Seeking Only Pure Joy

This long review has been delayed for a long time, and I have been waiting for it for a long time. Many times I wanted to start and say goodbye to this story with my most sincere words, but I found it too difficult and there were too many words to say but nothing to say. It was 18 years ago when I happened to see the name Zai Lun. For nearly four years, I had been accompanied by Wei Qinghuan in my life, and I was always looking forward to the ending. However, when it was time to say goodbye, I hesitated, was reluctant, and wanted to pour out all the words that had been in my heart for so long. The magic of this story is that it allows readers to inject so many different emotions and put themselves into it. From my own point of view, there is helplessness for that extravagant and decadent era, there is heartache for the defeat of the Sino-Japanese War and the destruction of the Westernization Movement, there is regret for the emperor who wanted to govern the country but was unable to save the day, there is admiration for the reformers who shed their blood and determination to reform, and there are also sighs and sighs for the endings of many characters... But what I want to say most is the main line between Lianli and the emperor. When we first met, she was an innocent and bright girl, loved by her mother-in-law and brothers in the palace; he was a young emperor, who had to play his role as an emperor in a familiar but cold palace by the rules. I think this was the most unforgettable and nostalgic moment in his life. She mistook him for her brother, and then said to him, from now on, I will be Brother Tan's family. Even though he went through too many changes later, and spent so many lonely and long days and nights in the palace, he should always remember these words. Later, due to the Queen Mother's desire for power and interests, Liao Liao was pushed to the forefront time and time again, becoming a pawn and victim in the struggle for power. Maybe she started to grow up a little bit from then on. It was then that she understood that people cannot always express themselves as they wish, so she also learned to be patient and smooth the edges. But she was still the same Zai Ling. When she learned that the imperial doctor was not really treating Amma under the instruction of the Queen Mother, she took the medicine bowl and drank it in one gulp, and drank the medicine that could not cure Amma's disease. During the Sino-Japanese War during the Sino-Japanese War, during the celebration of the Queen Mother's 60th birthday, Lian Lian knelt on the deck and told the Queen Mother that there was nothing wrong in the emperor's declaration of war against Japan, and expressed his painstaking efforts and ambitions. There were obviously many people kneeling, but she was the only one who could understand him. So much so that when I saw the sentence in the following article, "It turns out that in all the difficult moments in life, she was by her side without regrets." This was the first scene that came to my mind. Isn't she afraid? She is afraid, afraid that Amma will leave him; she is also afraid that he will not be able to fulfill his ambitions and save the country and people he cherishes. So she ignored the rules and the Queen Mother's anger. When he was in the most difficult and isolated time, she stayed with him silently in a place where he couldn't see him. The part of Wuxu and Gengzi is what I think is the climax of the whole work, and it is also the most painful and torturous period for us. If the misunderstandings and reluctance experienced in the palace in the early stage made Lili grow, then the coups and national changes in the Wuxu and Gengzi years completely made Lili bid farewell to the carefree, innocent and bright self of the past. During the 1898 Year, she had the opportunity to stand beside him and listen to him describe the blueprint for reform and describe his ambitions. But she is different from them all. Those who support the reform only hope that the emperor can make up his mind, act vigorously and resolutely, and use the existing power to implement changeable laws; the die-hards try every means to obstruct and kill the reform. She was the only one who understood the difficulty of his situation. He obviously hopes more than anyone else that he can realize his ambition and revive the country, but he also understands that he cannot escape the shackles of the Queen Mother and cannot insist on going his own way to compete with her. She also wanted to see the situation after the Qing Dynasty was revived, but she wanted to see him safe even more. This time, in order to protect him from persecution, Ling Ling became a shameful informer. But this time is different from the past. Because of her "betrayal", too many people lost their lives. For him, everything in the past can be forgotten and forgiven. But this time, what stands between them is the blood of the reformer, his freedom and ideals, and her betrayal of his trust. But he didn't know what she had endured. This is where I feel very struggling and helpless. From anyone's perspective, we can't bear to blame them. Although I feel sorry for Liao Lian, try to think about the fact that the emperor feels no better than Liao Lian. He was "deceived" by the most trusted and important person. One of them can't explain it, and the other one can't get the real answer. But who can say that this is not love? Love means mutual sacrifice and achievement, giving willingly and without regrets. This is love, deep love. Later, he personally gave her to others, granted her a marriage, and wrote a plaque for her. He was obviously crazy with jealousy and tried desperately to hide his feelings. The next few years were probably not easy for him either. When he heard Rose say that her friend liked him very much and her friend was Sangege, when he learned that Lieye had endured the pain and took medicine in order to be with him, when he learned that Lieye was desperately protecting Concubine Zhen at the well, when he saw Lieye doing the work for Wuge herself. When he finally learned the whole truth, knew the real purpose of Lili entering the Summer Palace early, and had to bear all the consequences... An outsider like me felt deeply tortured, let alone him, how much he should blame himself and regret the harm he had done to her, the so-called revenge. When I was writing this text, I was playing "Destiny" by Jiajia on my phone, and I realized that this song is also suitable for them: Love can make each other know each other and depend on each other for life But resigned to fate Love can be heart-to-heart, thrilling and thrilling But it's hard to resist the fate of popularity I belong to your destiny Not my destiny No life, no sobriety And can I hold you tightly? Love writes my Book of Songs Can't figure out my fate The life you gave me will be returned to you in the rest of my life After all, they had no chance to protect each other. Liao Lian left quietly just like the magnolia in Yanqu Pavilion withered silently. Sometimes I lament that fortunately, in a few years, he will go to see her, and then they can really be together forever, and no one can separate them. Lingling, if you wait for him any longer, you won't be able to bear the thought of him living in torment and self-blame for the rest of his life. As time goes by, this love will never end. I believe that in parallel time and space, they are already together, without any worldly shackles, without conspiracy or exploitation, only Zai Tan and Zai Lun, together forever.

"The good days are reduced to the remaining snow, but the face is finally visible in the clouds." I first read Qing Huan in the early autumn of 2018. From then on, "the lake is beautiful when it is clear and the mountains are empty and rainy" has completely become the love in my heart. So in the early spring of 22, the day when she got her name and entered the mansion in the story, in this season with the spring breeze of Yihe but her favorite snow, this story came to its finale, in the early spring of Yihai year, in this early spring of Renyin year... Every time I mention them in the story, my eyes well up with tears. That feeling is that I have witnessed them. I am lucky to be able to be a reader and a bystander, and participate in their real life with a sense of history and a sense of life. I often dream of them in the story, walking towards me with the snow in the capital and the wind in the Western Mountains. Thinking of them is like being hit in the softest part of my heart, and I shed tears unconsciously. She is the person I admire the most. Her loneliness and bravery are like an old letter mixed with wind and snow. When I first read it, I became more and more familiar. When I came back to my senses, I was like a person in the clouds. When she recounted her life, "Everyone else thinks that her fate is good, but they don't know the bitterness in it." I think she is lucky. This kind of luck has an element of destiny. She has family, love and friendship. Brothers, Ama'er Niang, the days in the palace, childhood memories, the palace garden, the Ripple Palace, whenever I see the bird's-eye view of Prince Chun's palace, I imagine which one of them might be the residence where she lived and spent the first half of her life. I have a feeling of admiration and admiration for Qing Fei. I also really feel that she has done a very good job in restoring the story of Qing Huan. I have always felt that Qing Huan is reflected in the word "true". Whether it is the connection of historical events, the interweaving of historical figures, or the shaping of the background of fictional characters and real characters, they are all true and attentive in building the entire story frame and content. As a reader of this story, I feel very grateful and lucky. Just like what is written at the beginning of the story, you did it. There is a person who spends her whole life struggling with it in order to love him and everyone she wants to love unswervingly. Qinghuan is a story that teaches us to love and be loved. There is no shouting at the top of one's voice, no dramatic sorrow and joy, but some hidden love, and love and being loved that can only be understood after careful observation. Happiness is a life, made up of family, friendship and love. Their lives may be short and gorgeous, end in depression, be hesitant in their ambitions, or be extremely controlling. Their lives are clearly shown in the story. Qing Huan is like this to me. When I think of her, a hint of sweetness emerges, hitting the center of my heart impartially, covering it and drowning it. This is her existence in my heart. The main body of the story has been completed. Since reading Qing Huan, I have begun to believe in the existence of parallel worlds. In addition to the wordless reluctance to leave, there is also the hope of their reunion in the clouds in the parallel world. "I leave my most passionate sadness in this story to commemorate the people I love and miss in this story." The road in the clouds may be a little bumpy and difficult, but everyone will meet again, and those who love and be loved will pass through the years, on the Taiping Lake in early spring, in the first rain in fourteen years, in the first snow in fourteen years, under the Baoxia in front of the Yangxin Hall, and by the Taiping Lake at night. , In the cloister of Lianyi Hall, in Fubi Pavilion, in Yangzhai in Xishan, in Zhichun Pavilion, in Yulan Hall, in Chuxiu Palace, in Fuchen Hall, in Baohua Hall, in Siqian Hall, in Zegong Residence, in Zaoyun Building, in Hanyuan Hall, the afterglow of the end shone on each of them.

First of all, congratulations Feifei! You have successfully fulfilled your original little dream. This novel is easy to read, but after six years of hard work and continuous persistence, it is your own place in your heart. It is amazing and something worthy of pride for the author to have his own place created by himself. This is also the original reason why we became friends. Whether it is the characters or the plot in the novel, it is my honor as a reader to step into the world you created. The novel ended, and I remembered that when I first read the novel, I just wanted to look for that trace of history. There is only so much warmth in literature and historical materials, but literature can enter people's hearts. Since we cannot peek into the relics of the past, we might as well express our empathy and talent for this period of history ourselves. You did it, happy for you. In the ending dialogue between the Queen Mother and the Emperor, the Queen Mother's unwillingness, unbridled greed for power, and selfish and vicious dark side were completely revealed. She wanted to be strong and scheming all her life, but she could only hide behind the curtain and never really gained it. Not only because of the unfairness of her power, but also because she had never understood the mission and meaning of being a monarch. The emperor is not an ordinary head of state. He is the symbol of the empire. He has supreme power, endless glory and supplies from all over the world. He also bears responsibilities that others cannot imagine. He was firmly controlled by the so-called world, and he dedicated his life to the empire and became the king and father of 40 million people. In the whole world, there is nothing but the royal land. On the shore of the land, could it be the king's ministers? He has to maintain peace in the world and ensure food and clothing on the shores of the land. Dealing with any emergencies at all times, no one can empathize with him. He always makes his own decisions, silently carries the heavy pressure, carries the loneliness, and lives a lonely life in shackles. He is the loneliest nobleman in the Forbidden City, and he is the only real hero.

I was very moved after reading the ending. I have been following this novel for many years. Now that I have read the ending, I feel reluctant to let go. I have been waiting for the time when Brother Tan and Zai Ling resolve their misunderstanding. But in the end, the two people are more relieved, an indescribable love, which means "the feelings are endless, and the love is countless." Just like the magnolia in the painting and the plum blossoms on the branches, the ultimate taste in the world is pure joy, and perhaps this is the only pure joy that Lian'er wants. "Backlight and the moon are in the shadow of flowers, and it has been ten years of traces and ten years of heart." Looking back on everything they have experienced, she stood by his side in the year of 1898 to support the reform. After the failure of the reform, she pretended to be attached to the Queen Mother for his safety, but was misunderstood by the world. She took Xining Pills and hurt her body just for him. She soaked him in ice water to cool down his fever, and she silently gave and protected him many times. "It turns out that in all the difficult moments in his life, she was by his side without any regrets." Living in the tide of the times, everyone's destiny is beyond their control. Only the firm belief and longing for each other in their hearts support each other. The characters in the book, Se Se, Ze Gong, Zhuo Yi, Jing Xin, Rong Ling, and Ying Yin, are each so vivid and powerful, and the brother-sister relationship is also very touching. In addition, the author has paid great attention to the historical scenes and costumes, and the descriptions in the book are very exquisite. Guangxu is a tragic figure. "I want to fly without wings, I want to cross without a boat" in his eyes is full of the sorrow of the fate of the country, his lifelong enthusiasm for charity, and his exhausted ambition. In the melancholy of being unable to restore the turmoil of the building, it turns into the words of the pen. This feeling is timeless, and only Lian'er can understand his ideals and sorrows. Thanks to the author for creating the character of Zai Lun, for being able to understand him, support him, and encourage him at that time, which fulfilled a regret of the imperialists. "Today's people don't see the moon in ancient times, but today's moon once illuminated the ancients. People in ancient times and today can see the bright moon like running water." The moonlight had not changed that year.

Happy New Year to all my lovely angels~ Thank you to my friends who have been accompanying this story and me! Love you! I hope you will all be happy, smooth and worry-free in 2022! 2022 Is the sixth year that I started this story. I started serializing it in 2017. There are laughter and tears. I have fallen deeply in love with every character in this story, and regard this place as my paradise and pure land. Because I selfishly hope that Lili can stay with me for one more year, I want to leave the ending in the brand new 2022. I hope that in the year after this story is completed, all friends who have read, laughed and loved this story can move towards a brighter future~

This lady is amazing! ! I remember that I first saw this article many years ago on a Tieba forum, and then I came here. My wife still insists on writing articles after all these years. She is really perseverant! As expected of an imperial party, Mr. Xu's resilience is there! One of my imperial party friends even added my wife's WeChat account, what a fate!

Woo woo woo, I empathize fiercely. Because my ancestors are Manchus, I have known him since I was very young. But I didn't know much about it at the time. I fell in love with him after I was in school because of his saying, "I want to save China. If I can save the country, even though I have no power, what's the problem?" Later I fell in love with him deeply. Later, I slowly gnawed through obscure historical materials and learned more about him, and even some of his little problems seemed cute. The girl had her first love in Huaichun, and my first love was with an ancient man who had passed away. At that time, I was jealous, envious and envious of Concubine Zhen, and wished I was her in my previous life. But he is also very happy that he can have such a beautiful, lovely and lively confidant as Zhen Fei. As his lover, Concubine Zhen also worked very hard. At that time, I missed him during the day and he was also in my dreams. Over the years, when I encountered grievances or happy things, I wanted to go to his mausoleum. Later, I slowly accepted that he had left long ago, and how far away I was from him. The world is so vast that there is no connection between me and him. If we have to say the connection, it may just be that we are of the same ethnicity. Even though I love him to the core, I actually have nothing to do with him. Sometimes I feel very lucky that I was born in the later generations. If I lived at the same time as him, I would definitely not have the opportunity to walk the path he walked, read the books he read, and talk to him, even if he could not respond. After going to college, I pretended to be serious for a few years, but I couldn't hide my love. Anything that had the slightest connection with him would remind me of him, so I stopped pretending. What's wrong with liking him? I just fell in love with an impossible guy, and I was actually very satisfied and happy in the process of liking him. He is in the long river of history, and I can't get out of it

I cried to death after watching it all night

Happy New Year 2023 to the little angels! All your wishes come true~believe it or not!

"Loving someone requires great courage. Sangege is the bravest person I have ever seen. I don't want her to be let down again."