She was once a woman of the imperial entertainment bureau. After changing her name and identity, she became a noblewoman from a powerful family.
Later, she became a favored concubine, raised a prince, and took control of the imperial harem, only to suffer a crushing defeat in the end. Everyone said she had lost completely, that all she had left was a ruined palace and the empty title of Consort Xianyue.
But Xue Siyun refused to accept that.
She had never lived her life to be someone's wife, someone's mother, or someone's pawn.
She would walk out alive.
Out of this palace.
Out of everyone's love and hatred.
And out of the name "Xue Siyun."
She gazed at the night pressing down above her. Flecks of snow struck her face, and she gave a remarkably carefree smile. Her voice was hoarse, like a poisoned blade, like a sword hanging overhead and about to fall.
"I've done every evil deed imaginable. I deserve to be estranged from my husband and separated from my children by life and death. Even if I fall into the Avici Hell, through mountains of knives and forests of swords, through cauldrons of boiling water, I will have no regrets."
The young man froze for a moment, then smiled too. "Husband? Mother Consort, you've lost your mind. After Father passes away, he will be buried with the Empress in Dingling. Grand Tutor Tao also has a first wife who will share his fate in life and death. Only you, and you alone, are a concubine, all by yourself, condemned to remain here as Consort Xianyue for all eternity."
"You're wrong." She stared at him, her piercing gaze looking straight through him, and not only him. "Your lives have been shattered by schemes and intrigue. The one trapped here, the one who has suffered a crushing defeat, was never me. It never will be me."
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The title comes from the line: "Life is but windblown fluff. Joy comes in scattered flecks, sorrow in scattered flecks, all becoming little duckweed dots on the river."
A sea of love and hatred, blades drawn against one another;
An ensemble palace intrigue tale, full of intense push and pull between mature men and women;
The first half of the heroine's life.
This is a fictional setting inspired by the Tang Dynasty. No historical nitpicking, please.
Theme: Loving without betraying yourself is what truly matters.
Plans have changed, finished over the weekend [Sunglasses]
Hate Haiqingtian, the sincerity in the pretense, is so well written in big letters, I must keep writing it [hahahaha]😆😆
The book "Sit Until the Lights Fall" is published next door, and interested children can join in. She said: "Because I want to watch His Majesty." Chen Xuandu paused for breath. "Watch His Majesty sit up." She said in a very soft voice, "Watch His Majesty sit down."
If this book by the author is adapted into a TV series, it will definitely be very interesting. [Waving hands]
The IF line will be issued as a welfare chapter, expected to be next Monday or Tuesday. Thank you for your support 🤗
Tao Danshi discovered her, and Li Pinjian taught her to be himself. They would all arrange to use her, and she would do what they wanted. She had not forgotten her true intentions, but she couldn't leave. She already belonged here.
My favorite story about Fanwai and Li Pinjian is simply utopian. There is a huge difference in status between the two. The heroine does not feel that she has to depend on him because of this. She protects her one-third of the land and is not bound by the superficial relationship form. The two just get along with each other naturally, in a light and smooth way.
[Hang your face and laugh and cry] Actually, if you think about it, you can build a palace or something outside. If you want to travel around, you can stay in one place for a year and a half. [Hang your face and laugh and cry] Put aside our modern thinking, that is, we have rights, money, and freedom [Laugh and cry] Although it is not a literary She wanted to escape from the palace or the shackles of various identities, but she felt that this was the best, and there was nothing else [covering her face, laughing and crying] The loss of Li Yi's throne was already a huge blow. Even if Ji Weilan could comfort him, she couldn't get over this hurdle in her heart. Will the Tao family be marginalized? It feels like Tao Danshi has lost everything in this life, and the person he loves will lose his rights as well. Isn't the Du family very proud [covering face, laughing and crying] (I always feel a little concerned about letting others pick peaches, and Du Xinru is not a good bird). Going back to the beginning, what would happen if Tao Danshi was not influenced by power and did not work hard for the family? The family may not be as glorious as the official, but the life is good. With Siyun, peace of mind is also a blessing.
I feel that most of the novels assume that Li Yi, as the adopted son of the heroine, should be more benevolent and virtuous like Li Heng, so that it is close to perfection, and the heroine is no worse than Du Xinru. In the end, Du's child came to the throne. As mentioned before, Li Yi is like Li Pinjian, and Li Pinjian is also He killed his own brother to get the position. This position is inherently difficult to deal with. I feel that Li Yi is too hasty. He has had low self-esteem and been harbored by hatred since he found out about his biological mother. Is this inherent in his nature or something that can be changed later? [Covering face, laughing and crying] Of course, there is no way to bet on the later stage [Covering face, laughing and crying] The heroine also said that she would not let her go (almost becoming another Li Pinjian), but without Li Pinjian's insight and control of people's hearts, I don't know if this is how Li Pinjian came to be. I feel that if Li Heng is allowed to take the position, we should prevent relatives from interfering in politics (imitating the Ming Dynasty). The Du family cannot be officials above the sixth rank or even completely eliminate the killing of mothers and sons like in the Han Dynasty. Otherwise, wouldn't the Du family be another Tao family? So far, I don't have the slightest fondness for Concubine De [covering face, laughing and crying], but her son will have to overpower the heroine when he is in power. Although the heroine wants to leave, I don't care, but I feel very uncomfortable [covering face, laughing and crying] Of course, the author is still determined not to be shaken when writing.
Li Pinjian hoped that she would become what he wanted, and he liked her as she really was. He felt very sorry for their child who did not survive. Li Pin did not want her to use the child to grow up, but later he realized that she just wanted to be a good mother. Then raising Li Yi for her later would not conflict. They could really torture each other.