People often fall into darkness before realizing how precious the light is, reach a dead end before understanding they've taken the wrong path, and only regret things when the ending can no longer be changed.
Cheng Qi doesn't believe in love, not until she meets Jiang Shao.
"I'll give you all my youth. If that's what you want, I can give you my whole life, too. I don't need you to return my feelings. Just don't reject me."
After more than a decade of missed chances and mistakes, she finally understands that loving and being loved both come at a price and take immense courage.
She remembers the bright, adorable boy, Qin Huai, standing before her in silent anguish. "If I cried in front of you, too, would you finally be willing to remember me for the rest of your life?"
Cheng Qi's face is damp and salty with tears. As she thinks of the two boys, the pain feels so real she nearly faints. She hastily wipes away her tears. If I could start over, I wouldn't meet you again. If I could start over, I would never let you cry.
No one is watching. It's so funny.