Su Guo's Transmigration Journal

I love him with all my heart,

while he hates me to the core.

Should I love him enough to do whatever it takes to keep him by my side,

or let him go and fly far away with that woman?

Seeing him cry, how could my heart possibly be at peace?

I know that keeping him here would mean endless pain for both of us,

but I can't bear it... I can't bring myself to let go.

Every day, I hide beneath the tree and secretly watch him.

Seeing his face grow more and more haggard makes my heart bleed.

When he was critically ill, I was terrified I wouldn't be able to stop myself from going to him.

I still remember when he tried to take his own life last time. It will always be the most tragic memory of my life.

Lately, I've noticed that he can smile again,

his radiant smile and peach-blossom face just as innocent as when I first met him.

Has he forgiven me?

I want so badly to stroke his soft cheek again, to kiss his sparkling lips once more.

I want... I want so badly...