#Urgent! What do I do if she forgets me? / Black-hearted man pursues his wife after losing her
[The audio drama of the same name is now available on Ximalaya]
[The Moonlight Never Crosses the River is complete. Come on in!]
Blurb 1:
Feng Xi loved Song Qingshi for seven whole years.
But his feelings for her never went beyond propriety, and she never managed to win his love.
Everyone in their circle knew about their entanglement. Some had even tried to talk sense into him, but he only said, "I really do care for her like a little sister."
At first, everyone believed him. So did she.
Later, she happened to hear that he was going to enter an arranged marriage. After meeting the woman he was to marry,
she calmly gave up, packed her bags, and went far away to do what she wanted. Years passed.
Blurb 2:
Feng Xi was the long-lost daughter of the Shen family. After a chance encounter led him to find her, she spent most of her time by his side.
He thought he understood her well, but eventually learned he didn't.
He never imagined she would leave, but she walked away just like that, cutting off every connection back home.
He always thought she was fragile and needed his protection. Then he learned she'd ventured into rainforests, crossed deserts, and headed for the North Pole. The conditions were harsh and the dangers constant, yet she charged ahead without hesitation.
Song Qingshi was so furious he was speechless. Well, look at you, A Yao.
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While she was away, Feng Xi met with an accident.
Her memory became very poor. She vaguely remembered some people and things, but forgot him more completely than anything else.
He finally managed to find her.
When they met again, the first thing she said to him was, "Do we know each other?"
Everyone saw Song Qingshi's expression change on the spot.
He had finally received the punishment he deserved.
Later, someone caught a glimpse of the illustrious big shot from North City, so dignified and noble, holding the young woman in his arms and humbling himself to coax her into drinking medicine: "Just one more sip?"
/If you can't remember me, then let's fall in love and kiss passionately today. Let today be enough.
Blurb 3:
After returning home, Feng Xi appeared on an interview show. To keep things light, the host asked her about her personal life: "I wonder if you, Teacher F, have ever liked anyone?"
Song Qingshi was sitting in the audience.
He watched her curve her lips into a gentle smile, as if she'd let go of everything in the past, and answer softly, "I have, once."
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"No revenge or forgiveness can be as effective as forgetting." - Jorge Luis Borges
Reader's Guide:
1. One-on-one / single-couple romance / happy ending / five-year age gap
2. Capitalist × photographer / restrained and refined × unknowingly flirtatious
3. The male lead is sweet on the outside, dark underneath, going from restrained and refined to obsessive and unhinged
4. Includes fake-versus-real heiress elements / healing
5. Blurb dated 21.2.23 / 23.2.9
[Contest entry reason: Feng Xi photographs many endangered environments and animals, wins international awards, and provides material for documentaries, helping more people learn about serious environmental issues.]
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The Rose's Seduction
#Age gap / powerful man bows his head / groveling ex arc
Blurb:
Shu Qingwan and Rong Yin once had a relationship.
But she knew the gap between them was too great, and they could never have a future.
When rumors spread that his unattainable first love was returning to the country, she let go and left.
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After returning home, she became a highly popular inheritor of intangible cultural heritage. Then it came out that she was the woman in that viral qipao video from years ago.
With her graceful figure and breathtaking beauty, Shu Qingwan's popularity soared to new heights.
In an interview, when asked about her past relationship, she didn't dodge the question. She only smiled and said, "He taught me to let go of anger and desire, and to see the truth early."
He was right there that day, hearing every word she said.
She had been by his side for years.
But what he had actually taught her was to embrace anger and desire, and give in to every longing.
Blurb 2:
After returning to the Lin family, her parents felt they'd failed her terribly and treated her like a precious treasure.
They saw their son moving from one relationship to the next while their daughter remained single, so they specially arranged a blind date for her.
Anyone who passed her parents' scrutiny was bound to be an outstanding match.
She figured there was no harm in trying a relationship.
But just as she made up her mind, Rong Yin suddenly appeared and said, "Long time no see."
The man was refined and aloof, but his presence was overwhelming. He barged into their date, revealing all his domineering possessiveness and desire to claim her.
*The rose he nurtured with his own hands could only bloom for him, of course.
[Bonus Scene]
Rong Yin was famous for being cold and abstinent. He had a villa deep in the mountains, where he would often disappear for months at a time. All his friends knew it.
Then rumors suddenly spread that there was more to the villa than met the eye.
He wasn't going there to cultivate his character. He was hiding his unattainable first love in there!
The rumor spread, and his friends grew curious. At last, they decided to sneak in while he was unprepared and investigate.
Their plan went smoothly. They all made it inside.
But they never expected their nighttime raid to uncover not some unattainable first love, but someone who had mysteriously vanished for days:
Seeing the woman running downstairs barefoot, lifting her skirt, someone exclaimed in shock, "Qingwan?!"
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Rong Yin had seen the way she looked when she loved him most.
He had also heard her say, when she no longer loved him, "Mr. Rong, I have to get married someday."
"I saw a wildfire begin on a lone mountain."
Later,
she became the one who loved him unconditionally.
[Reader's Guide]
1. One-on-one / single-couple romance / happy ending / five-year age gap / Beijing elite circle / mild coercive romance
2. Beijing elite big shot × flirtatious qipao beauty, seemingly abstinent × flirtatious
3. Includes fake-versus-real heiress plotline
The next book in the same genre is complete!
The Moonlight Never Crosses the River
*Age gap / groveling ex arc / fake-versus-real heiress
*Beijing elite big shot × ambitious, flirtatious beauty
Blurb:
When Ming Yang was desperate, someone advised her to approach an influential man at a dinner party.
But she knew there could never be a future between them.
When news spread that he was getting engaged, she promptly withdrew, broke up with him, and went abroad.
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After the breakup, her career took off.
She was dazzling and unmatched, exuding glamour, and her popularity kept rising.
As for the stepping stone she'd once used, she had long since forgotten all about him.
They met again at a familiar dinner party.
She stepped outside to make a call. When she turned back, her way was suddenly blocked.
Ming Yang smiled sweetly. "A proper ex should act like we don't know each other, Mr. Shen."
His figure was hidden in the shadows as he casually raised his lips into a smile.
Is that so?
But when had he ever told her she could use him and then toss him aside?
Blurb 2:
Shen Ji Nian was famous for being abstinent and cold. He was busier than anyone, yet one day he suddenly showed up on a film set and stayed for months. Nobody knew why.
At a bonfire party, everyone started discussing their love lives. What a coincidence, Ming Yang and he were both single.
In front of other people, they acted like they barely knew each other.
One day after filming, the male lead went to knock on Ming Yang's door, politely asking if she needed help getting into character.
The room was quiet, as if no one were there. He leaned close to listen.
Unbeknownst to him, just on the other side of the door,
the woman he was looking for had just been lifted onto a table. She held her breath, keeping the little sounds he was drawing from her tightly hidden.
The man in front of her pushed her back and said only, "Make him leave."
Blurb 3:
Ming Yang was the long-lost daughter of the Wen family. They'd spent years looking for her and treated her like a precious treasure.
One day, a scandal suddenly broke that she had been kept by a rich man and had an abortion.
Public opinion came crashing down like an avalanche, and all sorts of vicious criticism flooded the internet.
An entire day passed after the incident.
That night, no one expected the first response to come not from her, but from Shen Ji Nian, the head of the Shen Group, who had never appeared in public before:
Shen Ji Nian:
[I was fortunate enough to be by her side through all those years of devastation.
She is the one and only leading lady of my life. @Ming Yang]
It wasn't that she was reaching above her station. He was the one who bowed down to her.
His public love confession stunned the entire internet.
Even more surprising, the Wen family later stepped in personally to claim her: [The young lady of the Wen Group. @Ming Yang]
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Shen Ji Nian had seen the way she looked at him when she loved him most.
He had also seen her look at someone else exactly the way she used to look at him.
[Let me take you through endless romance, and let me lose myself completely.]
Reader's Guide:
1. One-on-one / single-couple romance / happy ending / five-year age gap
2. Fake sugar daddy story / difference in status / Beijing elite circle / coercive romance / fake-versus-real heiress
3. The heroine is devoted to her career. Later, the male lead becomes a lovesick fool who only wants her to give their relationship a name.
Theme: Let the mountains and rivers carry me across. Life is an open wilderness.
Babies, the new book "Caught in the Spring Night" has been released, and you can click on the column~Come and take a look~Shirokiri Black×Fishing System/Redemption/Age Difference
Reunion/Secret Love
[The way he looks at her is never clear]
Copywriting 1:
Once upon a time, Wen Yan and Liang Yiye's CP became very popular.
She has been the heroine in many of his movies, and he has given her the position that no one else could ask for, and she has never had a kissing scene in any of his dramas.
The scandal between the two was once very popular
Netizen (Chigua): This is already the case, why are you still so stubborn?
Copywriting 2:
Wen Yan and Liang Yin remained hot at night
"Night Banquet CP" is full of sweetness in the super words, and the wives have written good articles for them.
[I heard that the night banquet was playing... They were having fun in a deserted place]
Later, after their combined variety show was broadcast, the Night Banquet CP became even more unstoppable, killing all the other CPs in one fell swoop.
Wei fans and CP fans fought fiercely, they firmly believed that it was all editing
Until the paparazzi suddenly released a video——
In the video, she was cornered by him
The man pressed his fingertips against the end of her red eyes and said in a hoarse voice, "You still refuse to take responsibility?"
She wanted to run, but was blocked by him, and the corners of her eyes became even redder with anxiety.
Video ends
The entire network was shocked and clapped their hands on the table angrily:
[Does it make sense to stop here and see for yourself? ! ]
No one knows that they have actually done the content in the fanfics.
"Play the shengxiao and have fun in a deserted place."
But it's just one night, and there will be no follow-up
Copywriting 3:
When Liang Yinye first returned to the Liang family, he liked to stay alone on the lawn in the yard.
It had just rained that day, and the air was full of moisture.
Her heart was empty, but he appeared at this moment, stretched out his hand towards her, and smiled gently: "Your skirt is dirty."
The pure white skirt is stained with mud.
——Later, he just wanted to transform into the mud and contaminate her
Small Theater
It is reported on the Internet that when Liang Yinye's new drama was filming an intimate emotional scene, the director went to visit the cast
That day, his face was gloomy and he spoke very little.
He was on the spot, insisting to witness it with his own eyes, but never said a word
And Liang Yinye disappeared for a whole day after filming that scene.
#The damp spring night trapped him like vines. In the embrace of the spring night, he loved wildly all his life
#My love is so reserved, but I pray that you can notice it
Reading Guide
1.1V1/SC/HE/Age Gap 3/Redemption
2. Director × Actress, no prototype
3. The male protagonist is white and black, mild and abstinent → morbid and paranoid
Every evening, Song Qingshi.
I don't really like reading current stories, and I don't even like current stories about chasing my wife in the crematorium. But I finally clicked on this book. I didn't read the chapters before the separation and jumped directly to around chapter 26. Fortunately, this is a book that can be read over and over again.
Fengxi, unfortunately, met such a family member. Without being loved and loved by her relatives, a little girl will be under great psychological pressure. Once her defense line collapses, she will fall into the abyss. She was also lucky. When she met Song Qing, he pulled her out of the abyss and embraced the world again.
If Song's mother had not stood in the way, perhaps their relationship would have been smoother.
But precisely because of the obstacles, I left my homeland every evening, met a good friend, stayed away from the hustle and bustle of the world, and found myself and life in front of nature.
Fengxi did it, free and shining, just like Song Qingshi's introduction to FX in the interview. Taoyao is not only Song Qing's love for Fengxi, but also Fengxi's worth.
In an accident, one person lost his memory, and the other suffered from the pain of longing.
It is fate to meet again. Song Qingshi finally met her long-awaited lover and deceived her by saying: We are lovers.
The misunderstanding between them is not because they don't love each other, but because he loves her very much, but she doesn't know; she loves him very much, but he is not sure. It is for this reason that in the later period, I was always happy and sad about the love between them, and I was unwilling to let their love path be detoured.
Lili's description of the relationship between Fengxi and Song Qingshi is very delicate, with a sense of sadness and melancholy. This is a text that I like very much. It is hazy, sad and graceful, and it can easily bring readers into the world of today and tomorrow. After the reunion, I basically cried once after reading a few chapters. I felt the injustice of fate to Song Qingshi and Fengxi. After crying, I continued reading, and then cried again. This is the charm of words and this book.
"Say goodbye to the show of people on earth and become a free wandering little monster." I like this sentence very much. Most people in the world want to shed their hypocrisy and live freely.
Stay away from the city every night, shuttle through the rainforest, stretch out in photography, live a wanton life, full of vitality and vitality.
Cutting off the relationship with the Shen family was a bad fate, and cutting it off was the only option. The wrong flower will never bear sweet fruit.
Regarding the description of the name of the perfume, it actually reflects the love story between the protagonists. Lili's Chinese must be very good.
Some people are warriors in love and charge for love; but some people are cowards in love and are timid because of love. This was how Song Qing was in love, but because they tasted the pain of timidity, they later became so brave and wanton.
Passing by your lover becomes a regret; being abandoned by your lover makes your soul lose temperature; waiting for your lover in longing and looking back from afar.
When you reunite with your lover, your soul warms up; when your lover returns, you jump for joy; the flowers on the street finally bloom.
The story is complete and the soul is immersed in the heat.
Taoyao, Yugui, from a young girl to a young woman, my love is called out in the world.
Every time Feng Xi sent photos, they were all beautiful things in the world, but what he left behind was terrifying darkness. This is love every night. My love is buried in the darkness.
Fortunately, the two finally met again, fell in love with each other, and finally achieved perfection with the blessings of people in the world.
I also like the titles of the chapters: hot flashes, low tides, waves, tsunamis, undercurrents, rising temperatures, heat surges, and kissing tides. They are true portrayals of the two of them, and the stars are bright after the cold.
While writing this review, I revisited the love story between Fengxi and Song Qingshi, and found that Lili's language is really good. There is a sense of echo between the beginning and the end in several places. When Song Qingshi deceived, he said that we were lovers, but in the end, it became a prophecy, and Fengxi responded that we are lovers.
The writing is really great, and some of the words are really beautiful. I want to make a small book of excerpts.
Life is a wilderness, not a track.
Fengxi did it, escaped the constraints of the track, and finally found the freedom and wantonness of the wilderness.
May we all be as free and as shining as Fengxi!
The above is a comment, and the following is some thoughts about me.
I read this book in May, May 13th.
May is a sad month. In May, I experienced the pain of failing to change majors. In June, I once thought about starting over. In the end, I remembered the words I encountered in the book, "Escape from the show of the earth and become a free wandering little monster", "Life is a wilderness, not a track", "The stars are shining brightly after the winter fades", etc. Although these words are just comfort, they really gave me the strength to have the courage to move on.
Fortunately, I met Fengxi before she encountered setbacks. I met Fengxi who still moved forward bravely despite hardships. She found herself. I also hope that everyone in the world can find what they love and be lucky enough to meet the right thing.
Wish you: Let's get through this now and be well now!
Regarding the if series, it can also be written as a dream series. It is the dream that the family had after seeing Shen Qingyou push the heroine. In the dream, they thought that they were back to the past and everything was very real. When they tried their best to make up for the heroine, the family was together with Meimei. When they woke up, the dream was broken. Everything they said was false, the hurt will always be there, and the gap will always be there. There will be no chance to reunite with the heroine's family for the rest of their lives.
Now it is 00:9 in the morning of July 29, 2023, and I have finished reading the entire text. This book is really good to read, the whole text is not too sad, and the rhythm is relatively comfortable. I personally like this setting better, but I haven't seen enough yet, so why is it over? I won't go into details. Then I wish our Song Qingshi and Fengxi a long life of love in your world, and Chen Yian and Chen Jingyi also want to be well!
(PS: Hello, I have finished reading. Ah, I didn't read enough. As a result, I lost it after reading it. Although I didn't read enough, I still want to say congratulations to you for finishing the full text. Spread flowers, sprinkle flowers, sprinkle flowers, sprinkle flowers, sprinkle flowers~)
The last two-chen story was too poorly written.
Spread flowers, I really like this book
Congratulations on the completion of "Baby Lili". I really feel sad to leave it. I hope Song Qingshi and Shen Fengxi in the parallel time and space will be happy. I am also very happy to know Lili, the author of "Baby Treasure". I hope I can accompany you in one new story after another?
Along the way to now, Ayao is growing, Lili is making progress, and I am getting better. You will remember the sentence in the article: life is not a track, but a wilderness. I wish Ayao, Lili, me, and all the book friends can fly freely on the road of life.
24.09.12 Everyone should always be happy [EYE][EYE]
Babies, the new book "Caught in the Spring Night" has been released, and you can click on the column~Come and take a look~Shirokiri Black×Fishing System/Redemption/Age Difference Reunion/Secret Love [The way he looks at her is never clear] Copywriting 1: Once upon a time, Wen Yan and Liang Yiye's CP became very popular. She has been the heroine in many of his movies, and he has given her the position that no one else could ask for, and she has never had a kissing scene in any of his dramas. The scandal between the two was once very popular Netizen (Chigua): This is already the case, why are you still so stubborn? Copywriting 2: Wen Yan and Liang Yin remained hot at night "Night Banquet CP" is full of sweetness in the super words, and the wives have written good articles for them. [I heard that the night banquet was playing... They were having fun in a deserted place] Later, after their combined variety show was broadcast, the Night Banquet CP became even more unstoppable, killing all the other CPs in one fell swoop. Wei fans and CP fans fought fiercely, they firmly believed that it was all editing Until the paparazzi suddenly released a video—— In the video, she was cornered by him The man pressed his fingertips against the end of her red eyes and said in a hoarse voice, "You still refuse to take responsibility?" She wanted to run, but was blocked by him, and the corners of her eyes became even redder with anxiety. Video ends The entire network was shocked and clapped their hands on the table angrily: [Does it make sense to stop here and see for yourself? ! ] No one knows that they have actually done the content in the fanfics. "Play the shengxiao and have fun in a deserted place." But it's just one night, and there will be no follow-up Copywriting 3: When Liang Yinye first returned to the Liang family, he liked to stay alone on the lawn in the yard. It had just rained that day, and the air was full of moisture. Her heart was empty, but he appeared at this moment, stretched out his hand towards her, and smiled gently: "Your skirt is dirty." The pure white skirt is stained with mud. ——Later, he just wanted to transform into the mud and contaminate her Small Theater It is reported on the Internet that when Liang Yinye's new drama was filming an intimate emotional scene, the director went to visit the cast That day, his face was gloomy and he spoke very little. He was on the spot, insisting to witness it with his own eyes, but never said a word And Liang Yinye disappeared for a whole day after filming that scene. #The damp spring night trapped him like vines. In the embrace of the spring night, he loved wildly all his life #My love is so reserved, but I pray that you can notice it Reading Guide 1.1V1/SC/HE/Age Gap 3/Redemption 2. Director × Actress, no prototype 3. The male protagonist is white and black, mild and abstinent → morbid and paranoid
Every evening, Song Qingshi. I don't really like reading current stories, and I don't even like current stories about chasing my wife in the crematorium. But I finally clicked on this book. I didn't read the chapters before the separation and jumped directly to around chapter 26. Fortunately, this is a book that can be read over and over again. Fengxi, unfortunately, met such a family member. Without being loved and loved by her relatives, a little girl will be under great psychological pressure. Once her defense line collapses, she will fall into the abyss. She was also lucky. When she met Song Qing, he pulled her out of the abyss and embraced the world again. If Song's mother had not stood in the way, perhaps their relationship would have been smoother. But precisely because of the obstacles, I left my homeland every evening, met a good friend, stayed away from the hustle and bustle of the world, and found myself and life in front of nature. Fengxi did it, free and shining, just like Song Qingshi's introduction to FX in the interview. Taoyao is not only Song Qing's love for Fengxi, but also Fengxi's worth. In an accident, one person lost his memory, and the other suffered from the pain of longing. It is fate to meet again. Song Qingshi finally met her long-awaited lover and deceived her by saying: We are lovers. The misunderstanding between them is not because they don't love each other, but because he loves her very much, but she doesn't know; she loves him very much, but he is not sure. It is for this reason that in the later period, I was always happy and sad about the love between them, and I was unwilling to let their love path be detoured. Lili's description of the relationship between Fengxi and Song Qingshi is very delicate, with a sense of sadness and melancholy. This is a text that I like very much. It is hazy, sad and graceful, and it can easily bring readers into the world of today and tomorrow. After the reunion, I basically cried once after reading a few chapters. I felt the injustice of fate to Song Qingshi and Fengxi. After crying, I continued reading, and then cried again. This is the charm of words and this book. "Say goodbye to the show of people on earth and become a free wandering little monster." I like this sentence very much. Most people in the world want to shed their hypocrisy and live freely. Stay away from the city every night, shuttle through the rainforest, stretch out in photography, live a wanton life, full of vitality and vitality. Cutting off the relationship with the Shen family was a bad fate, and cutting it off was the only option. The wrong flower will never bear sweet fruit. Regarding the description of the name of the perfume, it actually reflects the love story between the protagonists. Lili's Chinese must be very good. Some people are warriors in love and charge for love; but some people are cowards in love and are timid because of love. This was how Song Qing was in love, but because they tasted the pain of timidity, they later became so brave and wanton. Passing by your lover becomes a regret; being abandoned by your lover makes your soul lose temperature; waiting for your lover in longing and looking back from afar. When you reunite with your lover, your soul warms up; when your lover returns, you jump for joy; the flowers on the street finally bloom. The story is complete and the soul is immersed in the heat. Taoyao, Yugui, from a young girl to a young woman, my love is called out in the world. Every time Feng Xi sent photos, they were all beautiful things in the world, but what he left behind was terrifying darkness. This is love every night. My love is buried in the darkness. Fortunately, the two finally met again, fell in love with each other, and finally achieved perfection with the blessings of people in the world. I also like the titles of the chapters: hot flashes, low tides, waves, tsunamis, undercurrents, rising temperatures, heat surges, and kissing tides. They are true portrayals of the two of them, and the stars are bright after the cold. While writing this review, I revisited the love story between Fengxi and Song Qingshi, and found that Lili's language is really good. There is a sense of echo between the beginning and the end in several places. When Song Qingshi deceived, he said that we were lovers, but in the end, it became a prophecy, and Fengxi responded that we are lovers. The writing is really great, and some of the words are really beautiful. I want to make a small book of excerpts. Life is a wilderness, not a track. Fengxi did it, escaped the constraints of the track, and finally found the freedom and wantonness of the wilderness. May we all be as free and as shining as Fengxi! The above is a comment, and the following is some thoughts about me. I read this book in May, May 13th. May is a sad month. In May, I experienced the pain of failing to change majors. In June, I once thought about starting over. In the end, I remembered the words I encountered in the book, "Escape from the show of the earth and become a free wandering little monster", "Life is a wilderness, not a track", "The stars are shining brightly after the winter fades", etc. Although these words are just comfort, they really gave me the strength to have the courage to move on. Fortunately, I met Fengxi before she encountered setbacks. I met Fengxi who still moved forward bravely despite hardships. She found herself. I also hope that everyone in the world can find what they love and be lucky enough to meet the right thing. Wish you: Let's get through this now and be well now!
Regarding the if series, it can also be written as a dream series. It is the dream that the family had after seeing Shen Qingyou push the heroine. In the dream, they thought that they were back to the past and everything was very real. When they tried their best to make up for the heroine, the family was together with Meimei. When they woke up, the dream was broken. Everything they said was false, the hurt will always be there, and the gap will always be there. There will be no chance to reunite with the heroine's family for the rest of their lives.
Now it is 00:9 in the morning of July 29, 2023, and I have finished reading the entire text. This book is really good to read, the whole text is not too sad, and the rhythm is relatively comfortable. I personally like this setting better, but I haven't seen enough yet, so why is it over? I won't go into details. Then I wish our Song Qingshi and Fengxi a long life of love in your world, and Chen Yian and Chen Jingyi also want to be well! (PS: Hello, I have finished reading. Ah, I didn't read enough. As a result, I lost it after reading it. Although I didn't read enough, I still want to say congratulations to you for finishing the full text. Spread flowers, sprinkle flowers, sprinkle flowers, sprinkle flowers, sprinkle flowers~)
The last two-chen story was too poorly written.
Spread flowers, I really like this book
Congratulations on the completion of "Baby Lili". I really feel sad to leave it. I hope Song Qingshi and Shen Fengxi in the parallel time and space will be happy. I am also very happy to know Lili, the author of "Baby Treasure". I hope I can accompany you in one new story after another?
Along the way to now, Ayao is growing, Lili is making progress, and I am getting better. You will remember the sentence in the article: life is not a track, but a wilderness. I wish Ayao, Lili, me, and all the book friends can fly freely on the road of life.
24.09.12 Everyone should always be happy [EYE][EYE]
"Man" is a big thorn in the side of the author~