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Yu Yan got together with Cheng Shen when he was eighteen.
Their friends disapproved, saying same-sex relationships were unreliable enough without adding a long-distance relationship to the mix.
They made it through four years of being gay and long-distance without breaking up.
Their friends still weren't convinced, saying that even married couples hit the seven-year itch.+
They just laughed and put their love to the test, and still didn't break up.
At last, their friends gave in. They'd watched the couple outlast one pair after another, and gave them a thumbs-up. "Impressive. You two are definitely going to grow old together."
In the eighth year of Yu Yan and Cheng Shen's relationship,
Cheng Shen cheated. +
***Chapters 5-19 are flashbacks. Feel free to skip them if you don't like them.
***Reader advisory (2020.5.15)
(1) A realistic, angsty melodrama
(2) A nontraditional scumbag top and masochistic bottom
(3) Open ending, with no groveling pursuit of the lover
(4) The top cheats physically
(5) The flashbacks (Chapters 5-19) can be skipped without affecting the main plot
(6) The author isn't trying to get revenge on society. I wrote this to unwind and for my own enjoyment. Sorry if it upsets you.
The title comes from the song of the same name, Missing a Forgotten Name, by Chen Chusheng.
Original pen name: Tu Ba Ken
Sina Weibo: @Di Shi Qi Zhi Dafu
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Fang Zhixing debuted in South Korea and was briefly popular as the lead dancer of a boy band.
He posted pictures showing off his figure and dance moves, and casually played up CP rumors with his bandmates. He even had a few die-hard fans.
Just as the group was about to become a sensation, he unexpectedly announced that he was terminating his contract and leaving the band on the eve of a concert.
Faced with his bandmates' confusion and his agency's accusations, Fang Zhixing vanished without a trace, staying in hiding for five years.
Times changed in the blink of an eye, and stars came and went. Fang Zhixing's name was long forgotten, buried in some far-off corner of people's minds.
Five years later, a web drama came knocking. Fang Zhixing, who hadn't worked in ages, asked in confusion, "Are you out of your mind? Why would you come to me..."
His manager said, "It's a same-sex romance. Niche, sensitive, and most importantly, you're cheap."
A washed-up and cheap actor had no room to refuse.
After auditions and signing the contract, Fang Zhixing arrived for the script read-through before filming and was stunned. Why did the actor playing his boyfriend look so familiar?
The former lead dancer of Times awkwardly held out his hand. "Hello, I'm Fang Zhixing."
The former lead singer of Times raised his eyes and said coolly and proudly, "I'm giving you one chance to pursue me again."
Theme: The world is beautiful. Go out and see it.
Just stay here, be is good. I have seen many cases of chasing wives in the crematorium. Gong did something wrong and just chased her lightly. Shou was forgiven and the two of them reconciled as before and there is no longer any barrier. However, the reality is that it is impossible. Even if they reunite, the days to come will be a mess. Just like what Gong said to Shou after he was found cheating, he will be frightened in the future and constantly doubt whether the other party will remain loyal. As long as they are not together, they will doubt whether the other party is cheating. How much love they had in the past will lead to distrust in the future. I had an ex-boyfriend of seven years who cheated on me the next year.
After finally watching it, their love finally disappeared while getting along. Yu Yan has put it down, let me tell you about Cheng Shen in my eyes. Cheng Shen still loves Yu Yan, otherwise he would not suffer from misunderstanding and indifference. However, as he pursued his career step by step, his love faded. It's not that it doesn't exist but that love isn't that important anymore. If the cheating was discovered and Yu Yan firmly broke up after struggling, Cheng Shen would be in pain but not as painful as in the end. Because when he chose to cheat, he took the initiative. Not only was he prepared, but his love had already faded. But later, Yu Yan's pain and illness made him realize that his lover's love for him was so deep. It turned out that I was deeply loved. At this time, his love became stronger. The diary is really the final blow. It was severely shattered when love was the brightest, the deepest blow. But I watched it again later, and when I saw Dr. Fang saying to Cheng Shen, are you accompanying Yu Yan in treatment out of guilt, responsibility, or love, I was hit in the head. Yes, guilt and responsibility, his love for Yu Yan has become stronger again, but it is no longer pure, mixed with guilt and responsibility. This is also a broken love. Yu Yan can no longer trust him, and Cheng Shen can no longer simply give love. It is the most heart-wrenching thing to watch two people who love each other drift apart, and a pure love eventually change color.
I finally read the full text. I can't describe the feeling, it's just that I feel a little stuck. Fortunately, I finished watching the unpopular cp again, and I feel much better. The author's writing is really good. I don't want to get too entangled in the logic of love and cheating, because some things happen out of nowhere, and the whole story direction is completely normal, and it won't make people think it's fake at first glance. The soul of the characters in the novel is given by the author. It's the hardest thing to deal with if such a good author is not popular.
A typical low-level man. He should not be OE or BE. He will appear more open-minded. Such a dirty man will feel dirty even if he dies in the trash can.
How could Cheng be so shameless and say that he was chasing his boyfriend? If you pursue it without guilt, it doesn't matter whether you cheated or not, and you will cheat again next time. But with guilt, love is no longer pure. Over time, can you tell the difference between love and guilt? Isn't the conversation an insult? Don't look back. I know you love me deeply. Cheng is the person you have loved with your life. It is such a pure love, so cheating is not worthy of forgiveness.
The emotional turning point in the middle of the story is not well described, maybe because I am rushing to finish the article. At the same time, the characters are irritable and unable to control their emotions, and on the other hand, they are aloof and "rational" preaching. If the combination of the combination is not a bit fragmented, then it is a double standard player of Pua. The story is logical, but there is no need to project romantic fantasies on the characters. An ordinary man cannot afford pure love, so there is no need to have a bright future with the woman after "reforming". BE is enough, and OE leaves too much room. Who wants to watch ordinary men with bad habits fall in love? This ending is a bit of a pity from my perspective, because Shou's coming out is like a kind of self-motivated letting go, leaving a so-called "BE aesthetics", creating a melancholy runaway atmosphere, but Gong's character is not worthy of this atmosphere. What I hope for is that Shou will no longer be moved by any emotions. Because this is not a truly realistic novel after all, and Gong's character is really too realistic and looks like an inferior man, so overall I don't think highly of him and think he doesn't need to have an ending.
Although it is oe, I still think that it is be in my heart. This is great. The world is so big and vast. Go for a walk and experience a different life. Don't meet someone who hurts you again. Some people say that this relationship is a pity, but I personally think that be is the greatest respect for it.
It turns out that the love of a scumbag can also make me cry
I hope Yanyan can completely let go and meet someone new. Cheng Shen will love him to death. Cheating people are disgusting.
Choosing to take away three things should be evidence that Cheng once purely loved Yu.