If You Were a Parasitic Vine

The last chapter is a little rushed, especially the last sentence. If you do too much reading comprehension, you will think too much. This is the reason why many people think it is a bit scary, but in fact it should not mean that. The first time I read it was many years ago, I didn't feel it at the time. The second time I read it is now. It is true that it is easy to overthink after seeing the end. For example, did Xia Rou violate herself and integrate into the Xia family in order to repay her kindness. But thinking about it more carefully, there are some details that show that Xia Rou liked Cao Yang in her previous life. The doctor asked Xia Rou if she liked her eldest brother, and she answered that she was not worthy. At that time, I was very surprised why when Wei asked Xia Rou that she liked Cao Yang, she answered "I don't know." I found out later because she didn't know if Cao Yang was still the eldest brother. She liked the eldest brother, but Cao Yang was not necessarily the eldest brother. It was not until Cao Yang said the same thing as the eldest brother that she was sure that Cao Yang was the eldest brother. All the questions she asked Cao Yang were to confirm whether Cao Yang was the eldest brother. For example, if she had a gloomy and awkward personality, would he still like her, because she didn't know if the eldest brother liked her? Did eldest brother confess his love when he got divorced in his previous life? Before she developed psychological problems, she came to the conclusion that Cao Yang and her eldest brother were two different people. Then she began to feel extremely painful, because she thought she could make up for the past, but she found that her eldest brother was left in another world forever, and he may have liked her, but he never confessed because he misunderstood that she was with her fourth brother. She deduced this, but she could no longer know. The key point to figure it out is that Cao Yang said the same words as in her previous life, so she thought Cao Yang was the eldest brother. Of course, there is a worrying point here, that is, this may be Xia Rou grabbing every straw in order to save herself, and come back to think first, When she thinks Cao Yang is the eldest brother, she will find a fulcrum for all the things she has done before. She is very afraid that what she has done will lead to bad results. When she discovers that the biggest change from her previous life is that Cao Yang has changed, she is very afraid. It was very painful, but later she found out that Cao Yang actually liked her in her previous life, and Cao Yang was also the eldest brother in her previous life. It was precisely because of everything she had done in this life that Cao Yang confessed her love, and she finally felt at ease. As for why Cao Yang didn't confess his feelings in his previous life, but chose to get married. First of all, Cao Yang should have liked Xia Rou before getting married. So Wang Man didn't like Xia Rou because she knew her husband liked Xia Rou. So why wasn't Cao Yang overbearing in his previous life? It's because Xia Rou in her previous life was a particularly paranoid, sensitive, and fragile girl. Cao Yang was worried that his love would overwhelm her, so he chose to get married early, but later divorced. But in this life, Xia Rou was lively and cheerful, and Cao Yang had less worries in this regard. Xia Rou always felt that it was because of Cao Yang that she was not with Wang Man in this life, but in fact it was her change that saved Wang Man from a painful marriage. What many readers find scary is that they think that Xia Rou regards Cao Yang as her eldest brother to repay her kindness, so she likes him and integrates into the Cao family. But it is not the case. Of course, the article here is a bit abrupt, because Xia Rou's love for her eldest brother was too vague, and I basically didn't find it. It wasn't until the doctor asked her later that she didn't say she didn't like it, but that she didn't dare to be unworthy, and then I realized that she liked her eldest brother in her heart, but she felt that the gap was too big so she didn't dare to have the slightest idea. The last chapter had the feeling that the mood changed too quickly, so I am not sure whether Xia Rou has closed herself off or not. It would be clearer if this transformation process could be written down, but if it is not written, it is still possible. However, there is no doubt that people are born to protect themselves. Xia Rou's psychological recovery is the result of her wanting to save herself. The article also said that she was very cooperative in finding a doctor. But I think if Xia Rou really closes herself, she also closes her guilt for her eldest brother in her previous life, trying hard not to think about the pain of her eldest brother in her previous life, and trying to make herself feel that there is time to make up for it, but it is definitely not because Xia Rou does not love her eldest brother (the love here is the love between lovers)

I watched it again after many years. Although the background has been changed a bit and I don't know what to say. I can only make up the previous background in my mind, but it still gives me a new feeling. When I watched it for the first time, I felt that Big Brother was the same big brother, but there were slight differences in circumstances. This time, I deeply felt that the difference between the two generations of Big Brother was actually quite big. The eldest brother in the second life has a bigger ego, more inflated self and desire. When facing the relationship with Xiaorou, he doesn't have so much worries, and he doesn't have so much scruples about Xiaorou's feelings. The eldest brother in the first life, in addition to love and pity, also has deep concerns and restraint. He is still a macho man, but his restraint makes him more charming. Put in Xiaorou, who can face the regrets of the first life without being depressed [laughing and crying] almost to death from depression. Moreover, the eldest brother in the first life can touch Xiaorou's heart more, while the eldest brother in the second life sees her obedience and gentleness. The eldest brother in the first life can see the kindness and gentleness in her heart from the rebelliousness and vanity on the outside. In fact, the two souls are closer. Back to Xiaorou, she hasn't changed. She was actually very kind in her first life, but she was just sensitive and had low self-esteem and wanted to be recognized. But after working hard and not getting it, she became even more internally frustrated. But as you get older and more mature, you can become more self-consistent, but you died young. The second life had psychological problems from the beginning. She was full of a sense of atonement and felt that she had done something wrong. But she herself died, but she wanted to atone for her sins from her elder brother... She was very kind and easily blamed herself for all the mistakes. All in all, the article is very fresh and moving, with plenty of blank space for aftertaste. It is like a song and a story, and it tells a somewhat clichéd story so movingly.

What does the last paragraph mean? I came back in mourning clothes... And got married again in a wedding dress. What does it mean to die and what is reborn? Also, are their whole family members Shen Jingbing? An orphan girl has been living in your house since junior high school and ends up marrying her adopted brother who is 14 years older than her? No one thinks it is morally corrupt or disgusting. And all the men who appear in this article, except for the perfect senior boyfriend who is deliberately portrayed by the author, all the other men are disgusting in the relationship between the sexes. They only have the desire for control, sex, and interests, but no love. Do you think eldest brother is truly in love? In the previous life, the eldest brother didn't take action because of conflicting interests, the heroine was too prickly, and the heroine's reputation was not good and they couldn't be together. The female protagonist in this life perfectly fits the male protagonist's star pi, so she was forced to do so at the age of 20. The heroine believes that her eldest brother cares for her out of a bond that transcends blood and love and is the pillar of her value. In her previous life, due to her low self-esteem and oppression from her fiancé and her biological father, she would put her support on the illusory social status. In this life, she has made progress and received more love. She thinks this is what she deserves, so she is mentally healthy. As a result, she thought that the person who loved her unconditionally was just out of love, just like what Cao's father did to her mother that night many years ago, and she couldn't reconcile herself. Xia Rou actually has a mental disorder. She hates close contact out of coercion or from someone of higher status When she wanted to leave the Cao family, she was saving herself. She also had a certain degree of mysophobia in her relationship with the Cao family. She felt that she was not the same person as them, so she wanted to thank them and then downplay the relationship. She planned to live in the world as an independent social person, but Brother Cao didn't allow it. Going abroad was the second time to save herself, but she was confused. Cao being the eldest brother means that she can live an edgy life, and Cao being the husband means that she has to live obediently. But she has always secretly hoped that she could live a free and ordinary life. Finally, under the brainwashing of the doctor and the Cao family, she gave up on herself in the hotbed of wealth in the past ten years. Whether it was the sharp-edged self with strong self-esteem in the first life, or the self that insisted on universal values ​​rather than capital values, she gave up. (PS, in fact, she was right in the first life. Everyone did look down on her, but because of her elder brother's petty thoughts towards her, others would not do anything to her on the surface. But at that time, social bullying was pervasive!) The dodder flower represents dependence on others and loss of self. In the last part, Xia Rou was mourning for herself.

Full horror story Reading the novel at this age, it is obvious that the author's deliberately created patriarchal environment has harmed the heroine. Regardless of the previous life: the heroine wanted to obtain the identity of the Cao family, but was not recognized because of this "unconsciousness" It's still this life: the heroine was reborn with the "self-knowledge" of being content and not asking for extravagant things, but instead gained recognition and became "Xia Rou of the Cao family" I didn't expect this when I was reading the novel, but when I woke up after a nap, I thought of other romance novels. Most of the people who live in a wealthy family and become adopted daughters because of their relationship with the previous generation will not have a good end. This kind of tear in identity and environment can easily lead to people's extremes, either extreme honesty and low self-esteem, or extreme desire for money and power. Therefore, Xia Rou in both lives actually had a bad life. "Only depressed people will cry when they are drunk." Cao Yang was still sad and uncomfortable and didn't know why this happened (so ironic) Xia Rou is actually a puppet version of He Lili who is in a better situation and is self-aware and obedient because of her rebirth. She has never fought for what she wants in this life. After her first escape failed (even if the reason at this time was for the Cao family), she even asked Cao Xiong to escape for the second time. This is not a real escape. The portrayal of the Cao family in this article is more meaningful. Cao Xiong, a feudal patriarch, has four sons, Cao Yang, the eldest brother, Cao Bin, who talks less and thinks more, Cao Xing, a plush man, and Cao An, a gay man. The characters are very typical, but they are all products of the same patriarchal template. The plush man even seems to have a confusing weakness: aloofness. The character is actually a plush man in private, which is like a cute point, but in this article, Cao Xing is described as a plush man. It seems that he was miserable when his father threw away all his toys and was beaten. In the middle, it is mentioned that "even Cao Xing, who is a plush man, is also a playboy." This is a sudden turn of horror, and it is bloody and torn apart. Cao An, who had the best relationship with Xia Rou in his previous life, had a boyfriend who had been separated for more than ten years. At first, he thought it was a cliché BL supporting role CP. Later, it was discovered that this pair was also mixed with a series of sadomasochism plots in the early days, such as the boss who could not resist the father and the boyfriend's company was destroyed. The difference is that the boss wanted to do it on his own, while Cao An could not resist his father doing this. Even Xia Rou himself knew early on that he "cannot resist". The patriarchal environment is everywhere in this story. One is that the male protagonist Cao Yang is the feudal eldest brother of Mingchu, and the other is the feudal father of the previous generation who has a weak presence but can suppress Cao Yang. Everyone is in this set of power levels, everyone in this circle, so wherever the heroine goes, she is affected by this set of levels of power. At family banquets, schools, and when someone refuses a relationship, people will run away in shame at the door... In the end, Xia Rou completely became "Xia Rou of the Cao family". The most terrifying part is that the author did not ask Cao Yang to make any promises, and Xia Rou's thoughts were no longer in the last chapter (although it was also in the third person before, Xia Rou had a lot of psychological activities). Xia Rou's state was viewed from the perspective of a bystander, even a little obvious. It's from Cao Yang's perspective. Cao Yang "thinks" Xia Rou is getting better. He watches her run into the house happily. The last scene of a magical and happy family of six is also from the perspective of men. Xia Rou's heart is never mentioned again. It seems that there is no more. In her pain, she has brainwashed herself into a Xia Rou who will always be with the Cao family.

I have read this book no less than four times, and if I read the comment section many times, I still want to write down my own thoughts (although I may get criticized) As the person who is most like Cao Xiong, Cao Yang, I actually don't really believe that Cao Yang would cheat. The heroine here is completely a spoiled wife. She is beautiful but powerless, thoughtful but also has no ability to resist. Carefully recalling the praise given to the heroine in this book, she is probably kind-hearted, kind-hearted, thin-waisted, innocent, and self-aware. Such a heroine is not in line with the thinking of our current era, but this kind of heroine hits what Cao Yang likes. From when Cao Xiong met Cheng Wan's weak look, he was thinking whether to marry a wife or a woman who could support the family, to when he whipped Cao An and told him that he had worked hard for half his life but would not let his son borrow the power of his father-in-law. From here, we can actually see that if Cao Xiong had not been a grassroots back then, there is a high probability that he would have fallen in love with a woman like Cheng Wan. Cao Yang has been receiving a lot of attention since childhood and has always been the best in the circle, so he doesn't actually care about his wife's background and status. Before he realized that he liked Xia Rou, he just thought that it would be fine to marry a well-matched wife who was not annoying, just like everyone in their circle did. I think Cao Yang likes Xia Rou very much. His kindness to Xia Rou when he was an elder brother is not fake. Although his character does not match the character of our heroine as an innocent little white flower, everyone understands Gao Ganwen. I admit that some plots, such as the heroine discovering that the hero is doing that kind of thing, are relatively vulgar, but I think it is actually a big turning point. It is the first time that the heroine feels so strongly that the big brother in her heart has become a man, although she is quickly ignored. Having said all that, I still think Cao Yang will be a man with a sense of responsibility for his family. This is his OOC. I don't know if the author's statement that he will cheat is true or not, because I didn't find any screenshots. Those who say that Cao Yang will have sex outside without cheating, I don't know who Cao Yang would have sex with. This book is obviously a book with men as the center of power. Could it be that he is having sex with men? Of course, everyone has their own opinions (don't criticize me) Another couple, Cao An and He Chengzhe, this couple gave me a feeling of hatred and love in the past life. Although the ending is not specified, I think there is a high probability that it will be about breaking up. It makes me feel sad, a pair with great staying power! I really want to see Cao An resist! But he actually doesn't even have Xia Rou's courage. What makes me feel the most sad is actually this Yaozi. I wouldn't be so sorry if he took up his responsibilities but was eventually forced to break up. He just gave up silently... Although, He Chengzhe's ending will be better... I have always felt that I am unclean, but this book is my exception. I don't know why I like to read it so much. Many people say that this book has three problems, but I really like to see the growth line of the heroine (maybe some people think that the heroine is useless at all). I like to watch her when she is reading, when she is reviewing seriously, when she is holding black tea and basking in the sun... I also like Cao Bin and Cao Xing, not because of their characters themselves, but because the heroine likes them. 1

The heroine's mind is like that of a child from beginning to end, and she has not grown. It can also be said that her environment and everyone around her did not want her to be independent, nor did they cultivate her ability to be independent. As for the heroine, her self-awareness is pushed back every time it rears its head. It corresponds to the title of the book, Cuscuta Flower. There was no female figure in her life who played a positive role in her. It is also a power drama deliberately arranged by the author, how to plunder a person's self-awareness, and ultimately lead her to ultimate destruction.

When I read this novel for the first time and saw the ending, I felt very uncomfortable, but it was hard to tell what was wrong. After reading the comment section, I finally discovered that I read the novel with the subjectivity of the female protagonist. No matter how strong and powerful the male protagonist is, he exists for the female protagonist, which is the so-called tool person attribute. But at the ending of this article, I found that I could no longer see the heroine. Her subjectivity disappeared horribly. She disappeared in the process of integrating into the Cao family. The Cao family and herself felt that this was a kind of self-help. To say that integration is actually to kill self-awareness. Is it really a coincidence that she is wearing the same black clothes as at the beginning? Or subconsciously paying tribute to oneself. To be honest, I don't care if the eldest brother can do CG, because the heroine has become a real dodder now, I don't think she cares anymore

I was so depressed when I read this article a few years ago. I thought about it and read the ending again a few days ago. Now I suddenly come to comment because I suddenly realized a sad fact. When I read the ending of this novel, I was enveloped in depression throughout. Through the words, I felt the heroine's depression, confusion, discomfort, pain, struggle, the disappearance of hope and belief, and the loss of self-beautification. In the process of self-brainwashing, we felt great depression and helplessness between the lines, and were always immersed in uncontrollable sadness. However, after I recovered for a while, I realized that I felt so many emotions in this article. Why was there no anger in Dudu? When I found out, I felt a great sadness. The heroine lost her anger in this family atmosphere, and no one would realize that something was wrong, because everyone asked her to be obedient and well-behaved. The anger came from being unfairly treated, and from wanting to resist and fight in the face of injustice. The heroine's loss of anger under the patriarchy meant that she permanently lost her perception of injustice and her desire to resist (that is, her thoughts). We weren't [covering our faces and laughing] [covering our faces and crying] sad.

Let's blame Cao An. If it weren't for the misunderstanding caused by this kid's lack of responsibility and courage, the eldest brother and Xiarou would never have been together in the previous life. Of course, I am older and I don't like men and women when reading novels. Because of this misunderstanding, I missed [A Dog's Head Holds a Rose]. In my opinion, this kind of misunderstanding that the author really wants to solve is just a matter of one sentence. After all, Cao Yang was in a high position, so it was difficult to see through this and it would lead to misunderstandings. Apart from the idea that the authorities were obsessed with it, it was difficult to explain anything else. Otherwise, all the swords and swords in his career would be enough for Cao Yang with such an IQ. The two of them missed each other unexpectedly... This tells us that we can't be entangled, and we should rush forward. We just need to talk openly about it. Of course, I agree with the author's statement that the past and present lives are not the same person. Different experiences, different memories, of course they are different people. The eldest brother and Cao Yang are two people, but their personality background is the same. With such a good personality background, Xiabou should at least be able to live a good life after marriage. There is a characteristic in the text on the sleeve. The male protagonist is very similar to their father. Tan Hua Lang looks forward to a good wife and beautiful concubine just like his father. The male protagonist Lang Hui is a love interest like his father. The second male protagonist Quan Huan is as ruthless and scumbag as his father. This Cao Yang also looks like Cao Xiong. What is Cao Xiong like? He is a macho man who loves children and is responsible. He is a feudal patriarch and is good to his partner. So I don't think Cao Yang can do CG like this. There's no guarantee that he can do it on the fly, but CG is basically impossible (if it really develops according to the logic of the character's thinking) (hahaha, but I don't rule out the bad taste of Xiuxiang. According to Xiuxiang's belief in love and not the urine of human nature, give Cao Yang an OOC CG [dog head]) As for whether it is he or be, it all depends on the shrimp's point of view. If she is still addicted to her past life and doesn't move forward, let go, or let herself go, then it will definitely be. If the shrimps were no longer tangled and cherished the people in front of them, I think they would be he. From the last chapter, after Cao Yang said the same thing as his elder brother, Xiārou began to fuse the two people. I think Xiārou really wanted to save himself. She had high self-esteem and low self-esteem in her previous life. In fact, this mentality is very unhealthy and makes her life very tiring. At the same time, my sense of compatibility was too low, so I never considered the possibility of being with my eldest brother. But I think if Xiabou gradually stops feeling inferior after seeing her own heart clearly, she and Cao Yang will also be happy. The eldest brother is Cao Yang's control group, and Xiarou may cherish the relationship with Cao Yang more because of his relationship with the eldest brother.

This is probably my third or fourth read. I read it for the first time when I was in high school. At that time, I would only read this book as a simple love story about rebirth, just like the boss and the little white flower. The heroine smoothed out the thorns on her body, so she and the male protagonist became positive, so I thought it was a warm and sweet story, and I quite liked it; the second time It seemed like I was in college. After replaying it, I suddenly felt a sense of depression, but I couldn't explain what it was. I just suddenly felt that the heroine was not happy. The third time was after graduation. One day, I suddenly opened it up and rewatched it. I looked carefully and discovered something that I had not noticed before. Suddenly I felt a little creepy. In the previous generation, the heroine was strong and had an awkward personality, but the eldest brother always stayed by her side and did not reveal his love even at the last moment. In this generation, the heroine is obedient, but Cao Yang is so strong that he presses forward step by step, revealing everything, causing the heroine to collapse and become ill in the later stage. Two lives have two outcomes. Even if you are reborn, you cannot find the same person as in the previous life. The ending seems to be harmonious and beautiful, but for the reborn heroine, it is like a sacrifice. Wow, I wrote a lot of messy stuff, but after reading this book, I really had mixed feelings. I will probably read it again in a few years, and maybe I will have different ideas at that time. Anyway, thank you to the author for the work, it is very powerful.