Ode to the Desolate Sea

Su Wan / Chu Huan (amnesiac, tragic, powerful eunuch seme) x Chu Yu / Gu Pu (mute, genuinely lovesick yandere uke)

You think the seme is a pervert, but the uke is actually the truly unhinged one.

The north wind stirs the frosty years; a solitary light, a heart and soul all ice and snow.

You are the end of everything, and the beginning of everything.

Su Wan had seen the old sword kept high out of reach at home. His grandfather was a great hero of righteousness in the tales everyone told, yet he was a taboo no one in the family was allowed to talk about.

But Su Wan still remembered his grandfather, and wanted to be like him, one man and one sword, earning a name for righteousness in Chang'an over a jug of wine.

He saved someone and paid a terrible price he could never have imagined.

Redemption that never comes, and a chance forever lost, are impossible to put behind you.

I still regret it so much. If I could choose again, I wouldn't choose you.

Chu Yu, don't make me feel it wasn't worth it.

Content warnings: Although they switch roles, it only happens once or twice in their entire lives.

The seme is not a virgin.

Not sweet, not doting.

No redemption. This seme is genuinely tragic and powerful, and doesn't need anyone to save him.

Updates when possible / aiming to keep it short / can't rule out the talkative author turning it into a long story.

The romance is emotionally devastating.

Though the author considers herself an expert at balancing the scales, this story... will lean more toward the seme.

Theme: Learning to live with yourself.