Remembering Flowers (Lu Hua Fan Fiction)

They should have been happy to have passed away happily after being together for thirty years. . . . . . But the tears just couldn't stop. . . . . . So distressed. . . . . .

I almost cried when I read this story calmly and even a little coldly. If my colleagues saw it, they would have no idea how surprised they would be. Being able to stay here all your life, even if you are not tolerated by the world, should be a blessing. At least he won't be like himself, leaving only memories as sad as the flower language of Manzhushahua. My lover and I have been separated for five years. Looking back now, I don't know how I spent the days when he first left. Later, when he joined the army, he underwent life-defying training but only wanted to die. It's not easy to meet someone who can help me resolve my knot, but he's also my superior. Although I was his adjutant at the time, I once again lost the discipline and rules in the army - he was transferred by his superiors to perform tasks abroad, and I chose to retire. After that, we only emailed once and then lost all contact. Now I don't even know if he is still alive... I still clearly remember our first chat. He asked me if I knew why he asked me, a female non-commissioned officer, to serve as his adjutant. I replied that I didn't know. Then he told me: "When I first saw you at the airport of the base, I thought you were very special. Although I knew from the beginning that you were exceptionally selected to this special task force because of your exceptional performance in training. But I still couldn't understand that a woman, not to mention many physical inconveniences, is prone to being emotional. At this point, you can't be as outstanding as a man. It wasn't until I saw you that I understood why you stood out from so many male soldiers. Because the first thing I felt when I saw you was cold. Although it is located in the tropics and it is summer, I still shuddered unconsciously. Calmness, but a kind of cold-blooded coldness that can only be experienced by people who have experienced countless Shura fields. Although you smiled when you saluted me, I couldn't feel any warmth in that smile. Later, I saw you more times and found that although you were gentle and polite, there was always an invisible wall that isolated people. Thousands of miles away. And your training results were as good as ever. Until one night a month after you arrived, I found you sitting alone on the steps of the dormitory, looking up at the night sky. That look gave me a very strange feeling, and I felt that you were not as cold-blooded as you appeared. I wanted to know why..." This was the first time he said so many words to me, and after listening, I just said good night to him and left. But later I discovered that he and I had a better and better understanding, both at work and in private. Even when my playful cynicism drove him crazy, he never once blamed me. From that moment on, I knew that our relationship was more than just a superior and a subordinate who had the most tacit understanding, or it was just a matter of course for us to be friends who argued with each other to the point of making each other mad. Sure enough, there were gradually more rumors outside. I never cared about those things until one night he came to me in the cafeteria and asked me what I thought about those rumors. That night, he told me that I would give him a year, and as long as he retired, he would have nothing to worry about. That night, for the first time since my lover died unexpectedly, I truly smiled. But disaster struck in the second week. Because my training has ended and I have passed all the assessments, my superiors have said that I will be sent overseas to perform a mission. However, this mission will last ten years, and I will not be able to return to my country and contact my relatives and friends during the process. I was hesitating, but unexpectedly my superior informed me the next day that I didn't need to go because someone had taken my place. The first thing I thought of at that time was him. But for a whole week after that, I didn't see him again. Finally, I submitted my retirement application to my superiors. To my surprise, the application was approved quickly. Just the night before I left, I finally saw him again. None of us spoke, just silence. Finally, before he left, he gave me a piece of paper. He said that it was his email address. He said that no matter where he was, he would definitely open this email address as long as he had time. I laughed, my smile was light and gentle. I understand that life and death are uncertain in ten years. I know that my heart is far from as strong as my appearance. Wait ten years... On the ship leaving the base, I smiled mockingly, but the object of ridicule was myself. I know I can't wait that long. I don't believe that the so-called love can last forever. Although I don't know if I can let it go, I will force myself to let it go. Such feelings and waiting are beyond my ability to bear. Later, a very good friend of mine once told me that he felt that I was too calm and rational in dealing with emotional issues. I laughed and asked him, how many more times do you think I can withstand such feelings like a moth flying into a flame?! Life is very good now. In my free time, I occasionally sleep in, watch movies, cartoons, read books, make a cup of coffee and lie on the wooden floor in my room listening to heavy metal or gothic rock. Occasionally I go to find that friend to play a song "Guangling San" or Playing chess to pass the time, or playing my favorite Beethoven's piano sonata "Moonlight", drawing comics to keep a diary when I'm bored, or doing nothing but running outside to bask in the sun and the moon, counting the stars, and taking photos everywhere with a camera... I don't know if I will meet someone who will make me marry myself. Anyway, everything is unknown, so let's look forward to it. The sun rises in the east and sets in the west every day, but there is no big change. The days have to go on. I think maybe this is my real "daily life". Just like what he, my commander, Murong Yanjun once said to me: "Don't forget the really important thing, that is, we are all still alive, and we will continue to live. The past cannot be changed, and tomorrow may not come again. Cherish what we have now, and at least we can have a clear conscience." That's it, that's enough. Life is a grand feast, but for me, it hasn't come to an end yet. Author's reply: God, I just saw this review. I'm so ashamed. I'm so touched by your comments. When writing this article, I really feel like I am Lianhua, recalling those little things. I'm still young and haven't experienced any big twists and turns. The words in this piece are derived from the feelings of the elders in the memory, which is also the case, although there is no gender issue. But I have experienced war and violence, and it has also been full of twists and turns. My grandpa is a soldier. I often look through the old photos and listen to him talk about the past. I look at the old man who is still very strong with admiration. Then he passed away suddenly in his second year of high school. I was sad for a long time. At that time, my grandma was just like the person in the article. I would often be in a daze and talk to myself. It was really a difficult day. I remember that I spent a lot of time comforting my grandma to get through those days. She is also very happy now, and for grandpa's sake I think this is good. It's enough to live happily with those beautiful memories and cherish the happiness in front of you. Really, I think this is enough

This article is so memorable

I really couldn't help but shed tears when I saw the end... In addition to being sad about the separation of life and death, what's more touching is that we live and die in the same place. Even though their lives are miserable, they can still find someone who will never be separated from each other forever. I think they will also be happy under the Nine Springs. There is a broad agreement between life and death, and it was said to Zicheng.

I cried, it's so touching and real, I really want to cry T^T

So touching~crying~~

I feel so sad. Fortunately, the two of them have been together for thirty years, so I am relieved.

So touching~crying~~

Wow, so touching. So good

God, earth! My heart is so pink