiao Lu. The article emphasizes many times that Xie Li looks very much like Xie Chu and Xie Xiu. It can be imagined that Xie Li has lived in the shadow of these two outstanding cousins ​​his whole life, and his family will constantly compare him with those two people. No matter how cheerful and lively a child is, it is difficult not to feel depressed in such an environment. Moreover, children who grow up in this kind of family environment are generally more observant. This kid is actually really pitiful. Xie Li must have had a dispute when Xie Chu forced him to resign and go home. From the following text, it can be seen that Xie Chu looked down on Xie Li to some extent and thought he was flattering. (I guess he also scolded Xie Li in person, and it might even be more unpleasant). The words of thanks should also be more intense and pungent than what Xie Chu relayed. I guess I should be scolding Xie Chu for being hypocritical. Xie Chu has always flaunted his loyalty, so Xie Li said that he was not loyal to Xiao Qi's love and pretended to be aloof. (Thank you for the gift, but you still know how to curse) It was indeed unexpected and reasonable for Xie Li to kill Xie Chu. Two people with such similar looks, one has a smooth career, and they also have a childhood friendship with the emperor and his admiration. And she could only rely on her similarity to him to gain a chance to gain the emperor's favor and trust. Moreover, Xie Chu also cut off Xie Li's career during the rising period. It's not surprising that Xie Li took the opportunity to kill Xie Chu. The thank you gift should not be counted as Xie Chu's replacement. In fact, his qualifications should be between those of Xie Chu, but his luck is still a bit worse.

I wrote a long review for a long time and was swallowed by JJ. I really Start over I really like this kind of experimental literature that travels back to ancient times. Let's talk about Xiao Qi first: Personally, I feel that his pain comes from his too clear understanding. First of all, he is a person who has truly studied modern philosophy. He knows that personal efforts are not worth mentioning in the face of the torrent of history, especially when the economic foundation gap is obviously too large... Therefore, from the beginning, he wanted to leave the court and choose freedom. He knew that he could not change this era, and he was unable to defeat the court family. The paradox is that he clearly knows that his special identity cannot be determined by his own ideas, so he has been carefully speculating on the people around him, and even maintained a pessimistic and alert view. This view destined him to never be able to have a heart-to-heart relationship with his uncle, and he would always regard the sincere Xiao Lu as Bai Yueguang. The second is that he has never integrated into this era. He is a remnant of modern times, and what he has always recognized is that he is a modern traveler. Therefore, he can never understand the loyalty and choices of the ancients, nor can he understand the ancient aristocratic families who regard human life as nothing. But he became a member of the ruling class and became an alien. He felt that everyone was equal and the emperor was not a good job, but other people thought that he should be the emperor, and kept pushing him to that position, and even thought that his life should be sacrificed to protect some people. He felt that he was no different from others, but people around him had to speculate on him with the thoughts of a monarch and a minister. This reality made him feel absurd all the time, and after the absurdity, no one knew about his loneliness and self-loathing. Having someone die for him has always been enough to crush him. In the end, he was too emotional. It's just the above two points that this can still be a fun time travel article, but Xiao Qi put too much emphasis on feelings. What's even more unfortunate is that he is surrounded by career-oriented players, so tragedy happened. Xiao Qi can keep making concessions for the safety of those around him, but those around him have to constantly sacrifice their own careers for Xiao Qi's career, and continue to ignore Xiao Qi's emotional needs. In the end, when Xiao Qi was forced to not trust anyone around him, his uncle had feelings for him. Although it was a two-way relationship to a certain extent, it actually made Xiao Qi's self-loathing worse. He couldn't control his suspicion, and he couldn't control his so-called "transfer of love". He wanted to distinguish Xie Chu's love but could never distinguish it, which would only make him sink deeper and deeper. Personally, I think that if there is a follow-up, unless Xie Chu understands Xiao Qi's thoughts, he can really save Xiao Qi, otherwise I will still be pessimistic about their relationship and even Xiao Qi's life... Let's talk about Xie Chu Personally, I think he actually has a bit of inferiority complex, although he is completely the protagonist in Xiao Qi's eyes () His inferiority complex comes from his family. There are too many geniuses around him, especially Xie Xiu. I really like the setting of similar looks in the article. Every pair of similar-looking people becomes a sharp contrast (I personally think that because they are in the first person, this similarity should be a hint of Xiao Qi's inner evaluation of their origins). For example, Dalu Xiaolu is from the Lu family that values ​​love and justice, but the last one is Bai Yueguang and the other is each other's stand-in. When it comes to Xie Chu, his comparison person is Xie Li. He also comes from a famous family and is a genius. He also has people around him who are amazing and talented to compare him with since childhood. Having said that, under this kind of comparison, under the Xie family's KPI-heavy PUA, it is impossible for Xie Chu not to feel depressed and inferior. So he said to Xiao Qi's face that he was not worthy. This should be the truth. At the same time, Xie Chu is indeed the kind of classic noble son cultivated by aristocratic families in ancient times. His natural responsibility is to lead the family to glory. This made him come back to continue to support the Xie family after he chose to escape to Fujian. It also made him truly choose to hold on to Xiao Qi, who was closest to him by blood after the death of his father and brother. The chickens and ducks that night when Xiao Qi let him sleep with him were also very kind. Xie Chu's final doubt turned out to be whether Xiao Qi was sad because of his blood relationship. It is really incomprehensible to a young man from an aristocratic family like him. They have been trained to be friendly and brotherly from the beginning, and the idea of ​​​​becoming closer to each other is more consistent. He feels that love does not need to be distinguished, but Xiao Qi has always wanted to distinguish what this kind of love is because he is an outsider. Personally, I think this is a big hurdle in their relationship. Xiao Qi figured it out too early, while Xie Chu figured it out too late. In the end, I have to say that it was God's will that they get together. They are actually like-minded. One wants revenge, and the other wants to escape. In addition, both of them are actually athletes who put their feelings above their careers. There is no reason for fate. I hope Queen Xie can understand Xiao Qi's thoughts and feelings in the future, and really pull Xiao Qi out of the quagmire. After all, Xiao Qi is the unlucky one in this relationship... After talking nonsense for a long time, I finally concluded, Mrs. Nb!

Xie Chu (Bazong version): (Red eyes, pinching waist) I'll give you my life

Regarding the Emperor's father, I actually quite love his silly boy. It can be seen from the time he was born that he had great expectations for this eldest son. Although Qi Wenyu didn't pay attention to him after he became stupid, he didn't treat him harshly. There was no deliberate suppression after Qi Wenyu became normal. I am more partial to Qi Wenchu, but Qi Wenchu ​​is really close to him and filial to him. Qi Wenyu is not willing to contact him and treats him as an NPC. His biggest role is to check in. He is also training Qi Wenyu. He even entrusted him to Prime Minister Peng before he died. He is not a very good father, but he is a barely qualified father.

It would be great if my wife keeps writing. I like this article very much.

Thoughts on this chapter: Ah~ah~ah~, I'm more confused than Xiao Qi