You Exist Deep in My Mind

What's it like to spend every day with a bunch of "underachievers"?

For three years, Xin Liang never had the courage to say what she felt about loving someone.

Love is compromise. Back then, Xin Liang wanted to meet someone who would be good only to her for the rest of his life. But when she met Lu Yang, who was good to every girl, she compromised.

Love is warmth. Even the worst side of Lu Yang let Xin Liang see the kindest side of the world.

But even the worst love in the world is only like this. When Lu Yang finally set aside all his reservations and confessed to Xin Liang, her lack of confidence overwhelmed her joy, and she took his words as a joke.

When Xin Liang finally gathered all her courage and confessed to Lu Yang, she learned that he was already with someone else.

When Xin Liang brought the thirty love letters she'd written over thirty sleepless nights to Lu Yang's classroom, she heard that he had dropped out. The letters had vanished, too.

Much later, when Xin Liang tried desperately to look back but could no longer find Lu Yang, she finally believed that he had really left.

Some departures seem to last a lifetime. Yet fate has a way of arranging a reunion for two people who have each found someone else.

That year, Zhang Ruan missed her chance with Jiang Yuan, and lost the person who would have treated her best in the world.

That year, Liu Chang pursued Xu Jin with all her might. After choosing to let him go, she never again met anyone who would stubbornly do anything just to make her smile.

And Xin Liang missed her chance with Lu Yang. From then on, she never met anyone like him again.

The worst of us walked hand in hand through the best three years of our lives here.