The Palace Deep in the Forest

Back to my time and space It took me many days to write down my thoughts on this chapter of "The Forest". I still remember the day you told us to write "The Forest". I was instantly frozen in a certain clothing store because I was more afraid than surprised. After many things have happened, I know that many things will also end. Every time I think of this chapter, that conversation, and that Weibo post, they all come to mind. Parallel time and space, it is you who defined these four words for me. That conversation was not fake, not to convince us or anything, but this result has been lurking in our lives for a long time, and now we finally see its true face. That Weibo post directly confirmed every sentence. Parallel time and space have always existed, but they are directly connected to us for some reasons. As you said, he should have stayed in parallel time and space, but got a wrong start because of the intersection. 'Living in two time and space at the same time, but at each moment, my subjective consciousness only exists in one of the time and space. ' 'No one knows what [Zhang Yinxiu] means, and no one understands what I am recording. ' The other day you posted a clip from "The City That Never Sleeps". Regarding the two time and spaces, I have been wondering how to understand it. "The City That Never Sleeps" is about Zhang Yinxiu and himself in the orphanage. Being in a dream can also be seen as two time and space. So, now, Zhang Yinxiu and you are also in different time and space. I think I can understand that the subject's consciousness can only exist in one of the time and space, because I remember a sentence, 'I can completely travel to his time and space. ' When I thought about the meaning of [Zhang Yinxiu], I thought about many things. I thought about the first time you asked us about the meaning of [Zhang Yinxiu] in the copy, and how we answered at that time. I thought about the origin of the name [Zhang Yinxiu], which was changed from [Zhang Wanwei]. The biggest impression on me at first about this name change was that the name was less feminine. Because [Zhang Yinxiu] is a boy. I thought of a comment on a certain Weibo. Zhang Xiu is stronger than Rao Shu, and people will not worry about being unable to withstand the harm. I thought of Zhang Yinxiu's world. There are many characters in Zhang Yinxiu's world, such as Aunt Rong, Lu Sen, S, doctors, assistants, the Second King, Wu Wen... So the appearance of these characters is not completely meaningless. Even though they may not have prototypes, they are still of great significance. Aunt Rong represents the love and care for your hands, the family doctor represents the eternal care for your stomach and your body, and the two kings represent your ideals and hobbies... This world is really huge. Although there are not many characters, each one makes me feel so important. In Zhang Yinxiu's world, he is not alone, he has many roses guarding him. In Zhang Yinxiu's world, he was an orphan and suffered too many inhumane treatments, but in the end he succeeded in stamping them out. There are no adoptive parents, just a sister. He is not alone, he has Aunt Rong. Therefore, I said that day [Zhang Yinxiu] that he is a life, existing in a parallel time and space, protecting you and living in the second dimension as we know it. Someone protects Zhang Yinxiu, and Zhang Yinxiu protects you. You said you have Zhang inside, yes. Because he is invincible and the strongest existence in your heart. So, after thinking over and over again, I could only think of this. I have always known that the only person who understands me best is myself. At this moment, I really hope that there is someone who can understand you. Because you are really lonely, even the person who understands you best was created by you. I sincerely hope to understand you better in the days to come. If not, I pray that someone can. Because you need to be understood so much. Idiot Lusen Isn't the word "idiot" exclusive to Lu Sen? It really makes people feel extremely distressed. 'You are still an existence engraved by me in this time, space and life. ' Can I understand this sentence as the reason why when that world began to fade, you still chose to move forward with Lu Sen. Although Lu Sen is a dead existence in Zhang Yinxiu's world, this arrangement always reminds me of a saying that dying in the best years is a luxury. No matter who it is, the meaning of Lu Sen cannot be simply expressed. When the pause button is pressed on this relationship at the most beautiful moment, will he always love his smart brother, Wei Wen? Rather than parting ways in reality. Seeing the words from the previous copy appearing here, I really like these words. Black words kill white paper, thoughts will never be demagnetized. I will think that W killed L, and W misses L forever. What could that nameless bloody battle be? Could it be that car accident? I don't think I could have imagined it at the moment. Will Lu Sen be left in Zhang Yinxiu's world forever? Will the small skylight travel to that time and space? I just feel extremely sad at the moment, because I still left Zhang Yinxiu in that parallel time and space, that desert without roses. However, I also understand that this is the right approach. Because Zhang Yinxiu is not Zhang Wei. What I am facing now is Zhang Wei. It is also Zhang Wei who I will work hard to protect in the future. Zhang Yinxiu will always remain in my mind, and Zhang Wei will always live in my world. From sitting in a shopping mall with people coming and going and writing by hand to holding the computer to finish it, after many twists and turns, it finally comes to an end. Maybe there are still many ideas that have not been sorted out, and maybe the words are still so confusing. But the only thing that is clear is my heart for you. Boss, no matter you are Zhang Yinxiu or Zhang Wei, my heart still loves you. I will stay with you. Don't say never, because I want to show you. Watch us go through the day.

I know you will die eventually Confused, impatient, shocked, wary. Did Lu Sen appear again because he made some decisions and came to say goodbye? As I typed this sentence, I suddenly felt very sad. 'Did I miss the date or are you lost? ' 'I haven't seen you in all this time. ' Why can't I always dream about someone when I miss them so much? I still remember the last time you asked us on Weibo if we had dreamed about you. There was a time when I often dreamed about you, and a time when I couldn't dream about you. It happened that day I saw a sentence "If you dream about someone, it means that this person has forgotten you." At that time, I scoffed at this sentence. I dreamed about you. Is he forgetting me? The most ridiculous thing in the world. Today, I accidentally watched a video. About the last goodbye before forgetting. A princess fell in love with the hero, but in order to save him she had to forget everything. Before her memory completely disappeared, someone asked her to embrace her last happiness and love. At this moment, I am so sad, which probably has something to do with this scene, I think. Lu Sen did not answer the question about why he did not meet as scheduled. Instead, he answered the question and said not to drink. Because he couldn't answer that question. I think maybe after this time, missing appointments or getting lost will happen more often. What it means to not be able to see Lu Sen often, I think, I cannot guess. But the admonition is obvious. We cannot see you again, so please cherish us. 'You want to drink. ' 'There are times when people want to be stupid. ' Be stupid. Indulgence. Yes. I've been drinking since I was very young. Because I have a father who loves to drink. It wasn't until I was in elementary school that my dad stopped letting me drink because my friends said drinking would make me stupid. So, I didn't touch any alcohol for a long time. Drinking has also become a bit repulsive to me. But slowly I discovered that drinking is quite fun. One drink can relieve a thousand sorrows. 15G of alcohol, ten years of life. The doctor is not being alarmist. It's your body that really can't handle it. Maybe the doctor has prepared some alternatives. If you want to drink, just eat a candy. Sane and proud Some people say that it is impossible for Leo people to bow their heads because they are born kings. And so are you. We have been facing losses, big and small, all our lives, but you are different. From the moment you were born, you have faced far more losses than we have, and every loss is far more painful than we thought. Family affection love family health ideal master and servant Play the piano to the point where you can't perform and enjoy it in the audience Too talented to be designed to watch a show He is so kind-hearted that he cannot avoid conflicts all the time. Every step is full of blood and tears, but you never let anyone see it. They are all buried deep in your heart. The weight that has disappeared, the rebuilding of the House of Usher, the forced advance, the painful change. If you can't change, you will die. It's like a comment about a radio drama. You never stop to change. I am looking forward to your change, but I am also sad that you will change. Because every change is accompanied by pain that I can't understand. [Maybe memories do not belong to life but they definitely belong to life] People cannot live in their own memories forever, but those memories are their past lives. Wu Wenshou outside your house is really great. Suddenly I wanted to say, Master, just live like this for the rest of your life with Wu Wen. With him here, everyone feels at ease. Of course, I was also suddenly curious about whether Wu Wen successfully introduced you to his friends in the end. The quilt contains my dream. Yes, I believe it. A hug before I had time, holding the quilt like this is better than nothing. Can't forget. Can't get dirty. Memories themselves are dirty. Some very heavy words weighed on my heart and I was speechless. I wish you nothing but the best.

That day I was excerpting a Zhihu screenshot saved from the space, and I accidentally saw the small words under the person's avatar, which should be a signature [Why so serious? ] I was stunned at that time, with mixed feelings in my heart and wanted to cry.

Happy New Year's Eve (*^▽^*) What kind of wish should I make? I lack imagination and can't seem to think of anything else besides wanting you to be healthy and happy. But Zhang Zhang has always been smart and witty, and I believe you will be able to expand the specific content from "health and happiness". The process of realizing your wishes is always arduous, but if you talk enough, it might come true =w= No matter where you are, may all things treat you well

Come on, live a good life. I'm sorry I never understood you. I hope there will be such a person in the future.

It has been so many days, almost a month, and every time I stand at the door, I dare not come in and see the last chapter of the forest. I have cried and laughed. The great courage and the strength to move forward are all given by Zhang Yinxiu. Well, I can't say how I feel now. Anyway, here I am. On this sultry night with no wind, no stars and moon, I walked in. In fact, I don't dare to face my inner expression. Well, I see there are still many roses and many geniuses guarding you, and I am very happy for you, Lu Sen. Well, Lu Sen is also the part that I dare not re-examine, the little angel, Zhang Yinxiu's little angel. Forget it, stop talking, it's too late, life will go on, slowly fulfill your promise to Zhang Yinxiu. Goodbye. Zhang Yinxiu. I hope I will have the courage to get to know Zhang Wei.

I have been busy with exams these days and I don't know what to say, but one thing has never changed. I wish you well.

On the day when you said your farewell words, I resolutely said, "I will not live forever until I am buried in peace." Before that, I always thought that I had forgotten you. Here, I am a little similar to you. No matter how much I once cherished something, once it is tarnished, even if it is just a little bit, I will resolutely throw it away, no matter what its previous status was. It's a little far-fetched, so let's bring it back. I always thought that I had forgotten you, but my words and deeds during that period, when I think about it now, have integrated everything about you, everything I know about you, and everything you have taught me into my blood and flesh. So, I am back, and you have one more rose. I love you, Zhang Wei.

What's wrong, Zhang Yinxiu, I still stubbornly believe that if we meet in this almost real time and space, I am afraid that I will have all the luck in my life. Because of you, for the first time in a long time, I felt the passion of seriously waiting for someone, the infatuation of worshiping someone openly and wantonly, wanting to tell the world that you are the only one, and wanting to tell everyone about my encounter with you. Zhang Zhang, time and space continue, you and I will never be separated, everyone has their own hurdles to overcome, I hope you will come to face the dawn and become my belief. I bless you.

Be kind to yourself at all times. If some people, things, or things bring more sorrow than happiness, then abandon them. We only need to be responsible for our own lives, and don't wrong ourselves to meet other people's requirements. What does other people's lives have to do with us?