In My Heart and Out of It

I saw someone saying that this be is inevitable. In fact, as a person who does not accept that multiple personalities are different people, my understanding is that Mo Yanjia and Zuo Xiaomeng are the same person. What Dou Xiya fell in love with was a part of Zuo Xiaomeng, and what Boss Bai fell in love with (?) Was also a part of Zuo Xiaomeng. Therefore, as long as everyone can accept polygamy, the three of them can live happily (?) Together.

She struggled but had to give up. This was Mo Yanjia's last choice, a powerless choice. When she left, there was only a trace of fatigue and relief and nostalgia in her eyes - attachment to the woman she had to give up. At the last moment, Dou Xiya became her biggest reluctance, even surpassing Zuo Xiaomeng. She knew that Bai Yinghan would take care of Zuo Xiaomeng, but no matter who was with Dou Xiya in the future, it would not be her. She became a passerby in her life, even if it left a deep impression on her. The unforgettable impression can only be a passer-by Mo Yanjia slowly closed her eyes and disappeared, but Dou Xiya could only stand aside. What followed was a deep feeling of powerlessness. She looked at Mo Yanjia as if the wind could not be caught, and it just passed through her fingers. Even if she had predicted it in advance, she could not change the outcome. In the end, Dou Xiya still accepted the reality. No matter how much she hated Zuo Xiaomeng later, she gave up and did not tell Zuo Xiaomeng the truth. She did not take revenge on her. She knew that this was the person Mo Yanjia had guarded her whole life. She had never wanted to hurt anyone for a moment, nor did she want to hurt, not for others, but only for Mo Yanjia, so she still woke up Zuo Xiaomeng - a person who was completely the same but completely different. I don't know if Zuo Xiaomeng knew the truth and chose to escape. In the end, she recognized Bai Yinghan as Mo Yanjia. In fact, this girl was far stronger and more decisive than anyone imagined. She knew far more things than others imagined. But she couldn't bear the fact that the person who had accompanied and protected her for more than 20 years had left. She refused to wake up and was paralyzed. If Mo Yanjia had known that the ending would be like this, I don't know if she would have refused at the beginning. Unfortunately, there was no if. If Mo Yanjia had met another psychiatrist, if Zuo Xiaomeng had not seen Bai Yinghan's recruitment, if Mo Yanjia had promised Dou Xiya that night, they would go down the mountain directly, if the doctor at that time had not created Mo Yanjia, if Xu Yiwen had not hypnotized Mo Yanjia, if if they had never met, would the outcome have been different? Would everyone have lived an ordinary life peacefully, instead of ending their lives with no chance of seeing each other again? Suddenly I remembered a lyric - "Countless timelines and countless possibilities are finally intertwined towards you" - Mayday's "If We Never Met". Then I hurriedly searched the Internet for this song. After listening to it quietly, I felt that it fit the story very well. "And in my autobiography, you once had you. There are no regretful poems." Just like the lyrics, no matter what kind of life a group of them will lead in the end, it is enough to leave beautiful memories. Ps: After reading the story, I scribbled it. Don't take it too seriously. The above are all personal opinions. Please correct me if there are any differences. PS: I don't mind if the author makes a sideshow to slap me in the face (please give me a slap in the face? Feel free to slap me in the face)

Three years later, I still feel very emotional when I read this article. It would have been great if everything had never started. Xiaomeng and Yanjia would have been together for the rest of their lives. For Mo Yanjia, nothing is more important than Zuo Xiaomeng. Because she was born to protect Zuo Xiaomeng. Although it is cruel to Mo Yanjia to say this, it is the fact. If she can no longer protect Zuo Xiaomeng, she will fall into deep doubt about the value of her own existence. She has not only been emotionally bound to Zuo Xiaomeng for so many years, but more importantly, she has a natural sense of responsibility. So she will never choose Dou Xiya. In the end, she disappeared not only because of Zuo Xiaomeng's unconsciousness, but also because of her desire to protect Zuo Xiaomeng. She knew that since everyone had disappeared, the only person who threatened Zuo Xiaomeng was herself. She would not let any threat to Zuo Xiaomeng's life, even if that person was herself. So she was willing to give up herself and protect Zuo Xiaomeng for the last time. And to Zuo Xiaomeng, Mo Yanjia is more important than anyone else. Mo Yanjia thought that for Zuo Xiaomeng, it didn't matter who sat in the position of protector, as long as he could protect her. She was wrong. Perhaps this was the case when Mo Yanjia was born. But after so many years of companionship, there is an emotional bond between the two. So Zuo Xiaomeng is not indifferent. She can do without anyone, but she can't do without Mo Yanjia. It can only be Mo Yanjia. Even if Mo Yanjia no longer plays the role of protector, even if she is strong enough to protect herself and no longer needs Mo Yanjia's protection, even if Mo Yanjia's existence threatens her health, she still wants this person to stay by her side. Dou Xiya felt that Zuo Xiaomeng created Bai Yinghan No. 2 For herself, which meant that she would threaten Mo Yanjia if she fell in love. But I think this proves that she loves Mo Yanjia very much. First, Mo Yanjia is the motivation for her to suppress her feelings rather than the hindrance to her developing feelings. Between her own feelings towards the outside world and Mo Yanjia, she always gives priority to Mo Yanjia. Secondly, she didn't care at all about giving time to Mo Yanjia to fall in love. At most, she was a little jealous that she was no longer the only thing Mo Yanjia cared about. Her concern for Mo Yanjia and her own suppression of emotions gave birth to Bai Yinghan No. 2. These two people love each other so much. They really want to be together forever. They cannot fall in love with others. When I saw the end, I was thinking, Oh my God, how is Xiaomeng going to accept Yanjia leaving. In my imagination, when she wakes up, she will hug Bai Yinghan and cry, Yan Jia is gone. I didn't expect that she would be so painful that she was unwilling to accept the fact that Yan Jia was gone. This must be because the author is so awesome. The last sentence to Bai Yinghan said, "Yanjia, I knew you wouldn't abandon me." It really made my heart hurt. There is another person who I have always been worried about, Mi Chuchu. She has the same ability as Mo Yanjia, but due to personality reasons she cannot become the ruler, but she is also dominated by the protective nature of Zuo Xiaomeng, so she naturally decided to become Mo Yanjia's deputy. It's also the tragedy of being the second in command. She also did a lot for Zuo Xiaomeng, but all Zuo Xiaomeng could see was Mo Yanjia without her. Although Zuo Xiaomeng cannot be blamed, she did not know after all. You can't blame Mo Yanjia. Mo Yanjia came out to take care of Zuo Xiaomeng and made Zuo Xiaomeng so weak. How could Mi Chuchu do it again? That goes against their original intention. But this is indeed very unfair to Michu Chu. She refused and resisted. But in the end, she still chose Zuo Xiaomeng. Fortunately, before disappearing, Zuo Xiaomeng finally knew that there was actually a person named Mi Chuchu who was also guarding her. And Bai Yinghan No. 2. This person's existence is redundant from beginning to end. Zuo Xiaomeng has Mo Yanjia and Bai Yinghan, so he doesn't need her at all. She herself knew very well that she was redundant, and she also had a protective nature towards Zuo Xiaomeng, so she very calmly accepted that she left for Zuo Xiaomeng. It's very cruel. It is a tragedy in itself, and the protagonist at the center of the tragedy accepts his tragic fate so calmly. The last struggle was to hope that Zuo Xiaomeng would know his existence and that Zuo Xiaomeng would be really good. Not to mention Bai Yinghan and Dou Xiya. Falling in love with a multiple personality patient. I still remember that I first thought it was Boss Bai who was sick. In the end, our boss Bai became the only normal person. Dou Xiya was almost driven crazy by this relationship. This grand BE really made my heart ache, but I was very happy to see such a masterpiece.

Tortured to the point of heartache (very good writing)

Individuals without consciousness are just dead things made up of various compounds, and there is no difference between individuals. So I have always believed that multiple personalities with different wills are different people.

A psychological suspense-type sadistic novel? That's okay! Blindly guessing that Mo Yanjia at the beginning is Zuo Xiaomeng's split personality?

What happened to the ending? Becoming schizophrenic? ? ?

What do i think Xiao Meng and Yan Jia are a perfect match!

I got to this point and finished reading it in one go. It's a great article. I loved it. I also felt helpless as if I was in a drama.

Multiple personalities are a very interesting subject. Personalities are constantly in conflict with each other, and they are complementary to each other. This contradiction is very beautiful. And the emergence of multiple personalities often means that the main personality has suffered very serious trauma or stress, which determines that the story is also very rich. I have not seen many of the same themes so far, just one movie and one novel. The movie focuses on the former, while the novel describes both. It can be said to be a more detailed example. When reading this article, I have been struggling with many questions in my mind: If the sub-personality does not do anything illegal and can get along well with the main personality, can multiple personality still be regarded as a disease? Is treatment needed? What if the sub-personality and the main personality fall in love with different people? Should the wishes of each personality be considered at this time? Or follow the idea of ​​master personality? What do you love when you fall in love with someone with the same body and different personality? (This raises the age-old question of "what is love," which we will not discuss for the time being.) With these questions in mind, I finished reading the story. Some of them probably got the answers, and some of them didn't. Just talking about the way Zuo Xiaomeng and Mo Yanjia get along, I personally don't think it can be regarded as a disease. This is more like a protective mechanism of the human body. Think about it from another angle - God activated your "spare tire" when he discovered that you were not adapting well to this world, so there was an additional "sub-personality" in your body. If you think so, it is normal and does not require treatment. But this is based purely on the way the two of them get along. When Dr. Dou and Boss Bai appear, conflicts arise. The balance between Mo and Zuo was broken, and they suddenly realized that they could not fall in love like normal people. Subconsciously, both of them felt this deeply, and tacitly tried to ease this conflict in their own way. But it's of no use... The ending of the story is expected. If you don't consider the fantasy elements, the love between four "people" and three bodies (it feels like this word is weird) will definitely be a tragedy. This is always an irreconcilable contradiction and a very acute problem. If Mo did not disappear in the end, but coexisted with Zuo Youyou, how should they develop their respective love lines? They were born as one person, and it is impossible for two stories to happen to one person at the same time. It can happen for a while, but it will not last long. As for what Zuo Xiaomeng said when she looked at Boss Bai after waking up, my personal interpretation is that she actually fully understood the fact that she had "killed" Mo, but she still deceived herself that Mo was still alive and just accompanied her in a different form. As mentioned in the previous article, Mo is a "hero" and her guardian in her heart. Later, the "White Boss" she split off also has this kind of image. When the images of the two people highly overlapped in her mind, it was unexpected but reasonable for her to regard Boss Bai in front of her as Mo Yanjia. Whether she wakes up later or continues to be in such a hazy state, there is no doubt that Zuo Xiaomeng and Boss Bai are he. I just pity Dr. Dou... But everything is never finished. It's a good thing that there are no extras, leaving more room for readers' imagination. I have said a lot, so I hope I won't be offended if I am offended.