The Tsurumaru Cosplayer Transmigrated

The article written by my wife is really great, I look forward to the next update! The relationship between people is really difficult to grasp. Placing something that is too heavy on others who cannot bear this kind of relationship will only make the friendship between the two people walk on thin ice... Thinking about it the same way, it is too hard for us who are tired of living in this world to bear the pain of others. (Of course, those who dare to save others are great and admirable) However, a coward like me is used to digesting and suffering alone for a long time (for a person like me, exposing dark thoughts to others is really suffocating, and I can't imagine it at all), so I believe in the truth that 'only I can save myself from fire and water', and have successfully survived until now! (Congratulations, congratulations, congratulations) In this process, I understood a few things, such as not thinking about the meaning of life, otherwise you will only fall into the trap of abominable nihilism (I have been looking for that 'meaning' for a long time, but if you think about it carefully, there is no meaning in life). People live for a certain moment, and this is the most important meaning to me that I have found. The air in the autumn morning is very good, and the sunshine is like a sunflower, which makes me happy; in the summer night, under the swing, the leaves are rustled by the evening breeze. My friends and I listen to songs together, as if we want to escape from the world, watching the sky swing far and near; I couldn't stop the tears and stuffy nose when I broke down. When I looked up, I suddenly saw a heart-shaped tree shade that I only found... Under the pain of life, I suddenly felt the feeling of 'I am still alive in this world', which is not bad. I have a sentence to share with you who have read my ramblings: "Is it just childhood that is so painful? Or is it always like this?" "It's always like this." But after all, in such a painful life, there will still be a few moments that make us feel happy, and people live for such a moment.

I just saw it, um, I'm quite sorry. I am a black mud, not a typical one, but I am very annoying. My mental state has never been very good. When I was naive, I used to find someone to talk to like my wife, and I even shook all the black mud out. I would go crazy from time to time, and commit suicide from time to time, but now I think about it, it is quite childish. Later, I was disliked by others without even realizing it. My thought at the time was, please look at me, I'm really in pain. Look at me, save me, give me a hand. It's really humbling. Maybe they were annoyed because she deleted me. I was sad for a long time, but it was also because of me. I can't blame them. Now that I'm a little more mature, I've learned how to pretend, can I do acting as well? Now I am a child who is not emo and is indirectly sentimental, but overall, I am much better than before. Now I have learned to swallow everything in my stomach, and I have also learned to speak freely once I am familiar with it. Well, overall it is very good. I hope my wife will be well too. Although it is hypocritical for me, a black mud spirit, to tell you that the world is a good place and you should live a good life, I still want to say it. My dear, even if I still vomit black mud every day, even if I still feel emo every day, even if I still feel depressed every day. But overall, it's pretty good. At least I'm alive, and at least now I see people like you and I can tell you from my experience that it's okay to live. Since living is not bad, then let's continue to live staggeringly. I have been waiting for it now, and I can't say I am waiting for it. I have been waiting for a long time, but I will keep waiting. Waiting for the flowers to bloom, waiting for the swallows to return next year. Waiting for the beauty of this world to come to me.

I came here in 2021. How should I put it? The people gathered here are all attracted by your writing and stories. Maybe the Internet allows you to communicate more easily, which is also a good thing. Although it is estimated that it will not be updated, I still sincerely hope that you are still living somewhere in the world.

It was a little late when I saw this article. Anyway, I think you are still a gentle person in nature, so be more confident! No matter what, you will always meet someone who is willing to accept all the good and bad of you... Although I think I have no personal position to say this. After all, I am sometimes considered a black mud spirit. Although I have never told others... Hmm, just be happy. Look, we still accept you, right? At least here we are attracted by your words. Words are the best expression of people's spiritual world. Here, we will all be like-minded. This is a free world. In literature, you don't need to think about the bad things in real life. After all, it is a light novel, right? It's not like those articles that criticize reality, right? You don't need to think so much.

Hey, actually sometimes I want to commit suicide, during the period when I am most broken down. During that time, my family often quarreled with me, beat me, scolded me, emmm... I took action. If scratching my wrist with a knife counts, I bought a utility knife, thinking it was very useful. I also tried to write a suicide note to my family with my own blood. Maybe it was some bad taste? But in the end, I gave up because the blood didn't flow well. That piece of paper? Tuanba Tuanba is thrown into the trash can. I'm not a very expressive person, and I didn't know if what I said would be scary in their eyes, so I was smart enough not to tell anyone.

Wow! I have a netizen who is like this. She feeds me black mud every day, but I treat her as Osamu Dazai's meal replacement (I feel a little sorry for her). It would be a lie to say that I was not affected, but this feeling is really amazing! So after finishing the college entrance examination, I went to the police academy to study psychology, hahahahahahahahahahahaha!

Eh? I haven't poured black mud on anyone. Because my friend was in a much worse situation than me, she poured out all her despair and thoughts on me every night. But I was so clumsy that I didn't know how to comfort her. I stayed with her through her most difficult and painful period. Thinking about it now, it seems like I was starting to lose her. Maybe I knew too much. Even though she didn't say it out loud, she still acted farther and farther away from me. She seems to be starting to stay away from me and doesn't need me very much. After I clearly realized this, I felt very complicated and felt so sad that my heart almost died. Because from the beginning, the person who has been relying on me was actually me, and I found that I couldn't leave her at all. But she doesn't need me anymore. After waiting for this difficult time—— We all grow up. It appears firmly among us, forming a gap that can no longer be crossed. So I hate it.

(The perennial psychological counselor and the black mud trash can look at you) I can't say anything to comfort you without understanding QAQ But come on, big brother Sit back and wait for you to come back QwQ

The time I read this article was a little too long before the author needed comfort the most. But I still wish the author a happy day! The writing style really conveys the emotions well. I have read it over and over again seven or eight times. Although it's a pity not to continue, but it turned out to be the author's decision and I can only choose to respect it! Finally, I hope the author can be happy every day! A good mood brings good luck! [Spread flowers][Spread flowers]🐰

I used to think that I wanted to commit suicide because of my poor mental state. Recently, I discovered that it's not that I don't have a lot of pain, a lot of painful memories, and not too many painful experiences. I just seem to see through everything and everyone around me. What will happen next second, what other people will say next, what consequences and chain reactions will be caused by what I do, I seem to see clearly. I feel that this world is very boring, like a world that runs according to code. Like a game, I want to end this boring life countless times, but as I just said, if I understand myself willfully, there is a 90% chance that my family will be irritated to the point of collapse by me, and a 5% chance that they will become seriously ill. Once I get sick, there is a 4% chance that the old people will be stimulated to leave with me, and there is only a 1% chance that they will keep me in their hearts. They often think of losing their souls, so I can't do this yet. I can only let myself continue to live in confusion, like a machine running.