After a long, long time, I discovered that I had always been very self-righteous. I always thought that what I did was right. The loneliness, helplessness and sadness were just the price of this belief. When I woke up one day, I realized that I had nothing left, and everything had already vanished into ashes due to my stupidity.
When I want to cry, I realize that there are no tears anymore. When I want to be happy, I realize that there is no smile anymore. Even death becomes so far away.
Even more distant is my lover.