The Day of Godhood

"He got rid of himself, he got rid of me, and he didn't accept his fate. Where did he want to go?" This is the protagonist after becoming a god. If you ask Bai Cunye, who was placed in this world by him, you can also ask her this question. They all committed suicide by being murdered. She had a new name at every stage of her life. Before she immigrated, she was called Ito Hui, after she immigrated, she was called Takehara Hui. After marriage, she changed her husband's surname to Shiromura, and after she transferred her soul and body, she was called Shibuya Teru. The Holy Spirit gave birth to Bai Cunye and ruined her marriage, but this was not the main factor that led her to the final outcome. Her tragedy was that she was aware of the unfairness of her fate, and she could not bear the loss and could not bear this breath. Although she appeared neurotic, crazy, vicious, and insidious, she still remained rebellious until she died. Therefore, not only was she not a villain, she could even be said to be the hidden protagonist, Bai Cunye, who was worldly and passionate. The trajectory of her destiny is clear, and her self-narration and psychological activities are quite long. Every time she changes her name, it is a great change in her life. Her life is a process of crawling out of one valley, falling into another trap, and then escaping. Her first escape was a matter of luck. Her brother was sold to an age-restricted research institution instead of her. She was able to immigrate with her parents and obtain better education and survival resources. However, the shadow of poverty in her childhood and Lisa, whom she met as an exchange student, had a great impact on her. She was full of yearning for the children of a wealthy family. She was already ambitious, but now she could not bear the ordinary life, lack of material and life. As a partner with resources, between the drama boy who could satisfy the girl's romantic yearning and the superior family background Shiromura Kiyoshi who could satisfy the worldly material things, she chose the latter without hesitation, hoping that this marriage would be a springboard for her to move into a broader world and top circles. However, she ignored the will of the Shiromura family and overestimated her control over things, so the young she jumped into another trap, marriage and childbirth. After giving birth to her first child in extreme physical and psychological pain, she wasted nearly ten years and could barely pick up her previous achievements. The big stage of the world she dreamed of stepping on was getting further and further away from her, but she could still reach it after all. But just when she was regrouping, a second child appeared in her belly. The news that the end was coming was too shocking. Her dissatisfaction with the status quo, her hatred of her humble origins and her increasingly aging and weak body, plus the possibility at hand, gave her the idea of ​​transferring her soul. She managed to free herself. She used everything she could, including her two biological flesh and blood, and was as smart, shrewd and cruel as her name suggests. She has always lacked love, but she is too realistic and sober, and her eyes are above her head. Bai Cunqing loved her but also cheated her miserably. She should not think much of him until her death. She does not believe in love, only fame, wealth and power, and puts all her enthusiasm and energy on it. It's not that she has no conscience and doesn't love children at all, she just doesn't believe in those things. She only believes in herself. Her desires need to be satisfied and her regrets need to be made up for. She knows that as long as she has a little kindness as a woman, she will immediately be crushed in the mud by this cruel patriarchal world and never be able to stand up. She is not poisonous and has no husband, so even if she is soft-hearted, she only talks about it, which makes her look very hypocritical and cunning. She deceived everyone, took the body of a young girl she had never met, and lived a lie. Her love for Shiromura and Atobe was fictitious and real, and her intentions were genuine, and she was not ambiguous at all when she should use them. She stepped on others and escaped all the way, getting rid of her fate. She even got rid of herself and became someone else. Where did she want to go? Those unrealized dreams, that big stage that I don't know where I can never get on, those unattainable life values, those who were hurt and let down by her and those who failed to love correctly, she only wanted to get affirmation from the outside world. In fact, she didn't really believe in herself and believed that she could give full value to her life. She was selfish, but she didn't really love herself. She is actually a blindfolded fly. She understands everything, but she is limited to telling herself that she is just an ordinary person. She wants too much and cannot let it go once she picks it up. She wants to be even more greedy after she gets it. Her desires are insatiable and never satisfied. She is clearly and vaguely aware of it, so she accepts an undignified death when everything seems to be about to start. She must have experienced this kind of "moment when all good things are about to unfold" many times, and was deceived many times. After all, things went from bad to worse every time. So looking at her two lives, the happiest moment was this illusory "moment when all good things are about to unfold". Her life was fixed at this moment, which was the clearest choice in her life. As long as she lives, she will not be able to avoid the pain of greed, hatred and ignorance and resentment towards the fate of the world. At the end of her self-report, she still cursed in dissatisfaction. So where do Bai Cun and her want to get rid of themselves and their fate for the second time? My personal opinion is: not going anywhere. She can't win the game of fate, and Bai Cun can't lose, so they'll quit the server, delete their accounts, and stop playing. They finally have complete control over their own fate, so just let it be.

When I saw this for the second time, I discovered some details: Shibuya always has food on hand, indicating that it is often not full, implying an appetite and desire that cannot be filled. Shibuya believed in Buddhism, and named his two children "karma" and "mustard", both of which are Buddhist concepts. He wore Buddhist bead bracelets and wore a bodhi leaf headdress at the engagement party. Tsuruga also believed in Buddhism. The two people were in similar predicaments. They also did not take Buddhism seriously and neither was satisfied, but they chose completely opposite ways of dealing with it. Tsuruga decided to embrace the current life and reconcile with herself. However, she never stopped and was always pursuing. In the end, she used physical means to transcend herself. Her death in the bodhi leaf headdress is also quite meaningful. Shibuya loves and has a unique understanding of the stage play "Potion". She uses lines from "Potion" when confessing to Atobe and uses "Potion" as an example when explaining marriage to Shiromura. She should really like drama and invest in TV series. The love potion in "Potion" that changes the fate of the male and female protagonists corresponds to the Horus potion that changes her destiny. If there is no Horus potion and doomsday, just like what the protagonist sees in the parallel world, she will accept her fate and maintain a superficially happy marriage with Shiromura Kiyoshi. Shiromura praised her soul as a colorful bird, and Atobe's blood-cleansing fountain was in the shape of a bird with spread wings. Atobe took off her engagement ring and threw it into the pool, but she didn't wear the ring at all... In the end, the moment she fell in love with Atobe was the monologue at the end of the school festival stage play that resonated with her strongly. However, that monologue was spoken by Anka using Atobe's body, and she actually fell in love with the dog she was angry at and didn't want...

It's so complicated that I didn't understand it until the finale. I feel like my wife really knows a lot about religion, and she writes so well that she doesn't charge for it. Thank you for the creation, and thank you for the charity!

There are two points in life, past and present. The past has been tampered with by memory, and the future does not exist. Can only survive in this moment.

It has a very confusing sense of art. It feels like Atobe Keigo's mother is a time traveler. Looking at so many worlds, the protagonist may have something in him that can correct the wrong gender.

How long has this been over? What kind of trial is this?

Ahhhh, I saw Takato Saijo!

I seem to understand, but I don't seem to understand

Excited, so exciting, so awesome

I'm a little envious of Ye's character.