"Nansen,
I hope this letter finds you well!
Nini will be starting kindergarten soon. At her age, her understanding of kindergarten is nothing more than the excitement and curiosity of carrying a new backpack, bringing new books, and meeting new classmates. She wrapped her new books neatly in colored paper, then carefully wrote her name in pinyin, her expression solemn. Ayuan said she looked a little like you. Every day I wonder what expression you would wear if you saw Nini. I am frightened and have nowhere to turn with these feelings. Ever since I first began to understand love, I have tried to shape myself according to your preferences, but in the end, you never fell for me. Perhaps it was because I wasn't her that you couldn't love what I loved. Now I am raising your daughter according to all the hopes I ever had for a daughter. Would you love her? Or, because of me, would you dislike what I love?
August X, 2015"
Update soon!! Waiting for you(?ω?)! Haha? I hope it's not too cruel